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Entry for January 02, 2007 Sometimes, the loudest words spoken between two people are the ones not said.

I know not where I go, but I do know where I have been. And I walked too many steps without you by my side. Each and every day that I go through this world without your love, your strength, your wisdom, and your compassion is a day that is lost forever. It comes not this way again. The simple way that I see it, is that I can be part of your life and you mine. I choose to share what little I have with those I love and am friends with. What you choose to do is totally up to you.

Upon what shore would I have to land upon, in order to share the same sunlight. For the journey has been long, and the seas have pounded upon me with unrelenting fury. Countless times my heart rose and fell, as the tides rise and fall within it. But alas, I fear that my grip upon finding you is as so many grains of sand, running through my fingers, back upon a shore unknown, unseen, unloved... S.D.G

I remember the first time I saw you. The morning sun shining upon your body. I had to stop, because I was not sure of the vision which my eyes beheld. You hair, flowed down like a mountain waterfall, your breasts were like two grapefruit, exposed for me to see. I looked at every curve of your body, and thanked the man above for allowing me to see you in such a way. I had the urge to wake you, but I decided to let you sleep. I was in a way, afraid to startle such a vision. After all, you were lying on a public park table, passed out drunk, and I just had to let everyone else laugh at your ass!!!

someone just sent me 3 cherry e-mails, cause i heard the you have cherry mail thing 3 times, but they didn't get through. so pleeeeese, send them again..Stephen

Sometimes, a person has to stop, and take a look at life. We live in such a busy world, and we pass each other by without even stopping to say hello, how are you, having a good day? One thing that I find refreshing on here, is that it seems to be in a way, a little more informal, and promotes free expression up to a point. The power of the written word, is tremendous. It can heal old wounds, foster new love, breed hate, and instill courage to those who read the content. I am nothing special, an ordinary man, living on this spinning world for as long as God allows me. I do not go to a church, for fellowship like I should. But I try to live, as He would want me to. But I know, that every day I fall short. I am not worthy to receive the blessings that God bestows on me, nevertheless I am grateful for all that He gives to me. But I do believe in trying to achieve a higher standard for ourselves. Honesty, integrity, compassion, humility, are more than just words. They in a sense represent the better part of who we are, and can be, in our human race. But I also have a message. A message that is for a specific person: YOU. And what's so strange, is that maybe you can understand the message more than I. I do not know why I am sitting here at 1 A.M. in the morning, when I should be sleeping, but I must do what I feel can make a difference in someone's life. You matter in this world. And you actions matter to every other brother and sister in this moment in time. Every person you come into contact with, sends a ripple through not only them, but it alters from that first ripple, every person that the ripples touch, going from ripples on a glassy lake, to become the roaring waves upon the oceans. However, you have the ability to send waves for good and evil. The main point that I get from this is that one message: You matter. When you are down, You matter. When You sit there, and the wounds of life hurt so bad, You matter. That's all that I have for now. But think about it, and know you matter.

why at times does life have to be extremes. One can go from the bottom, shoot to the top like a dolphin in water, only to start to sink back into the darkness. in the last month, I have went from one end to the other. first I was alone, then I find a few friends, then I find my new friends friend, who is leaving to texas. then my new friends and I get a scare, about the one. then hell breaks out between the two. I get closer to someone, that I know i neather deserve, nor have a chance. then out of the blue, i hear from a long lost love, which I have been with every four or five years for the past 23. then I find out that her daughter, who is 16, MAY be mine. I cry, I think, I shed many a tear. meanwhile i lose contact with my friends, and the one person whom i worry about. then i meet the old girlfriend, and her daughter for dinner. How i wish that girl was mine to love, that she would accept me being her father. I would be proud to share what I could with her. then, two days later, another old girlfriend, the one that first made me feel like a real man, pops back into my life. what the fuck. we remember the past, the touching like it was yesterday. we talk some on the web, and we feel like we did where we left off. so tell me, what the hell is going on in my life. I was miserable, then happy, then so damn happy, tehn confused now. then I feel terrible, because one person is left out of all of this. I cant do anything about that, but tell her part of this dream and nightmare all at once. but she wont listen to me any more. so i feel the loss and i feel empty and overflowing at the same time. but in the end, i know that i will end up alone, again. sorry about the writing, but i'm too old for this stuff to be happening....lol

I am fortunate enough, to welcome this new year, with new friends. You know who you are, and you have given me a gift which I only hope I can repay. May this year kick last year's ASS!!!!!