I look deep into his soul
I see what he does not want seen
I know things he does not want known
I try to hide my knowledge of his inner struggle
We sit and talk
He tries to help me, to focus on me
I freeze up, hide, get cold inside
I turn it around, change the direction
I start probing into him deeper and deeper
Getting him to say what he does not want said
Getting him to feel what he does not want to feel
He needs to release, spread his wings
He is tender inside, full of emotion
A scared little boy, hiding for fear
Fear of detection, of rejection
A need to blend, to fit in
He acts as he thinks is expected
Tells the stories, goes through the motions
He hurts those in his path to prove his case
He hurts himself, bringing him deeper down, further
A hard, cold player, crushing those in his way
A lost little boy, crying, dying, deep inside
A boy wondering around, growing, changing inside
All the same man; lost, alone, confused, anxious, scared