I have been married for 11 years as of 7-26-07. I have 2 children. But I will start from the beginning. I got married in 1996, bought a house or should I say tried to buy a house, and got pregnant all in the first year of marriage. Thought that things were going good but soon to learn that I was married to a person that I really didnt know. I put up with a lot of verbal abuse for many years and sometime it got physical. I thought about leaving him many times, but always came back. My friends tried to help me but I really couldnt see it. I guess I was just begging for more. I know this sounds like a sob story, but I am starting to wise up. I always wanted good sex, time to myself, time for the children and at least have some time to spend with my husband. My life isnt what I thought it would be but at least I have learned patience, and be really out going as long as I know my children are ok and I try to listen as long as I am not being yelled at. I can actually say that I know what love feels like because my best friend from way back found me back and showed me how to really feel again. I do have really good friends I just need to do things in a pace that I can handle..