I would like to introduce to my fubar friends my new Nephew, John Micheal Rucker. Both Mother and baby are doing well.
Now I have to get some stuff out, and if you want please read this.
I am happy for my sister in law I really am, I am proud of her. I just have been hit with a reality that I have been working hard to try to put behind me. I was reminded today that no matter what I do in life, it means nothing when it compares to being a part of bringing a new life into this world. No matter what I do it doesn't matter in the long run. None will care really, no one will live to tell the tale. I feel like dirt right now, lower then low. I wish I could explain my feelings better, or why I am feeling this way, but it is tough to explain. I don't want to seem self-serving or needy.