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What are you waiting for?
You fight for our country, you were fighting for us all
And now I don't know where you've gone
You fight for our country, you were fighting for us all
And now I don't know where you've gone
You were the one I loved, you were always on my mind
I could never get enough, we were always spending time
But now the time is spent, I never thought it would
I cried the day you went, just like I knew I would
You went to fight this war, the battle rages on
I miss you so much more, when I turn the tv on
The news brings painful thoughts, I wish that you were home
I wish this war would stop so I wouldn't have to be alone
And now I write a letter, how
I feel about this, war
But I never got one, back
I wait for it every, day
The war is getting, worse
I think I'm gonna, burst
It's eating me, alive
It's freezing me, inside
I clench your picture as I clench my gun
I clench my teeth as I unload round one
You fight for our country, you were fighting for us all
And now I don't know where you've gone - don't know where you've gone
You fight for our country, you were fighting for us all
And now I don't know where you've gone - don't know where you've gone
My hand it begins to shake, cause I know this is the last
Letter that I will make, and I better make it fast
Cause my pain is rising high, I write down how and why
Your face could dry these eyes, but I'm afraid that you have died
So now I'll do the same, I scribble down the words
I Scribble down your name, each letter hurts at first
I pray you'd be alright, my heart says otherwise
We both lost this fight, we both lost our lives
Everything's so, dead
So many things I should have, said
Good times that we, had
A heart that can go, bad
I'm starin' at the, wall
Until I can't ignore it, all
The last letter, goodbye
Close your eyes don't watch me, die
I clench your picture as I clench my gun
I clench my teeth as I unload round one
You fight for our country, you were fighting for us all
And now I don't know where you've gone - don't know where you've gone
You fight for our country, you were fighting for us all
And now I don't know where you've gone - don't know where you've gone
I clench your picture as I clench my gun
I clench my teeth as I unload round one
You fight for our country, you were fighting for us all
And now I don't know where you've gone - don't know where you've gone
You fight for our country, you were fighting for us all
And now I don't know where you've gone - don't know where you've gone
My life is something I hate
And will it all come down to a knife blade
You always tell me everything will be okay
But do you really think I'll see the day
Now I never ever want to see the sun again
And I never ever thought this would be the plan
And I'm never ever gonna see a gun again
Because of the one that's in my hand
I collapse on the floor as I'm cryin'
You might not like this ending but it's my end
And let my blood fall down
How did it come to this
And let my blood fall down
With just a cut on my wrist
Never ever are you gonna say my name
And never ever am I ever gonna play this game
Cause everytime I try to ignite the flame
It gets blown out pull out the blade and end this pain
Nothing left to live for so I
Sat there contemplating all the ways that I could die
So many ways I could take my life
I drag the razorblade down from my wrist up to the sky
Is it calling me, is it calling me
This is all I see, this is all I see
And let my blood fall down
How did it come to this
And let my blood fall down
With just a cut on my wrist
This is my life, this is my time
In the game it's got me slowly going out of my mind
This is my life, this is my time
And I came to set this motherfuckin' house on fire
This is my life, this is my time
In the game it's got me slowly going out of my mind
This is my life, this is my time
And I came to set this motherfuckin' house on fire
I'm alive and it's every minute, every second in it
This is life, this is prison, this is only the beginning
But the time I was given for these lines that I've written
Every rhyme that I spit is like a sign that I'm livin'
Give me pain, give me death, give me hate, give me love
When I lay upon the fire give me rain from above
Give me pain, give me death, give me hate, give me love
When I lay upon the fire give me rain from above
This is all about wrong, this is all about right
This is not about bark, this is all about bite
And it's about the everything that you're praying for at night
This is all about the music, this is all about life
Every street, every block, every burrow, every hood
Every drug, every thug, every evil, every good
Every fight every night, every knife, every gun
Every black, every white, every life, every one
This is my life, this is my time
In the game it's got me slowly going out of my mind
This is my life, this is my time
And I came to set this motherfuckin' house on fire
This is my life, this is my time
In the game it's got me slowly going out of my mind
This is my life, this is my time
And I came to set this motherfuckin' house on fire
Life - Is a game and this
Is - What you make it because
All - Of us gotta pay the
Pain - That we battle with
Life - Is a game and this
Is - What you make it because
All - Of us gotta pay the
Pain - That we battle with
This life is like a prison, like a prison made of time
How you handle what you're given when you're givin' only life
Now the heat is gettin' hotter, the flames are gettin' high
No survivors when the fire's come a rippin' through your life
You and I we are the same, through the fire and the flame
Through the good and through the evil, we survive in the game
There are lies there is blame, there are fires there is rain
There are many different reasons why we hide from the pain
This is mine this is yours, this is everything it's for
This is every day this is every night and every minute more
This is every man and every women every child born
With the right to put a fight up in his life, come on
This is my life, this is my time
In the game it's got me slowly going out of my mind
This is my life, this is my time
And I came to set this motherfuckin' house on fire
This is my life, this is my time
In the game it's got me slowly going out of my mind
This is my life, this is my time
And I came to set this motherfuckin' house on fire
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
Yet another Christmas all alone am I the only one
Another Christmas all alone with my unloaded gun
Sometimes I wished I got the balls to put some bullets in it
And maybe next Christmas will be a little be better, without me in it
I really want to run away, get away from the pain that lingers inside of me
And I don't know what I'm going to do when the time comes, I have my misery
They promised me that this would be the best year in a while
So I sucked it up and cracked a smile
For the sake of everyone else, Christmas bells
That go deep inside my head it hurts like hell
They can't tell cause I keep it locked tight inside this shell
Until I fell and when the coroner id said to the police
Please don't let this be what I thinks it's gonna be
I answered softly and then I quickly screamed
My parents died because of me
Because I wanted a real Christmas tree
Now I'm so much more alone than I was before
I really want to die so much more
I cry I want to die as I slowly hit the floor
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
What do you do when you've got nothing left
And what do you do when you want to hold your breath
Until you finally turn blue and slowly fade away
Life won't get any better no matter how you pray
I keep telling myself this is all a dream
I keep telling myself it ain't as bad as it seems
My parents will come back they wouldn't really leave me
I walked into the room close my eyes and keep dreaming
So now I sit up in my room and watch it fall apart
Just like my life I watch it shrivel up and slowly rot
I watch the snow as it falls so peacefully
It frees my mind and I start to go back to reality
I can't feel the joy this day's suppose to bring
My body's like a drone so cold I can't feel a thing
I slowly wait for death as I stare at the tree
This year's like the rest nothing there for me
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
Another year comes and goes of being all alone
And I don't know how much longer I can hold my own
And I don't know if I want to live anymore
Another Christmas all alone should I load the chrome
Suicide
Just let me die
I don't want to live no more
Suicide
Just let me die
I don't want to live no more
Suicide
Just let me die
I don't want to live no more
Suicide
Just let me die
I don't want to live no more
I need to bleed - to feel alive
What's wrong with me - am I alright
I feel alone - can no one see
The winters snow - has frozen me
I'm all alone on this frozen street
All alone can no one notice me
One day I'll get back on my feet
Won't be alone this world will notice me
Walking down these icy streets
Watch where I'm going on this pavement
When this crazy day it's snowing and the headphones are soaked
But the music stays flowing and my pockets dead broke
But the hands staying open
I can't take it anymore I'm ready to lose it
So that's why I'm so absorbed in writing this music
Feeling all alone clutch up on the rosaries
Askin' a change for good and get these people to notice me
I'm all alone on this frozen street
All alone can no one notice me
One day I'll get back on my feet
Won't be alone this world will notice me
All alone, no one home
Think this out all on my own
Need a zone, overdose
So why am I depression prone
Heart so black, rotten fact
Don't even know how to act
Frozen past, don't know where I'm at
But no, I'm not going back
Notice me here showing my fears
See through soul is so clear
No one here to show that they care
All alone in these tears
Ain't over till it's over motherfucker's get up
Notice I'm here ain't going nowhere
Cause I'm stayin' fuckin' tough
I'm all alone on this frozen street
All alone can no one notice me
One day I'll get back on my feet
Won't be alone this world will notice me
I'm all alone on this frozen street
All alone can no one notice me
One day I'll get back on my feet
Won't be alone this world will notice me
I was just a kid, maybe 12 years old, I lay alone inside of my room
And hold a chrome 45 that I stole from my dad
Didn't know it had a bullet loaded in the gat
Till I go and pull it back and let it go and watch it shatter the glass
No control at all, it happened so fast, I lied and said it was a stone
When he came home and found his gun unloaded
He exploded and grabbed me by my throat and proceeded to slap me
I was bleeding so badly
It was streaming on the matress where he beat me
He's laughing as I try to fight back, just like that
He walked out of my room, I wish he'd walk out of my life and never look back
Another day of telling people that I fell down the stairs
Another day of giving people dirty looks and glares
Don't act as if you cared cause if you did you'd be there
Another day I want to run away but I don't know where
Every, everyday I fall down, fall down on my knees and pray
Will I live to see the day where everything will be ok
My family is destroyed now I lost my way
Cause every, everyday I fall down, fall down on my knees and pray
Will I live to see the day where everything will be ok
Maybe not if I decide to take my life away
But I'm not the only one that he loves to beat
My mother is another that drops to her knees
Beggin' please, she's sorry, just stop it and leave
He's drunk again and he wants to watch somebody bleed
I can't believe what I'm seeing, he's just beating her with no signs of easin' up
I swear to God if I was tough enough I'd rough him up
To the point where he'd be hospitalized for the rest of his life
How could he do this to his son and his wife
Wish I had a gun or a knife
Cause I'd kill him where he stands
He's not a father nor a man
Just a monster with a plan of destroying his own family
Man I'd give anything to stop this from happening
Again I clench my hand into a fist and swear if he hits her again
It'll be the last thing he hits on this land
But what happened wasn't exactly what I planned
She's not crying or screaming
I don't even think that she's breathing
Every, everyday I fall down, fall down on my knees and pray
Will I live to see the day where everything will be ok
My family is destroyed now I lost my way
Cause every, everyday I fall down, fall down on my knees and pray
Will I live to see the day where everything will be ok
Maybe not if I decide to take my life away
I ran into the room and pushed my father aside
In my arms is where she died, for the next hour I cried
Kept asking him above, why'd he take my mothers life
In a second I would have replaced it with mine if I could go back in time
I'm looking down into your eyes
And felt your heart beat for the very last time
That night you died
And that night so did I
Now I'm laying down next to her body, mom I'm so god damn sorry I promise
I would have made him stop this, but I obviously lost it
And you're already gone to a spot that's so much better than this
And now I gotta reason for a suicide letter no reason for a noose
Cause I'm gonna go get the gun that I used to shoot out the window
And put it to my temple, dad I hope you regret what you did
Never forget, you killed your wife and your kid
Every, everyday I fall down, fall down on my knees and pray
Will I live to see the day where everything will be ok
My family is destroyed now I lost my way
Cause every, everyday I fall down, fall down on my knees and pray
Will I live to see the day where everything will be ok
Maybe not if I decide to take my life away
Every, everyday I fall down, fall down on my knees and pray
Will I live to see the day where everything will be ok
My family is destroyed now I lost my way
Cause every, everyday I fall down, fall down on my knees and pray
Will I live to see the day where everything will be ok
Maybe not if I decide to take my life away
Every, everyday I fall down, fall down on my knees and pray
Will I live to see the day where everything will be ok
My family is destroyed now I lost my way
Cause every, everyday I fall down, fall down on my knees and pray
Will I live to see the day where everything will be ok
Maybe not if I decide to take my life away
