fuggit's blog: "fuggit"

i know this is a hard time of year for you. i wish i could take all the pain you have and put it on my own shoulders. it'd be better than this pain you are causing me. my heart is breaking. not knowing is breaking me. i know u wish he was here. but he's not. but i know he's proud of you. im proud of you. i miss you. you miss him. and there's nothing i can do but sit back and cry. merry christmas even though i know you don't celebrate it and happy late birthday since you wont give me the chance to tell you in real life. Love, Brittney

as a lot of you guys know the last few days have been anything but wonderful. my bday was teh suckz. and it's all been downhill from there. the worst of it all would have to be my car randomly breaking, and me being away from home and not knowing jackshit about cars. all during finals week as well. so if im a bitch or just seem overly whiny, just ignore it. im sure things'll get better but its just super depressing when everything seems to be going to shit and so quickly.

One of these days I'd like fate to work in MY favor for once. I'd like to be good enough for someone. I'd like someone to be good enough for me. Instead I get this :/ ugh.

Ok. When i tell someone I'm fat, sometimes they say "No you're not fat you're beautiful." So automatically being fat=not being beautiful? I don't really get it. I'm not all about that BBW bullshit but I still think that just b/e someone's fat doesn't necessarily mean they have to be given a negative response. Some people are just ugly, whether they're big or small or whatever. Can't help it. And some people are just really good looking, but supposedly they cant be that if they are big? I dunno what I'm really getting at here. LULZ? :/

the theme of my life is let down and dissappointment...

it's ok. apparently i've broken hearts without even knowing. i've made boys cry. i've been called a bitch. i've been masturbated to. i've been stalked. i've made fake connections. i've been given a false boost of self esteem. i've pissed girls off. i've said something you didn't want to hear. i've shown you things that have probably made you go blind. thanks interwebz.

makes me laugh how many dudes can be like,you're so awesome blah blah blah why are you still single? you're gorgeous. but no one in this area can ever think that about me. yay for the interwebz they give me a false security. and don't get me wrong guys i love the compliments.

when ya think ya got something good brewin up and then it all falls to shit...isn't that the worst feeling in the world? geez, someone either fuck me or shoot me, whichever's easier.

So a friend of mine, gets kicked outta her house by her dad. Well her mom lives in Cali and cant come get her until a few weeks from now. So since I live in a two person dorm room all by myself, I said hey ya know what, you're more than welcome to come stay with me. I laid it down for her though, I can't help you with food too much, I'm a messy person, andI won't be here half the time due to class and work an my own social life. She says ok cool, she has 7 bucks, doesnt eat alot and will even clean up my messes. Im like ok sweet, so i go get her and all her stuff, she gets settled in, and for the next few days....she barely even talks to me. i take her to walmart, she buys a movie with her 7 bucks....instead of food or anything, she acts a complete fool in front of some dude that works there, embarrassing everyone, and im just like.... ok whatever. So she tells me saturday, that shes decided to go back to live with her dad, and she needed me to take her back. i was like....sure i guess. Well I go to work and come back and she says youre not doing anything tonight right? im like, no why? well i need you to drive me to some walmart across town im gonna spend the night at a friends house...well it had freakishly started snowing that night....and i reallllllly didnt wanna take her but she wouldnt take no for an answer. so i drive 15 miles an hour allll the way over, use up all my gas, and shes like....youre still gonnna take me home tomorrow right? pissssssssed me off. so note to self dont be nice to people they just take advantage of you.

So yesterday morning i woke up and freaked out because my tongue was black. I brushed my teeth and tongue (as all of you should) and it came off so I wasn't too worried about it. Well this morning when i woke up I jokingly said let's see if it's black again...and it was...So I used my trusty Google skillz and discovered that if you eat those little Pepto-Bismol tablets...they turn your tongue black. Weird huh?