3732832's blog: "Hostile Sayings..."

"When I'm Hurting"
Original Song By: Mike Blair

It's easier for you to walk away
than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away
than it is for you to see the depth of my despair
It's easier for you to look through me,
than it is for you to see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself,
than it is for you to really care.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy,
than it is for you to feel my pain.

It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.
It's hard for me to smile......

When I am hurting.

It's easier for me to cry,
than it is for me to talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone,
than it is to risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away,
than it is for me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself,
than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.
It's easier for me to die,
than it is for me to face life's challenges.

It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.
It's hard for me to smile......

When I am hurting.

If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings.

It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.

When I am hurting.
When I am hurting.
When I am hurting.
When I am hurting.

I'll walk alone..

Can't you see?
All you're doing is killing me
I'm an empty shell
Full of nothing, not even air
Empty soul
Empty heart
Empty mind
I'm nothing in your eyes
Playing your little games
Smiling your little smile
You might as well fucking laugh in my face
Because it has the same effect
Going behind my back
Twisting your words into truth
Try to hide your snickers
I know I'm ugly
I know I'm worthless
I know I'll never be perfect
Hate me
Abuse me
Kill me inside
It's not like you care
You look down at my wrists
You look in disdain
You think I'm so pathetic
But you're the ones who move the blade
You break the skin
You break through
With your voices and your words
You all make me go deeper
You all turn me inside out
You make me turn into myself
And let the demons out
The demons that call themselves my mind
Polluting my very existence
Polluting everything around me
Because what you say is true
And I'm so pathetic
I try to blame it on you
I try to say it's your fault
I try but there's nothing I can do
The demons are killing me
They have a thousand knifes
Stabbing me
Killing me slowly
First my heart
Then my soul
Then my mind
Until there's nothing left
Nothing but this empty shell
But this emptiness
It's mine

Sometimes life never goes our way
Sometimes I just have to figure it's not my day
Sometimes I wish I could make everything right
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep at night
Sometimes I hope it'll all be ok
Sometimes they just try to take my perfect day away
Sometimes people can be so cruel
Sometimes friends break all the rules
Sometimes people aren't what you think
Sometimes I feel like I'm on the brink
Sometimes I wish I could've said something different
Sometimes I feel like I'm being bent
Sometimes people just won't go away
Sometimes I can't get people to stay
Sometimes people make mistakes
Sometimes people can't just be happy for my sake
Sometimes I wish everyone would just die
Sometimes I want to feel more alive
Sometimes I hate to see your face
Sometimes I feel like the biggest disgrace
Sometimes I wish happiness could be free
Sometimes I wish I just wasn't always me

He is lonely
Even though you can't tell
He is reaching out
For what, he doesn't know
He will continue to sit in silence
And hope that someone may stumble across
Him and all of his emptiness
But they only hope that they do it in time
Otherwise he will have drifted too far
And he may let go
Of whatever grasp of the world he has
As he slowly fades out of the lives of everyone
Nearly unnoticed.

I am alone,
so very alone

I hurt,
so very bad

I am ignored,
just thrown aside

I am security,
for others to have

I am lonely,
there is no one close,
no one sees the pain

I cry,
hope is gone

I am alone,
and no one knows

Sometimes I wish
I could be a star,
I'd shine down on you
And brighten up your midnight sky.

Sometimes I wish
I could be the moon,
I'd light your way
And guide you through
the night.

Sometimes I wish
I could be the wind,
I'd blow my breeze upon you
And cool your warm nights.

Sometimes I wish
I could be all these
So that some way, somehow
I could be near you even for a moment.

Sometimes I wish
I could be all these
Just for you.

"Come Back To Me"
An Original song by: Mike Blair

Come back to me,
I'd do anything,
To feel the love we felt,
To keep the dreams we had,
I long to see you again,
Baby please come back to me.

You left to follow a dream,
But I'm still here baby,
You said you'd be back,
That we'd be together again,
Our dreams go seperate ways,
But I want you here with me,

Come back to me,
I'd do anything,
To feel the love we felt,
To keep the dreams we had,
I long to see you again,
Baby please come back to me.

You took your clothes,
And left the rings,
Now my heart is broke in two,
I lay here shattered and alone,
Just waiting for you to be here,
And praying to God that you'll...

Come back to me,
I'd do anything,
To feel the love we felt,
To keep the dreams we had,
I long to see you again,
Baby please come back to me.

Haven't spoken to you in 3 weeks,
No phone call, nothing,
I know for sure I'll never see,
Your sweet face surrounding me,
It's over and you're gone for good,
But sometimes I wish you would,

Come back to me,
I long to see you again,
Baby...come back to me.

When we were still together
I truly loved you
But what’s happening right now
I guess we are through
It’s really hard for me
To get off with you
But I know this might be good
For both me and you.

I love you but I have to
Set you free
I’ve come to realize that
You’re no longer happy with me apparently
Even though it hurts, I have
To say “good bye”
It’s really hard for me to
Live without you, but
Promise I would try to move on.

It hurts me so much but I have
To let you go.
But before letting you go,
There’s one thing I want you to know...

Someday...

Soon...

You're gonna miss me
And realize I was the best
Thing that ever happened
To you....

My love,
I had you in my heart,
not realizing I did.
Love,
I knew somewhere in my heart,
you never really cared.
Love,
when you went away,
the tears fell like the rain in the sky.
But love,
I know you wanted my happiness,
and my heart.
But love,
you never gave yours.
My heart has never known this pain,
and I know its all because of you.
I want you to know,
I eally fell for you...
No matter what you think,
I had loved you.
The proof was in my tears,
The proof was in my heart.
So love,
remember that I had cared,
something I never thought I would dare.
I know you don't want me,
so good night,
good bye,
and good luck,
my love....

"Stay"
An Original Song By: Mike Blair

[CHORUS]
Stay with me
Oh oh stay with me now
Stay, won't you stay, with me.

You came for an hour
Stayed for a while
And my heart
Beat went wild

You got me some pride girl
My confidence grew
You started to stay girl
I started to love you.

[CHORUS]
Stay with me
Oh oh stay with me now
Stay, won't you stay, with me.

Before too long you'd moved right in
Your pots and your pans
Knew how to treat me
My heart was in your hands.

Now you've grown cold
Don't laugh anymore
I know I've seen you
Looking at the door.

Now you've gone and told me
You'll soon be moving on
You say the love we had
Has withered up and gone.

[CHORUS]
Stay with me
Oh oh stay with me now
Stay, won't you stay, with me.

[CHORUS]
Stay with me
Oh oh stay with me now
Stay, won't you stay, with me.