Son of JR Bob Dobbs's blog: "i'd rather be engaged in cunninglingus right now"

I don't owe much money on the electricity and i think i can push back the phone bill. The rent i am worried about along with employment which has me on edge.

This time for waiting for my drug and background check are wearing on my patience and nerves. This should not take this long. i need money and if i had it i would probably be less nervous. The point is i need a job. I just walked away from a crappy but paying job. Now i have nothing and my nerves are shot. The supervisor told me to call at 1:30 (i think...will call at 1:50pm just to make sure). I have to learn to think things through so i have a better grounding and can fall back on something.

Sitting here listening to an audio book and drinking lager I think of the proceedings of today. My aunt's funeral was today. i meet with the pastor (priest) of my former church (how i loathe that place but i digress). He asked when i was going to rejoin his church. I have no intention of ever doing that. I told him i might visit even though i know in my heart I won't. leaves me in a strange place. I guess he will realize i don't want to go. I hate my old church. I just don't like christian rituals. For now I need to finish my lager and get some sleep.

12:30pm to 8:30pm Fuck this I am quitting whether I get the job at Sheetz or not. I gotta get the fuck out of there. No more of this second shift job. I gotta get this job at sheetz. I must do well. This worries me because i am quitting one job to start (try to start) a new job. I am devoted to this position (this potential one). I need to get this job. no more second shift 3rd shift for me or nothing at all. What i mean is I need a better job.

Everything is set. Leaving tomorrow at 1pm. Back at 1pm. Rental is cheap because it's 24 hours.

I am looking to rent a car tomorrow and head to Norfolk. Long ride with folk and death metal. It's a nice ride up there. I just hope i get there in time. Fucking traffic. I gotta go and get there soon. what a way. My only hope is that i can not too much for a rental car and still hare enough to do some other stuff. makes me nervous because i have not so much money to work with. I will find out tomorrow. I don't get too many opportunities for stuff like this. So i must go. In addition, i will be meeting up with an old friend who i have not met in almost a year.

Somewhere...I don't know ... I am leaving the city in a rented car. For most of the day. I need to get out. I don't know where but i need to get out of the city.

because of the way i answered a list of statements I have to wait 3 months to try again (which by then the position I want will be filled). I am still in the running for another job and Tuesday i am going to an employment agency to fill out another application and another one at another agency. I need to find other work. I hate my current job even though I like the people. The pay sucks and the hours suck.

And soon I will be returning to it. I really need to find another job. I can't do this another series of months. I have a life and don't want it to be compromised for work (even though i need it to pay bills). I gotta find some other place to work. Some place that pays more than where i work now. A nice 8$ an hour job would be nice 40 hours a week @ $320 a week and $640 bi-weekly. It will be $1280 each month. I can use that to pay a lot of bills and old debts and every other thing I need to pay after rent and whatnot. I really need to quit this and find a new one. I need some place else. I will miss the people i work with but money comes first in a situation like this. Besides I want to buy a car and start investing not to mention I want to go back to school and start paying for classes.

With each passing day i hate my job more and more. I wish i could quit but i can't until i can find a replacement job. I hope i can (even though I feel hope is a waste because it will either happen or it won't happen so you are either fucked or you aren't fucked so pretty much from there only time will tell on anything. I guess it's the waiting that bothers me the most. The not knowing whether I have just wasted time online filling out an application only to be passed over.