angel's blog: "if i could"

A PRECIOUS LITTLE BABY BOY, KALEB IS HIS NAME, WAS SHAKEN ROUND LIKE A TOY, THE SITTER WHO WAS TRUSTED IS TO BLAME. WE DON'T UNDERSTAND GOD, WE CAN'T COMPREHEND, OUR MINDS ARE IN A FOG, THIS COULD HAVE BEEN KALEBS END. YOU WHERE WATCHING OVER YOUR MISSING ANGEL THAT DAY, DAMN THE WOMAN, DAMN HER TO HELL, YOU SAVED OUR ANGEL YOU LET HIM STAY, WE'RE SAYING A PRAYER, AND WISHING THE FAMILY WELL. KALEB YOU ARE PRECIOUS, SWEET AND DEAR, LITTLE ONE CLOSE YOUR EYES AND REST, GOD IS WATCHING, GOD IS NEAR, YOUR FAMILIES FAITH HAS BEEN PUT TO THE TEST. WE WILL SAY A PRAYER FOR YOU, YOUR FAMILY WILL HOLD YOU TIGHT. GOD WILL GUIDE YOU THROUGH, YOUR FAMILY WILL STAY CLOSE TONIGHT. YOU'VE LOST YOUR SIGHT, BUT WILL ALWAYS SEE, THROUGH THE LOVE OF YOUR FAMILY.

I wake up in the dead of night, screaming with fear, shaking with fright, there's no one to hold me, no one to care, damn it God why is life so unfair. The beatings where often, day and night,my poor little girl had to watch what daddy would do, not a day went by i was'nt crying , and holding her tight, she would see mommy all black and blue. The last beating i took, the worst by far, he beat me so bad, and locked me in the trunk of the car. My head was swollen, i was black and blue, i knew there was nothing i could do, i laid in the trunk quiet as a mouse, i heard him slam the door and go back in the house Thoughts started running through my head, Oh dear god , does he think i am dead, the space is cramped, so dark so small, all alone i begin to bawl, please don't hurt her, like you do me, oh God i can't see. I cannot see, i cannot breathe, damn you why did'nt i leave, i hear him coming, i hear the key, oh whats going to happen to me. The trunk lid opened, and through swollen eyes, i looked up, it was'nt him, to my surprise, two uniformed men where standing there. How did you find me, How did you know, did someone call you? did someone care, enough to get me out of there. The officer looked at me, and said, your little girl called 911, save my mommy before she is dead, what a precious angel the officer said. My little girl, who is only three, unfortunatly had to be the one to save me, this is over, we are through, the abuse the hatred, has come to an end. My baby girl can't live like this, what would have happened to her, if i did'nt survive this. I can't think , i need to rest, my little angel your the best, mommy's here today because of you, together we will start anew. MORE THAN ONE PERSON SUFFERS THE ABUSE

Around the corner I have a friend, In this great city that has no end, Yet the days go by and weeks rush on, And before I know it, a year is gone. And I never see my old friends face, For life is a swift and terrible race, He knows I like him just as well, As in the days when I rang his bell. And he rang mine but we were younger then, And now we are busy, tired men. Tired of playing a foolish game, Tired of trying to make a name. "Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim Just to show that I'm thinking of him." But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes, And distance between us grows and grows. Around the corner, yet miles away, "Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today." And that's what we get and deserve in the end. round the corner, a vanished friend. Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell them. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late. Seize the day. Never have regrets. And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

THIS IS FOR ALL OF YOU I LOVE YOU GUYS XXXXOOOOO

I owe you a hand, For you always helped out. I owe you advice, Of that there’s no doubt. I owe you respect, For I got it from you. I owe you trust, With my secrets you're true. I owe you knowledge, For you taught me so much. I owe you love, As my heart you have touched. I owe you my life, Because of all you do. I owe you a friend Who is honest and true. THIS WAS SENT TO ME BY A FRIEND AND I WANTED TO SHARE IT WITH ALL OF YOU

Name :	ANGEL ROSE
Nick Name :	ANGEL
Birthdate :	03/21/57
Birthplace :	TORONTO
Current Location :	KITCHENENER
Eye Color :	GREEN
Hair Color :	BLONDE
Height :	5"8
Weight :	130
Piercings :	YES
Tatoos :	YES
Boyfriend/Girlfriend :	NO
Vehicle :	NO
Overused Phrase :	WHATEVER
FAVORITES
Food :	STEAK@EGGS
Pub/Disc/Restaurant :	NORMA JEANS
Candy :	NONE
Number :	7
Color :	RED
Animal :	HORSES
Drink :	SMIRNOFF ICE
Body Part on Opposite sex :	HANDS
Perfume :	MUSK
TV Show :	NOT REALLY INTO TV
Music Album :	AREOSMITH
Movie :	THE FAST AND THE FURIOUS
Actor/Actress :	EDDIE MURPHY/ SANDRA BULLOCK
This or That
Pepsi or Coke :	PEPSI
McDonalds or BurgerKing :	BURGER KING
Chocolate or Vanilla	VANILLA
Hot Chocolate or Coffee :	COFFEE
Kiss or Hug :	HUG
Dog or Cat :	CAT
Rap or Punk :	RAP
Summer or Winter :	SUMMER
Scary Movies or Funny Movies :	FUNNY
Love or Money :	MONEY
YOUR...
Bedtime :	2 AM
Most Missed Memory :	SUNDAY DINNERS AT GRANDMAS
Best phyiscal feature :	SMILE
First Thought Waking Up :	COFFEE
Best Friends :	MY BABY GIRL
Fears :	SPIDERS
Longest relationship :	32 YEARS
HAVE YOU...
Cheated Your Partner :	NEVER
Ever been beaten up :	YES
Ever beaten someone up :	YES
Ever Shoplifted :	YES
Ever Skinny Dipped :	YES
Ever Kissed Opposite sex :	NO
Been Dumped Lately :	NO
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color :	BLUE
Favorite Hair Color :	DARK
Short or Long :	LONG
Height :	6'
Style :	DON'T CARE
Looks or Personality :	PERSONALITY
Hot or Cute	CUTE
Muscular or Really Skinny :	DON'T CARE
RANDOMS
What country do you want to Visit :	AUSTRALIA
How do you want to Die :	FAST
Been to the Mall Lately :	YES
Get along with your Parents :	YES
Health Freak :	SORT OF
Do you think your Attractive :	NO
Believe in Yourself :	YES
Want to go to College :	TO LATE
Do you Smoke :	YES
Do you Drink :	NO
Shower Daily :	YES
Been in Love :	YES
Do you Sing :	I TRY
Want to get Married :	NO
Do you want Children :	TO LATE
Age you wanna lose your Virginity :	TO LATE
Hate anyone :	NO
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You know i will never understand some people. You contact someone on here and talk then all of a sudden your blocked," what is that". Do these people not even have the common curtosy of telling the person hey i thought i might be interested but it did'nt work out so i would prefer not to chat anymore. No they just go in and block you without saying a word sorry but in my book this is'nt going to make you many friends, Come on people lets show a little more respect for others than that. Maybe not a big issue to some people but to me it is i mean if you don't want to talk, or your not interested, or whatever your reason just tell them we're all adults here sure we can take it. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. xxxxooooo Angel

TO FIND A FRIEND, AND SEE IT END, IS JUST TO MUCH TO TAKE, WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE " FOR GOD'S SAKE." HOW CAN YOU I SAY I LOVE YOU, KNOWING IT DOES'NT MEAN A THING, HOW CAN YOU SAY" OH " I'M YOUR FRIEND TOO, I'M NOT ASKING FOR A RING. I OPEN UP MY HEART, A FRIENDSHIP WE WOULD START, THEN YOU TURN AROUND, AND THROW MY HEART, ONTO THE DIRTY GROUND. YOU LAUGH AT ME AND THINK WHAT A JOKE, SHE'S SO NIEVE AND DUMB, TO THINK THAT I WOULD CALL HER A FRIEND, WHEN ALL I WANT TO DO IS RUN. I THOUGHT CHERRY WAS DIFFERENT, I THOUGHT THE PEOPLE DID REALLY CARE, I OPENED UP MY HEART ON THERE, AND LET SOME PEOPLE IN, ONLY TO BE LET DOWN TIME AND TIME AGAIN. I'M GOING OFF THIS SITE, DON'T KNOW IF I'LL BE BACK MY HEART IS TURNING COLD AND DARK JUST LIKE THE NIGHT, GOTTA GO IT'S TIME TO PACK. I'M MOVING ON AND HAD HOPED, MY FRIENDS WOULD BE THERE TO, BUT I HAVE TO LEAVE THIS DREAM WORLD. THAT I HAD MADE FOR ME AND YOU. FRIENDSHIPS TO ME ARE FOREVER, I GUESS THAT'S NOT THE CASE, I WOULD NOT HAVE LEFT NO NEVER, BUT WAS LIED TO, TO MY FACE. I WILL REALLY MISS YOU'S, AND I WANT TO BE SURE YOU KNOW, THAT KNOW MATTER WHERE I GO, OR WHO I MEET, OR WHAT I DO, I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU. THERE ARE NOT MANY THINGS THAT LAST FOREVER ANYMORE, PEOPLE PASS THROUGH OUR LIVES, AND MEMORIES FADE, ALL I WANTED WAS SOMETHING TO LAST FOREVER, A SENSE OF CARING, A SENSE OF TRUST, A SMILE WHEN LIFE HITS ROCK BOTTOM, I WANTED A FOREVER FRIENDSHIP BUT REALIZE NOW, THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. YOU WHERE ALL IMPORTANT PARTS OF MY LIFE, AND SO I LEAVE YOU WITH THIS, YOU WILL HAVE ONE OF THE MOST PRECIOUS PLACES IM MY HEART AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE SAVED FOR YOU, AND YOU WILL BE MISSED. SO GOOD-BYE AND FAREWELL, THIS IS THE END, CHERRY TAP IS OVER, FOREVER AND ALWAYS DOES HAVE AN END. LOVE ALWAYS FROM A NIEVE ANGEL WHO JUST WANTED TO BE LOVED XXXXXXXXOOOOOO

There are people on here that i care a great deal about. My life was empty before they came along, they filled an emptiness in me i never thought i could feel again. If there is something wrong don't shut me out or not talk to me, you are not protecting me you are hurting me. I am your friend and i want to be there for you, I want to help you through whatever is going on in your life be it good or bad i want to be by your side. So please do not hesitate to call on me anytime. WHEN YOU HAVE HEARTACHE CALL MY NAME, WHEN YOUR FILLED WITH SORROW DO THE SAME. WHEN YOU WANT TO LAUGH, I'LL LAUGH WITH YOU, WHEN YOU WANT TO CRY, I'LL BE THERE TOO. MY LOVE FOR MY FRIENDS WILL GO ON FOREVER, I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE AND LEAVE YOU NEVER, JUST CALL ON ANGEL NO MATTER WHAT IS WRONG, I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU, I WILL BE STRONG. A FRIENDSHIP IS WORTH MORE THAN GOLD, ANGEL IS HERE FOR YOU TO HOLD, THROUGH GOOD TIMES OR BAD, THROUGH HAPPY OR SAD, SO CALL ON ME , YOU DON'T WANT TO SEE AN ANGEL MAD. I LOVE YOU MY FRIENDS I AM HERE FOR YOU ALWAYS XXXXXXXX

Three passion's have governed my life: The longings for love , the search for knowledge, And unbearable pity for the suffering of [ humankind]. Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness, In the union of love i have seen In a mystic miniature the perfiguring vision Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined. With equal passion i have sought knowledge, I have wished to understand the hearts of [people], I have wished to know why the stars shine. Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens, But always pity brought me back to earth, Cries of pain reverberated in my heart Of children in famine, of victoms tortured, And old people left helpless, I long to alleviate the evil, but i cannot, And i to suffer. This has been my life, I found it worth living.