DetroitstQ33's blog: "It iz what it iz pt 2"

Keeping the Faith……….. Things get crazy sometimes in this world of ours. No time for trivial promises or wishing on stars. People have a way of getting on our last nerve. The worthy are the last to get what they deserve. I have seen you face some things others wouldn’t. If I was asked to turn my back, I know I couldn’t. When I look at your face I see a devotion so real. Love you have for your family is part of your appeal. You put your children first in your mind and heart. Believe me baby, in my eyes, that’s the best part. A man who stands behind his word unconditionally. This is why you are a savior and hero to so many. With each new day I have more admiration for you. If ever you asked me, there is nothing I wouldn’t do. I have put my whole heart into what we have become. I’m living everyday understanding that you are the one. Just remember that whatever you decide is right for you. I am on your side and that is what we will have to do. Keeping the Passion……….. Yeah I recognize that tune you are humming. The one that leads to some serious loving. You go out of your way & then take your time. Carefully matching your bodies rhythm to mine. A hand on my back gentle caresses send shivers. The pulsating heat that your mouth can deliver. I feel the tempest rising in my soul once again. Cascades of delight where your touches begin. I know you can see the pleasure in my eyes. This blush on my cheeks can tell no lies. The power you have to make my thoughts stutter. The possession you have of me is like no other. I am weak with the desire I feel in my soul This is why I pray you will never let me go. Keeping tune…….. I hear you Then it’s I see. What to do. Talking shit to me. I know it’s a game. I know it makes him smile. Little placing blame. Laughing for awhile. Killing some time. While he’s at work. That’s fine. Never meant to hurt. Then it‘s; I have to go Call you back…. I know I’m keeping track… It’s moments spent Idol conversation at best Emotions lent Worry laid to rest Now he knows that I’m ok So he can get done Finish out his day So I won’t be alone. Besos!! Azalia

Yellow flowers in full bloom, Tall metal towers, succumb to doom, Broken hearts, never really fade, None of us will ever forget that day, A day of chaos, all around, Airplanes exploding and touching ground, People in fear, not knowing whats to come, Hopes and prayers from everyone, Tears of sadness, grief and strife, The sheer uncertainty of any life, Clouds of smoke and choking debree, Family's foundations brought to their knee's, We gather strength, through it all, Keep our heads up, stand proud and tall, Painful memories, kept deep in our hearts, Standing strong and tall under the patriotic arch, Twists and turns may come and go, Season will change, as with winter's snow, Beautiful flowers, will once again shine with spring, And we will never forget, as the victory bell rings, Written by: Azalia

I’m here, can you not see this intricate detail, carved into a vessel of flesh and blood. I’m not here to possess some greatness, To be put on display by your hardened pride. I learn with every clumsily guided step, Taking in all the information that is granted. Ha! I surprise you with my crafty insight, You thought I would stumble in my stride. I see how you challenge the world doggedly, You seek imperfection for your collection. Your cravings derive from a hunger lost to youth, Yet you cling to what your heart thinks it misses. Simple tasting would not quench your thirst, Oh no, you require the satisfaction of victory! Can you feel the compliance in my flesh, I may succumb to your will to appease you. But in the grand scheme of this game of wit Your true adversery is non other than your heart.

Cashmere feel to the heavy night air.I reach out for you, but your not here.I scream to the night but make no sound. Why is it always darker when your not around.One foot on the floor, a hand on the wall.If I take a step I know I will undoubtedly fall.It’s just a few more days and you will be home.Do you know how I hate being in this house alone?Just make it to the shower as the alarm goes off.Now I have to go back and deal with that clock.Morning routine is the last thing I want to do.I should be wrapped in a blanket with you.Dr. Pepper won’t be enough to ease my mind.I’ll have to rely on the memories on more time.Blast this sunlight for looking so cheerful today.Why couldn’t it rain to wash my tears away.I was ready for this week, just one week apart.At least I convinced you, but didn’t fool my heart.Two more days, I can make it with a smile I know.Even if I have to suck it up and put on a good show.No way I would ever ruin your time with your family.The last thing you should do is worry about me.I’ll put all my feelings to the side and pass this test.After all my dear, you’re dealing with the best.Work won’t be easy on me with my mind on you.Tend to the business at hand is what I’ll have to do.Then when the shadows fall on me again tonight.I can drown in my misery beneath the pale moonlight.Your call before I manage to slip into dreamland.Reminds me that I have found one hell-of-a man.I tell you that I’m doing just fine and I love you so.You give me electronic laced kisses before you go.I grab your pillow and hold it tight to my chest.With the sent of you close to me I’ll pray for rest. My final thought was your fingers in my hair.I touched my lips while a smile played there.

I wake twisted in this blanket that is here to comfort me. Sweat has seeped into the pillows where my head rested. I dared to confront my image in the mirror above the dresser Yes the stains of my tears have left their mark on my skin The redness remains in my eyes and my lips are swollen The same ach has it’s grip on my chest so that I can’t breathe One hand to brush the hair back from my cheek, pulling a bit While you’re lying next to me in this bed do you hear me cry? You stir when I move reaching out to take my hand in yours You pull my wrist to your mouth kissing it ever so gently Speaking those familiar words, “Baby are you alright?” I answer that I am fine and assume the position once again Finding safety in the way our bodies spoon together perfectly You don’t know of my pain, I do so well in the hiding of it. When the sunlight hits my face I will show the world my smile For each moment I spend with you lessons this heartache You will never know the power you have to heal my soul To tell you the truth of it would be to burden you, my love I think it stingy of me to take all that you have offered me When all I can give you in return is my battered heart.

How much of this static you spew forth Can a human really be meant to endure? Post haste I search for the exit to this mess One hand cocked on hip you slide a jest. Your scandalous attitude mundanely perfected When in reality the dubious content is rejected. Pass your simple judgment on to a greater cause Met here with a justifiably sustained silence pause. Tirades find no hollowed ground in this space You’ll catch yourself gone without a trace!

Sometimes we feel helpless when someone we care for finds themselves in trouble and we are unable to help them or they just need to work it out and no amount of advise you could give would be something they would listen to. I would never presume to know what someone is going through , but I would hope that all my friends and loved ones know that I am here to listen and lend a shoulder to lean on if nothing else. Remember that you don’t have to be feel alone you can always reach out to a friend. Juicy love to you all! Was it yesterday that I knew the tranquility of just being? Flash hot in a moment now I see it ignite slowly expanding. Pace the floor in your urban collage wishing to be a star. Instead of understanding you’re perfect the way you are. I struggled to shelter you with my hindered nurturing. It’s no surprise the way you hide small emotions retreating Respect? Overstated in the concept of what the word defines. The Refined definition in your world surely escapes my mind. Capture it in surreal light and it will appear as golden as the rule. In playback undoubtedly becomes sparked fire’s imaginary fuel. In darkness you weep out the indignant suffering caught within . Out of sight you will let the substantial power of healing begin. Praise be to the light I will witness on your face with awakening. Knowing that my wishing couldn’t keep your heart from breaking.

Boys with skinned knees trading baseball cards Girls with ponytails playing jacks in the front yard.Hopscotch squares on the sidewalk beside schoolLearning the locomotion so we could look coolBack when the biggest decision was what to wearAnd the only teasing you did was to your hairWishing on stars throwing caution to the windJumping rope and playing red rover with friendsPlaying kick the can till the street lights came onOr your momma yelled for you to get back home.When roller skates had pom pom’s and four wheelsDouble dares and a pinkie swear sealed the deal.Back when a dollar got you in and some popcornThe holes in your jeans came from being wornSimpler times when we were all young and freeFunny how being grown is what we all wanted to beLooking back I think how lucky we had it thenSometimes it would be nice to be a child again.

No matter how hard I try I can’t take away your pain Your sadness washes over me like cement laced rain. I would hold you in my heart where love for you lives And comfort you with the kindness Angels often give. I would spend my days protecting you from any harm. I would spend my nights sheltering you in my arms. If my hopes and dreams could color your world happy. Nothing would hold you down or stand in your way. If wishes could build a fortress for your soul to reside. You could face each day smiling and never have to hide. If magic was created for those who imagine the very best. You could stand tall with your countless demons laid to rest. If my promises could offer you a more perfect existence. You could easily greet each moment without resistance. Still I must accept that my offers will never be enough. We will have to weather this out relying on our love. Another someway…… When you grow up fighting for what you believe in,It’s hard to know just when you should give in.When you know that your right but they say you’re wrong,It’s hard to back down and still feel like you’re strong.When you hear the voice of reason telling you “Enough”It’s hard to turn your back and know you’re not giving up.When everyone is counting on you to hold it together,It’s hard to accept that you can’t always make it better.When you have heard you’re the hero over and over again.It’s hard to face a battle knowing you won’t ever win.When you base your worth on how others perceive you,It’s hard to figure out just when you’re getting your due.When “never” shows up and knocks upon your door,It’s hard to understand just what you were fighting for. Baseline…flatline….. False hope on an open statement, Not mine! This tear is not mine.Claim it yours, with resentment,Then do with as you so incline.Skip that! Self pity and doubt,You think to much insecurity.Saddled wit and talked out,Piddly ass wayward scrutiny.Fidget with your lost emotion, Callous words left unsaid.Leave it! Blackened devotion,Mistaken hearts wrongly led.Deceive it with your own mind,Turbulent ride into loud solitude.Ordinary chaos is left behind,Hold still! Righteousness does elude . I had some things going on this week that really built some emotions up inside me. I am reminded once again that nothing lasts forever and that we should always be thankful for the blessings in our lives!

I trace back a step, to my contentment of yesterday. Lazy mind and body embraced by comfort. Can I have a double? Dose me with that kiss again, yeah that one. Time etched away the tingle of it. Head resting on your shoulder. Your breath warm on my cheek. Is that K.C. I smell? Pushing your sock down with one polished toe. I know what comes next. Fingertips caressing my back and hips. The contact spreads like wildfire. Consume me, consume all of me! Strange how the soul will identify easily. I belong here. I am your woman until time ends.