Angel Of Death's blog: "Life"

Lost m y way i have lost my way i have been up and down and left and right with good girls and bads ones to the thing i am finding out i think there is something wrong with me i have been hurt but how many girls have i huhrt to who ever i hurt with all my heart what ever is left of it i am so sorry for all that i have done i have lost my way i have been walking though this life trying to look for some pace of mind but will never find it i am sad most of the time i try to be a good man but is being a good man good for todays girl or do thay like all the ass hole guys in the world there was one ponit in time where people when they fell in love they really did not all the games that both saids play today with each other love is something to hold on to not to piss it alway on a pace of ass cheating is bad why do people do it who know why but it happens all the time here we are in this day and age we cry we hurt in said and thing is nothing we can reall do but try to find the one person that will not hurt us and love us for the rest of are life if it is still out there some where i say i have lost my way i have a broken heart and no matter how many time i try to fix it it never for the right reson i am sick of the fighting i just want to i just want to say good bye to all the hurt in my heart and move on to a better place

Broken wings i can not fly broken heart that will not heal broken me i feel the pain deep in my head thoughts of the past and every thing wrong fake friend behind every bend in the raod i sit in think some time why are we here many times before i ask the one thing that is all alway on my mind why are people the way they are i try to see all the beautiful in life but anymore all i see is pain and i know every one who will read this will say you are deep and i say u really don't know me at all because sometimes all i really want to do is just leave and not tell anyone where i am going and start over most if not a few of u have wrong me in a way or if i have wrong anyone alot of what we all do in life we come across poeple no matter where we go or who we meet we touch someones life every day every minte every hour every day, week mouth and year we are think of someone we like or love or want to get to know and hopeing at the same time they are think of us it is always 50/50 i know this started off as a poem but now i am just talking but this is all that i am saying for now

I know that everything seem like nothing of will get better u just have to stay strong and hold on and it will get better You just have to beleve seeing the sun rise in the morn to watch light come in to the world then at the end of that day watch the light leve for most of what i know is i am broken how can i see to care or love again i do have one i think she would like to try to fix me up dose she know what she is geting her self in to and if i want to get in to it with her that is a hole another storey Your not alone Togeather we stand i will be by your said The pain i see behind your eyes you can not hind from me i am your angel here to pick you up when u fall and lose your waY my arms are strong to hold you when u need me When weak you do thing u would not really do for anyone then going though shit that someone u care about. You come out strong ready to do what ever u want and u don't care about anything but your self and ready to take what ever you want and not to think about anyone eles Live strong and take what u want power is what i need and crave In this world two people can go though life liveing in the same world and live there lifes and do not alow anger to comeson you In these late hours i find my mind think of some much and i can't stop think of her and i am scared to let my self go to love her For what ever reson thing don't work out between two people there can be alot of thing that can go wrong and before one can relize what they have done it's to late and you can't go back u play the hand that u are delt and you do with it what you can No longer can i feel sad and miss her because i know she is happy and doing well i wsh the best for her now it's time for me to be happy To drive a man to do what he needs to do how many time can a mans heart hopen up and bled til there is nothing left in said but darkness and pain then take this and hurts the poeple he cares about the most and then driveing them way til he is alone and how can that man get back what has been taken from him so many times As the sun brakes though the dark gray clodes and is shineing though my windo I am a alone angel my pain is mine to bear i am here to privde way for the broken and the damed to help them find a path in life what better than someone who is broken and damed as well and knows the road better than any one eles Last night at the bar i could not find the means to be happy i was sad because i kept meeting girls that had someone already why is it that i keep finding them i am longing for somthing to be happy and smile and feel good in said People in life men and women bear are pain when ever we do something to hurt someone eles then we are sorry for hurting them but the pain of that is in are hearts til the day we die but it is are pain to bear I am sorry for all the pain that i have made in my life i am most sorry that i have let my Dad and Mom down and all the people that have love me and i did not show them that love in return my heart crys for all the pain that i have made for every one that knows me i feel like shit for what i have done i wish there was a way to show them how sorry i am for what i have done i never wanted to let my Dad down as bad as i have he has done so much for me i only wanted try to make him prode of me and wanting to make him happy but i have made him hate me by takeing money from him i am so sorry i wish now i did not do it