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I wonder why no one show me any love when i work my ass off to show every one. it's like I have to be white or something to get people to rate me. I'm a nice guy when you got to know me. but no one really try to get to know because i get no notes or anything. i be left out all life and i'm not going to be left out on this site. one thing i hate about this. is that no one care about anyone if you are not cute are sexy in any way. then i see alot of girl that don't really do anything move up, level i stay the same level? so i guess i have to be a sexy or a white guy. To move up or to be giving any love............
who can race play a part on a site.
It always start when I thnk that you are my friend
you turn your back right when i need you...
leting me sit here in dark with 3 libra's playing in my handphones
a damn good actor to act like a friend
but walk away your friends are hurting
like hatefull people with cold hearts
no love to save a friend in need.
I can't hate you for you being your true self.
just hope you think of what you did to me when you need help.
My Happy life
And now it’s just my heart and dreams that’s on line broken this time and every time.
.........starting out with my ex friend. I loved my ex. I loved everything about her. The way we talk and the way we can talk about anything. Starting out she made me feel good. We talked on the phone everyday, up tell the day when was she kick out her mom's house. that's when hell started. she told me that she didn't to talk everyday, and she always act like she was to busy for me. Just to see her I had to go an hour and 30 minutes out of my way to see her.
I come down every week to see her at her job or just to chill with her. But when I do call she was always over some friends house. Never names or anything of the friends. Just I'm over my friend house doing this or thing. She had a lot of guys friends. Never come up to see me, her boyfriend. But can always see her friends go out to the clubs on days that I told her was going to call her. I did a lot of shit for her, I came down and give her money when she needed it the most. Even if it was more then what I had. Helped her give her car. The time when we was dating she only came to see me two times......on my gas money! The times I came down 9 on my money, that I save just to see her with her. The girl never loved me, just was using me....... now I hate that I ever loved her.
I forget a lot of her downfalls. And she had a lot. She really fucked it up for alot of bi girls out there for me. And girls that like to go to the clubs all the time. more fucked up a day after ending it, She told me that she was going to have a 3 some with her best friend's little sister and some guy. It hurts and now I’m laughing at my self that I fell in love with a whore.
Just to think I really wanted someone who act just like her.
All the shit she put me thought with her lies.
I was a fool to ask her to marry me 4 time in our Relationship.
I was everything a girl wee want in a guy, and I give her everything.
Knowing in all of my Relationships but one I was cheated on. She go and this to me.
I see why Will Smith killed his self in Seven Pound. Out of what he did. I’m doing out of what my life been.
And now
Now I live with my best friend after losing my job in Indiana and can’t get a job for the life of me. Every where I try to go all ways tell that they have everyone they need or it’s going to take time to call everyone back! I been here in Georgia for two months. Stall no job, no money, and all I have to look Forward to is writing, sleeping, and eating. Being let down by everyone and everything around me is starting to become a way of life. Starting to think noting good is going to came from my life.
I have to find my place in my sorry life with a dream of being a writer and or playing football for a pro team. I come so far from being the kid with a learning disorder and a Speech Problem.
Only having a hand full of people that support you. Is hard to try to keep your head up and look at the other side of life. A lot of time I pray to God to sent me a lot money to help me out in this time of need. But no. noting. Maybe it’s his way of telling me to deal with it and to man it out.
If I can only get a job as a write or ever a contract. And then maybe I can be happy and put on where a left out writing good happy stories.
You have to see why I wrote “A Boy No More, What No One Knows About a Crying Man, The Boy Without Love and The Girl No One Wanted.” to get everyone some inside they are all about me and what I been thought in like. But The girl no one wanted go’s with The boy without love as the other side of his story. My first 4 poems I ever wrote are them. Not so happy now huh! I’m crying out for help and hoping some one there well me make my dream come true.
Hi can you do something for me. Read my two links and a comment on it.
http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/What-No-One-Knows-About-a-Crying-Man.716873
http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/A-Boy-No-More.716877
http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/The-Girl-No-One-Wanted.718081
http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/The-Boy-Without-Love.718069
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Read my two links and a comment on it.
http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/What-No-One-Knows-About-a-Crying-Man.716873
http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/A-Boy-No-More.716877
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i hate it when girls lie to me about not talking to them, getting or writing back! if you don't want to talk to me just say it. jamar i don't to talk to you because you are a loser and i don't want anything to do you with you. there i can say it why can't you. you know. why make up something like "you didn't send me anything or i left my computer on when i'm not at home" i keep my computer on too! but i look to see who left me anything because i don't want to be an ass to people. if someone rate me i'l rate them back. if some one send me a gift i send one back and tell them thanks. someone send me a message i send one back. i'm not an ass that well make up something. because if you not online i always send gifts to everyone feel welcome or to see whats up. i have names of people on my friend list that make me feel like shit. and when they lie about not getting gifts or messages i sent. over time trying to talking to them or just to say hi. it hurts me inside.
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away
I'm starting to feel home sick being in ATL. and i'm starting to miss my fam and friends i left behind. I don't miss my job just the money and friends. just starting to miss everything that i had back in indiana. it been two weeks now in ATL, starting to know my way around, but not like indy. some days i just want to go back. and other days i have to look for a way to make it here. but i have nothing holding me here like in indy. not a job but just a friend and his wife. other then them i have no friends here and it's starting to be hard making them at my age in life.
