ShyPoet's blog: "My poems"

The people we meet in our days
seem to touch us in so many ways
these people become close friend and even family ...
Our hearts open in ways we don’t normally see
We begin to love and to care
Life takes its role in everything
though it seems not to be fair
To take someone that means so much
Not to give a reason, or even make since
Our hearts In pain, nothing we can do but cry
hiding our pain, hard, we try
Though it shows in many ways
Though we are happy and content
but only for the other, not our selves
we believe they are in a better place,
without pain and suffering
but that’s not all we want considering
the best thing In mind is to be with them
to see them happy for all of time
We protect their memory, their name
To preserve their person,
A special place in our hearts
They hold and will always do so
never to part. 

As adults we tend to forget about Santa clause
We tell ourselves that its fake just a fantasy
Though we try to find thing to make us happy ...
We tell our kids that Santa is coming
That Santa is keeping a list of nice and naughty
That Santa flies though the world on Christmas Eve
I wonder to myself what cant we all see
That there is a true Santa Clause
Not one dressed in red and accented with fur
Not one with a full beard white as snow
But a Santa I do know, Christmas to me is not just a show
We tell our kids that they have to be good through out the year
We tell our kids that Santa lives, that we swear
That Santa lives in the North pole
He stays there all the time but for one day of the year
He leaves home to fly through out the world
One night he visits every home, on Christmas Eve
to get the kids to go to bed, why can we not see
Santa Clause does exist, and is forever here
All year we struggle with our kids to behave
we tell them they better be good, and that way to stay
For if they dont, they are marked as naughty,
and they won’t get anything in their stocking hung with care
Cole that they will find in there
For that is what naughty boys and girls get
In bed early night on Christmas eve our children are sent
With stories of visits from good ole Saint Nick.
Dennary: Christmas day is finally here, Kids wake up with joy in the air,
Racing to the tree, seeing and believing that Santa was there
They find presents with their name on the tag, wrapping in the air
Flying down onto the floor, and grins on their faces with not a care
Happiness all around, not tears or fear
though again as an adult I believe Santa is there
Real in the blood and easy to touch.
Many may think me as a fool, but I know for real
That Santa Clause is alive and well, for us all to feel
Though again I say he is not dressed in a red suit with fur
for he is dressed in a uniform to endure
The dangers that come with Protection of all
the dangers of a life of fear
the dangers of Military, law and fire
all these people to me are Santa Clause
They give the best gift of all
That of life, and protection
From all types of enemies foreign and Domestic
On Christmas day they work, and never complain
We need to do the same
Be grateful for what we have been given
Because others sacrifice to make sure it is there
So Santa does not travel the world in one night
Cant you see that Santa is all around, no matter where
In Italy, France, Germany, or the USA
Santa is all around and the gift he gives
Is one that is priceless but dangerous to give
Our freedom that we all enjoy, Our safety
For now can you see
The reason I say Santa is alive and well
and is always there! 

mommy why did you, how cold you
don't you know I'm your baby, I have feelings to
I wonder do you not love me,...
what did I do that was so wrong
that I would have to die

 As I'm here in heaven I look down
and i see you and all i can do is think
as to how my life on earth would have been like
and then my heart begins to sink
did daddy know I was in your tummy
did he know that I would be a son or daughter some day
did he know about me at all, why are you so mean
did I do something that is so wrong
that I would have to die, and not be with you

I was a gift from god, he thought you wanted me
to watch me grow, all the little things for you to see
the unconditional love that could be
all the gifts from my heart to you
what did I do.
please tell me, I feel you don't love me
mommy please I need you to free me
your heart I need to see
though right now that cant be

God wants to know also
why such a precious gift to you
that you so carelessly threw
in that oblivion of hot coals
fire and smoke, mommy please
I am sad and scared, no ones here
I hurt, the burning the hunger
that for love that I so desire
of which you took from me, how can this be

Mommy I still love you, will you love me
I want you to see
all the love in my heart and soul
that suddenly was taken, never for me to show

This day of remembrance
We all need to stop and recall
All of those soldiers that had to fall ...
They fought for our freedom and to free others
Without regards for their own safety
They knew that that might not make it home
In my eyes they are in a better place
That of honor and happiness
At times I must confess
Although with honor, their death unfair
They too have families and friends
Those that have holes in their hearts
That will never again be filled
Forever an empty space
Where the soldier held place
Selfless service and sacrifice
That of a soldier but also their family
We all know someone in the military
That has paid the ultimate price
To give their life for that of others
In hopes that freedome will cover
Through out the world, and for all of time
Remember these soldiers, with nothing more than honor
Alive or dead here or gone
All so that freedom lives on
Old soldiers and young and those to come
In hopes that freedom will cover 

To know someone, to love someone...
Knowing they are always there no matter the time
No matter what may come
To vent at, to laugh with, to confide in
A love, starts to begin
The memories formed from past
all the fun, happy, good and bad
Life seems to move so fast
One does not think, or want to see
That time is limited, there is always an end
When the time is done, this person we miss
wish they were there like they have been
Wishing to see their face to hear their laugh
We long for one more glance
Then we try and live in the past
To get away from the hurt and pain
Though that has nothing to gain
To move on, cherish the good memories
to fight through all of the pain and grief
Though keep troughs we lost
In our hearts at what ever cost
To keep them alive in out minds
know that they are with up, what ever the time
Though we miss them, but never a goodbye
Forever in out hearts
Never again apart
And one day, we will see them again 

It’s been a year now,
How do I move on, I don’t know how
I close my eyes your face I see ...
your laughter I hear
I open by eyes and you are not there
I want you to be here
I know I am selfish and unfair
But I cannot accept this, the pain I cannot bare
the sadness, depression, I end up in tears
I see nothing but fear
Knowing that I will never see you again
That is abundantly clear
I wonder if you are somewhere
where you can see what is going on
My failures my accomplishment
I hope you can see that I keep my commitment
To move on to take care of myself
Though without you around
That is hard to keep
I miss you, your smile, your laughter
I wish I could hear that again in the after
I do not know although I keep hope
So many ways I try to cope
some work some do not
depression sets in, I do not know
my love, my compassion I want to show
Although you will not see, I want to be set free
You I want to see, to hug and hold on to
Sometime I wish that would all end, the pain will be through
Not to feel it again, to have happiness and joy
When will I get that, when will I be content
unto faith I submit
but that does not help at times
My wishes my wants are unmet
Happiness and joy is seems I will not get
I hope that you have found what you need
I hope you are at peace
I hope that you no longer bleed
In pain and heartache, My love always true
I will always Miss you! 

To find love, to have love
Almost like a gift from above
The feeling of bliss and happiness ...
Something that one would always miss
To wake up and find your attraction there
Laying next to you, with their soul bare
Something we all look for, something we all long
but many do not find, A sad song
to include myself, searching for that right one
I think I find her but find out I am wrong
Always find out she is unavailable, taken, not free
No matter how much I want something to be
It just wont happen, though I still dream
Though hard at times it may seem
I push on, try to find a love
To whom I can cherish and protect, keep from harm
one who will want to be in my arms
Though I also fear, and in cases a coward
To let someone that close that near
To my heart, to see me vulnerable, and soul bare
I ask myself at time will there even be someone Here
If I cannot get past my fear,
how can I expect another
to see past her fears, to see me
who I am and to accept, be together 

I want you to come lay beside me
But how do I unlock the door, the sun I cannot see
The lies, of life, the sins of the world, of the soldier...
How do I trust, how do I love, how can I forgive
Love, compassion I want to give
I see nothing but dark cold sky
I see love pass by
My heart broken, damaged beyond repair
If I tell you my truths will you scare
I live in the shadows, no one there
No one to see who I am, what I am
A soldier, strong as a rock, never stray
Unforgiven for my travesties, unwanted, but needed
to love, to feel love I wonder
If I ever will, if there some other
That would be unforgiven, that can understand
One who can show me the sun, one who can stand
the key I hold, but do I open the lock
Do I take the chance, and let someone in
Do let the emotions begin
How can I trust, the light I want to see
but darkness is there, is that what will be
Can someone forgive, even if I cannot forgive me
How I wonder, I suffer alone
I want someone to tell me
what I need to be told what i need to see
To make my demons run, to stay at bay
I hope and pray
Someone is out there and will want to stay
Someone to forgive me, someone to see the real me