TWITCH's blog: "my stuff"

ive nvr been good at trusting people or lettin them get close.but i recently decided to let someone close.and whut did it get me? PAIN. in more ways then one. i swore id nvr fall for peoples bullshit and i can honestly say hes the first person to really fool me. i thought it was love but now im startin to realize it was more just really carin for someone. but he'll always b someone that played a big part in my lyfe and i will always thank him for being whut he was to me

how do u know if yur over reacting? when someone has nvr given u a reason to not trust them should u still doubt? or am i that fuckd up on people that i cant help the nasty thoughts?

* . . About You . . * Eye Color:: green i think Hair Color:: dark brown Height:: 5'3 Favorite Colors:: black, red, n orange Screen Name:: wHiTe TrAsH pRiNcEsS Favorite Band:: i have many Favorite Movie:: Favorite Show:: Your Car:: n/a Your Hometown:: warren, mi Your Present Town:: bout to b davison Your Crushes First Name:: wow i dunno i think it was junior Your Grade:: Your Style:: comfy and a lil weird * . . Have You Ever . . * Sat on your rooftop?: yeah Kissed someone in the rain?: nope Danced in a public place?: no Smiled for no reason?: all the time Laughed so hard you cried?: yeah Peed your pants after age 8?: nope Written a song?: no Sang to someone for no reason?: nope Performed on a stage?: does singin in choir count? Talked to someone you don't know?: yup Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: no Made out in a theatre?: nope Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: yes Been in love?: yes * . . Who was the last person to . . * Say HI to you?: customer at work Tell you, I love you?: andy Kiss you?:andy Hug you?: andy Tell you BYE?: my mom Write you a note?: it's been a long time, i can't remember Take your photo?: me Call your cell phone?: Buy you something?: myself Go with you to the movies?: family friends Sing to you?: no one ever Write a poem about you?: Text message you?: vince Touch you?: andy * . . What's the last . . * Time you laughed?: last night Time you cried?: last week Movie you watched?: clerks Joke you told?: i don't remember Song you've sang?: Time you've looked at the clock?: when jeff askd whut time it was here Drink you've had?: water Number you've dialed?: shannon Book you've read?: its been a while Food you've eaten?: brays Flavor of gum chewed?: cool bubble Shoes you've worn?: the ones i always wear Store you've been in?: other then my work? Thing you've said?: * . . Can You . . * Write with both hands?: no Whistle?: yes Blow a bubble?: yeah Roll your tounge in a circle?: yep Cross your eyes?: yes Touch your tounge to your nose?: no Dance?: no Gleek?: no Stay up a whole night without sleep?: yep Speak a different language?: Impersonate someone?: no Prank call people?: no Make a card pyramid?: no Cook anything?: yes * . . Finish The Line . . * If i were a ...: I wish ...: my mom was safe So many people don't know that ...: i really just wanna giv eup I am ...: tired My heart is ...: confuzd

* . . About You . . * Eye Color:: green i think Hair Color:: dark brown Height:: 5'3 Favorite Colors:: black, red, n orange Screen Name:: fatkid love Favorite Band:: i have many Favorite Movie:: Favorite Show:: Your Car:: n/a Your Hometown:: warren, mi Your Present Town:: warren, mi Your Crushes First Name:: wow i dunno i think it was junior Your Grade:: Your Style:: comfy and a lil weird * . . Have You Ever . . * Sat on your rooftop?: yeah Kissed someone in the rain?: nope Danced in a public place?: no Smiled for no reason?: all the time Laughed so hard you cried?: yeah Peed your pants after age 8?: nope Written a song?: no Sang to someone for no reason?: nope Performed on a stage?: does singin in choir count? Talked to someone you don't know?: yup Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: no Made out in a theatre?: nope Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: yes Been in love?: no * . . Who was the last person to . . * Say HI to you?: customer at work Tell you, I love you?: my mom Kiss you?: Hug you?: fatboy Tell you BYE?: my mom Write you a note?: it's been a long time, i can't remember Take your photo?: Call your cell phone?: Buy you something?: myself Go with you to the movies?: family friends Sing to you?: no one ever Write a poem about you?: Text message you?: vince Touch you?: * . . What's the last . . * Time you laughed?: last night Time you cried?: it's been a while Movie you watched?: Joke you told?: i don't remember Song you've sang?: Time you've looked at the clock?: 7:50 time to leave work Drink you've had?: water Number you've dialed?: fatboy Book you've read?: its been a while Food you've eaten?: a piece of chicken Flavor of gum chewed?: cool bubble Shoes you've worn?: the ones i always wear Store you've been in?: other then my work? Thing you've said?: * . . Can You . . * Write with both hands?: no Whistle?: yes Blow a bubble?: yeah Roll your tounge in a circle?: yep Cross your eyes?: yes Touch your tounge to your nose?: no Dance?: no Gleek?: no Stay up a whole night without sleep?: yep Speak a different language?: Impersonate someone?: no Prank call people?: no Make a card pyramid?: no Cook anything?: yes * . . Finish The Line . . * If i were a ...: I wish ...: i had a boyfriend So many people don't know that ...: i really just wanna giv eup I am ...: tired My heart is ...: breaking with every passing second

ive realized that I am seeing way to much into this "situation" and perahps that is whut is causing the problems or misunderstnadings. you've been clear from the beggining and i thought i understood that. but mayb b/c im new to this type of "situation" i read EVERYTHING wrong. or i just wasnt clear on how things workd. but i understand now, i swear, and im gona do my best to not let myslef get caught up in things. i remember tellin u in the beginging that i couldnt b with someone without there being feelings, without getting close to them, but mayb either u dont care and are just goin after whut U want or u dont remember, either way............. but whut u dont understand is with all the attention u give me i cant help but get my hopes up. im sry but thats just how fuckd up i am. i would have thought u would have realized that by now.

y is it that u can give someone yur all and all they wanna do is treat u like shit???

He drowns in his dreams An exquisite extreme, I know He's as damned as he seems And more heaven than a heart could hold And if I tried to save him My whole world could cave in It just ain't right It just ain't right Oh, and I don't know I don't know what he's after But he's so beautiful Such a beautiful disaster And if I could hold on Through the tears and the laughter Would it be beautiful Or just a beautiful disaster? He's magic and myth As strong as what I believe A tragedy with More damage than a soul should see And do I try to change him? So hard not to blame him Hold on tight Hold on tight Oh, 'cause I don't know I don't know what he's after But he's so beautiful Such a beautiful disaster And if I could hold on Through the tears and the laughter Would it be beautiful Or just a beautiful disaster? I'm longing for love and the logical But he's only happy hysterical I'm waiting for some kind of miracle Waited so long...so long He's soft to the touch But frayed at the ends, he breaks He's never enough And still he's more than I can take He's beautiful Such a beautiful disaster Beautiful, beautiful disaster Beautiful disaster

i am bord as fuck n i need someone to talk to

In the day In the night Say it right Say it all You either got it Or you dont You either stand or you fall When your will is broken When it slips from your hand When there's no time for joking There's a hole in the plan Oh you dont mean nothing at all to me No you dont mean nothing at all to me Do you got whut it takes to set me free Oh you could mean everything to me I cant say that I'm not lost and at faultI can't say that I don't love the light and the dark I can't say that I don't know that I am alive And all of what I feel I could show You tonite you tonite From my hands I could give you Something that I made From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid From my body I could show you a place God knows You should know the space is holy Do you really want to go?