Ok today is a new day..... I had a really bad week..I decieded to approach today with a new attitude. Things in my personal life have been kind of up and down but it could be so much worse. I know its me. I can be such a witch sometimes. Yes I said it..lol. Some of it is my meds. My siezure meds sometimes make me just so moody and when i am not eating right I feel shitty. Over our vacation I didnt eat right and being depressed I gained like 4 lbs which seems like nothing but 4 lbs for me is hard to get off. I eat only 1200 calories a day to maintain my weight,,,that sucks lol.
But anyways I always said I believe in signs just have to look for them. so last night I said today would be my new day. When we got into bed last night they was a firefly in my window I have never seen one that close and i am 34 years old. We watched it for over 30 minutes maybe longer I felt at such a peace after. One of my favorite songs is firefies by Faith Hill. So i think as silly as this sounds this was my sign lol. The best part this moment was shared in the arms of the person i needed to be with. I can smile again. My broken smile is fixed today ....
Lyrics to Fireflies by Faith Hill....
Before you met me i was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince
And made myself a queen
Before you knew me i traveled 'round the world
I slept in castles and fell in love
Because i was taught to dream
I found mayonnaise bottles and poked holes on top
To capture tinkerbell
They were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But i could always tell
[chorus]
I believe in fairytales and dreamers dreams like bed sheet sails
And i believe in peter pan and miracles
And anything i can to get by
And fireflies
Before i grew up i saw you on a cloud
I could bless myself in your name and pat you on your wings
Before i grew up i heard you whisper so loud
"life is hard, and so is love, child, believe in all these things"
I found mayonnaise bottles and poked holes on top
To capture tinkerbell
And they were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But i could always tell
[chorus]
Before you met me i was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince
And made myself a queen
Before you knew me i traveled 'round the world
And i slept in castles and fell in love
Because i was taught to dream
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