pinkpantha's blog: "Once there was a gurl"

Touch me softly Caress my skin Feel my body All over again Send those shivers Down my spine Do it again Just one more time Touch your hand to my face And your lips to mine I want to feel you One last time Take my hand Hold it tight Kiss the pain And make it alright Hold me close And keep me warm Protect me from the cold Hold me in your arms Touch me gently Kiss me deep Make it so my head spins And I get weak Talk to me softly Whisper words in my ear Tell me you love me And then hold me near Leave me breathless Unable to talk Leave me weak Unable to walk Play with my hair Trace my face with your lips Pull my body to yours And place your hands on my hips I want to feel your heartbeat Beating against my chest I was to hear you say I'm better than the rest I want to know you love me I want to know it's real So open up your heart And tell me how you feel Open your eyes And look into mine Notice the tears And stop wasting your time Look at only me Since I'm the one in front of you Pull me close in a warm embrace That gently way you used too Let me wear your sweatshirt So I can think of you all day Tell me you'll never lie to me And you'll never lead me astray Hold out your arms Catch me when I fall Answer the phone If I happen to call I'm just asking for a chance I'm not asking for forever Tell me you want me too And let us be together So why don't you call me Out of the blue Tell me you've missed me Because I've been missing you So take me by the hand Let your feelings show Hold on to me tight And never let me go....

Teach me to stop caring When I think of what we were Teach me to stop crying When I see you there with her Show me how to live again When you're not here with me Show me how to fight the fact That we're not meant to be Tell me that I'll be alright And my life will be okay Without you right here by my side To hold my hand each day Let these teardrops wash away Don't let this heartbreak last... Let me let go like you did For you've forgotten me so fast

I wish I could say How much I care for you But I don't know how So here's what I'll do I'll write you a letter Saying what I've been through Day after day Always thinking of you I don't see you much But when I do it makes me cry So I'll write to you Without a lie I'll say that I love you The first line that I write So you instantly know At your first sght I'll say that I dream I'll say that I fly And without you I'd probably die I'll say that I smile As I write you the note I'll say that I wished I could wear your big coat I'll say that whenever I close my eyes I see you face It never dies I'll say that you're perfect In every possible way That I wish I could hold you Every single day I'll say that I wish You were here with me But it's crazy beacuse I know you can't be Do you think about me Or did you forget The things we had done And the goals we had set But after I read My note once again I realize I'd never send it It's a waist of my pen You'd see it, and read it Then throw it away You don't care anymore To yourself you would say I stare at my paper With a sad pout The shred it to peices And throw it out

don't understand, How can you do this to me? How can you change your mind so quick, And tell me it's not meant to be? After all the things you said, And after all the things we did. Your going to throw it all away, Who are you trying to kid? I deserve some answers, What did i do wrong? How can our love be over, After being together so long? I got so many questions, Cos now my heart is broken. But there's nothing i can do. So i'll leave these words unspoken.

I’m feeling so lost now Once again I’m alone I know you hate me now I can tell by your tone We’ve been torn apart and don’t want to live Now you’ve torn my heart There is no forget and forgive So what am I to do Forget it all? Just not love you? I’d rather die and fall I sit here on my floor My entire body shaking Deep down inside I feel something awakening I try to ignore it Push the feelings away But as long as I feel this way The thing inside me will stay So I look out the window Wondering if I’ll see the moon You told me just last night That it should be here soon I use to always look at it And think of it as a light Now I see it as an evil thing That comes out at night And as I stare, I remember You made me so strong And in times of confusion You taught me right and wrong Then I think what will happen now Will we just go are separate way? Did I make the mistake? Of not asking you to stay I feel so confused and lost So I keep my eyes shut Wanting now more than ever To just completely give up But then I feel it again This burning inside And from my angered emotions I cannot hide Blood pours from my wounds And my heart beats faster My whole life has turned Into a great disaster I stare into the mirror Glaring at what I see Everything has happened All because of me Why am I always changing? Why am I never me? How come it’s only a mask That the people see? I always hide my face Forever disguise my eyes For when looked in deep enough You’ll see what lies inside For as long as can remember I have never been myself I always try so hard To be somebody else I’m so scared of what I am For we all have a darker side Its just I can hide mine Bury it deep inside The world isn’t ready for me turns out neither where you Because of me showing you me You said we’re threw Now everything seems to be fading As I sit her all alone All I can do is cry now And make it on my own I’ll just wait here For I lost the one I desire Only he can bring me back to life And light me like a fire But I know it’s over And soon I’ll fade For I am the lost girl Who can not be saved

I always thought we'd grow old together. Facing each new day. But now, in the tears that fall upon my face. Your memory fades away. We walked with our problems in silence. Dawn falling into dusk. Leafs collecting at our cold and tired feet. Along with what grieved us. In my bedroom, surrounded by empty walls. I want to scream and shout. My mouth opens, but the tortured words... Just won't come out. You! This man I began to love. Got lost for a "Nothing". Everything we'd built, destroyed. Over one careless fling. Used to think I was so lucky. I had it all. Nothing unknown is knowable, so depressed. You just watched me fall. My heart bleeds. The snow becomes red. How life has mocked you. Were you ever here? memories gone, dead. Your like salt on an open wound. Reminding me you once were here. Warm like the blood in my veins. The love I had for you, so dear. In my distorted, broken dreams. So empty, yet real. I'm floating through air. I touch your face, hoping to feel. This frozen silence belongs to you. I'm all that you see. I only want revenge. Giving back what you gave to me. Sorry I loved you so. And you didn't feel the same. When I think of what could have been. What a waste! Such a shame! Stone by stone, I'll re-build my life. I'm stronger when hardest hit. I know only to well. This is the time I must never quit. My conscious asks the question. I long to hear. Is the grass really greener on the other side? My conscious asks the question. I will always fear.

Here I am, Alone once more. I hear a Knock, On my door. I smile because I know its you, I knew on your promise you would come through. I quietly crawl out of my bed, Walk towards the door, This, I said: Thanks for coming, For showing up, I love you, boy, I can’t get enough. You creep on in, Take me in your arms, Embrace me, whisper loving charms. We have to be quite, parents are home, They wouldn’t agree, I'm barely grown. You lay me down, On my bed, Begin to gently give me head, I grip the sheets, Hold them tight, At this rate we’ll be up all night. I can’t make noise, I bite my lip, You stroke me with your tongue, the tip. You slide your finger, up inside, I’m all wet, so in, it glides. You begin to pull it in and out, It’s all I can do not to shout. You bring me to the euphoric ledge, Push me straight off of the edge. You climb over me and kiss my neck, My collarbone, my chest, your tongue warm and wet. You slide your finger in my mouth, I suck it clean, from going south. You climb over me and kneel on the bed, I take you into my mouth, the head. I savor you, Lick you slow, Go at my own pace, Enjoy the flow. You can tell how much I love your dick, With my tongue, I firmly flick. I play with your balls, Take them in my mouth Stroke you firmly before I let it out I work you up, all the way, Bring you to the edge, But make you stay. Keep you there at a high plateau, Looking in your eyes, your excitement shows. I put my mouth on the tip, let you go, And swallow the sip. I crawl under the covers and you come near, Holding me, kissing and licking my ear. We gently drift into half sleep, Connecting and letting the feelings seep. You rub yourself against my clit, Making me want you more than I’ll admit. You ease yourself in, from behind, Your holding my breasts, our legs intertwined. You rock slow, I arch my back, Taking more of you inside the tight track. I just can’t take it anymore, I am not as patient, but we’re not keeping score. I break free of your loving grasp, mount you, Put your hands on my ass. I lean over your face, Deeply, we kiss, I ease myself lower, Onto your dick. I ride you slow, Picking up speed, You suck my nipples Its you that I need. We move together, United as one, I am the moon, You are my sun, I revolve around you, You light me up, You bring me life, You build me up. I ride you hard, Deep and fast, I’m trying hard to make it last, You roll me over, Get on top, You grind real slow, Making me stop. “Come on baby” I say really low, You still make me wait, Steady and slow. After a while, you thrust into me, Deep and long, The way I want it to be. In and out, Fast and deep, You slide and glide, Our juices creep. You feel my nails Grip your back, I bite on your shoulder, To hold in a gasp. You let yourself go, once again Kissing me, holding me, Feeling my skin. You take yourself out, Embrace me, once more, You nuzzle my neck, See someone walk past the door. Coast all clear, no need to alarm, You rub my back, caress my arm. Here I am, Laying with you, I smile because on your word you came through. I love you boy, I can’t get enough, And all I really need is your love. Please vote and comment! Thanks!

MOMMY BUT NO DADDY I remember the days when i use to put up my hair and you would nibble on my neck and you were always there taking long walks on the beach watching waves hit our feet i was only 17 but my love for you was still so deep every night was passion and lust told me we would be together and we were a must now 1 year together 8months later baby's born with no father at home doctors visits i went alone birthdays almost here damn Jordens almost a year wish your daddy was here to see the miracle that appeared shes speaking now she knows mommy's here but daddy's nowhere to be found praying to god that someday she's understand that i was only 17 and daddy was no man shes starting preschool now i put her hair in bows i send her a kiss and a little note on a napkin so she knows mommy loves her xoxo's when she gets back from school mommy's there to pick her up and kisses her on the cheek and she giggles and plays and she finally says mommy i know that you love me and daddy's faraway and me and you will be OK OK I WROTE THIS FROM THE HEART TO AL YOU YOUNG TEEN MOTHERS THAT THOUGHT YOU WERE IN LOVE CAUSE IVE BEEN THERE BUT I CHANGED UP THE STORY A LIL FROM THE USUAL YOU KNOW

ALL I EVER WANTED All I ever wanted, Was someone just like you, Someone to love me just for me, Make me happy when I was blue. All I ever wanted, Was someone who would care, Someone who would treat me right, And when I needed them be there. All I ever wanted, Was not to feel alone, For someone to hold me in their arms, and for all the pain to go, All I ever wanted, Was someone to wipe away my tears, Tell me that everything was going to be fine, And stay with me through the years. All I ever wanted, Was someone to give my heart to, Someone to see the true me, That person would be you. You came into my life, You gave me all I needed, For the first time ever, I felt like I'd succeeded, You loved me just for being me, You made me joyful when I was blue, For the first time ever I was truly happy, My heart was stuck to you like glue, You cared for me just perfect, You treated me the best, I never realized I could feel real love, I never would have guessed, You made me feel so useful, So happy and so loved, You held me in you arms at night, And called me your angel from above, You wiped away my tears, You told me you'd never leave, Turned my frown upside down, And helped me once again to breathe, so this poem is a thankyou, for being who you are, the person im in love with, my one true shining star.

YOU'L NEVER LEAVE MI CORAZON FERNANDO I love you so much I hate you I'm so angry and confused I feel so hurt and used I know our love must have been true, I know you know it too! I lay in bed tossing and turning the thought of you moving on Makes my heart start churning! I close my eyes and I see your face I get so wound up my heads all over the place! I look at your photo and I sit and cry I imagine being alone forever and I think i'd rather die! I can't take being so sad! I cant stand you being so mad! You act like you hate me like I ment nothing at all You act like your not bothered when teardrops begin to fall! We can't be together but we can't be apart I never want you to move on because you'll never leave my heart. I know i'm being selfish wanting it all one way but if this is your final decision There is nothing more I can say!