In the wake of all that is I see what was
I see every sorrow chiseled on all the graves
As I cease to be I open my eyes
Just when this cold seeps in I awaken to mistakes
I know full well what it is that I've done wrong
Now I can scream as I fall
I can feel the curse of mortal limits
Knew what it was to end before I even began
Took the weight of my world before my legs could walk
I've seen love come and go, and come again
Do I truly know how to return the love thats given to me
I feel so numb from the neck down
Walking in my life is like swimming through wet cement
I feel the need to stand stock still
As I move forward I see all I desire slip out of reach
Perhaps I should charge full steam to the end
It's possible that a new beginning will set this right
Isn't it...?
I'm broken by the world in which I live
Torn to shreds by those I hold dear
I've never asked much from this life
A sinple, yet powerful moment
Pure love given and returned
Should I beg
Could I borrow
Should I steal
Would I kill to keep my soul intact
What is left to salvage
These few shreds of a tattered life
These remnants of what could have been
Should I pay this cost
The cost of one mans soul...
Beware the demons eyes
Though his charms may be hard to resist
Beware gifts from clawed hands
Though they glitter and shine
Beware his fanged smile
What he offers will bring only pain
Beware the forked silver tongue
Sweet words can poison your soul
Beware the picture he paints
Lift the veil on the lies you may not see
Beware the path you tread
Pitfalls await you
Beware the demons lies
He seeks to draw you in
Beware...
She has inspired me to change my world
To make what was wrong right again
She came to me on the winds
Took my breath away
She picked me up when I was down
Held me as I was afraid
Kept me warm as I shivered
Made me look at myself and see what she saw
Sang to me a song of love
She came and forced away the monster inside me
Tore away the ugliness and showed me the man inside
She gave without taking
Smiled with me through my tears
She waited for me and called to me through the flames
Forever with me in all that I am
As day becomes night I know she'll be there
Ever ready to hold me close and chase away my demons
She told me once "You are not alone"
I know that now
My Bright Angel calls my name....
Lost in a moment of sinful pleasure
We need this to come together
Rise so high as we slip away
Fingers on flesh can change so much
Such an undeniable delimma
To give and take
Share to breathe
Give a touch to feel
I can help you change
Balance our pain with confort
Relax...this won't hurt a bit
Sweat with me
Bleed for me
Take me with you through the spiral gate
Meaning is found within the meaningless
Show me how we belong together
Help me see the pleasure in my pain
Brush the dust from my stale heart
I've taken so much abuse it makes me smile
Thrust my fist into the wall because I like it
Find the path of least resistance
Unsettled by pain I feel when there is no pain
Hurting makes me whole
I've become infected with this need for blood
Smash me to pieces to show me you care
Burn out my eyes
Lash me down to the whipping post again
I beg for sin to justify my ways
I walk this broken road a battered man
I fall to zero
I've lost control
Hurt me...
Welcome friends... My name is...
What do you wish it to be?
Sorry about the dark
Seems we've forgotten to pay our bill again
Watch your step...
Let me show you around the place we call home
To your left is our memory room
Sorry for the mess (I've been meaning to clean it)
Off to your right is the playroom
My roommates love to play their games there
Whats that? My roomies? oh yea...I'm sorry
Come this way...lets see if they're busy
Ah, here we are... Meet the twins... Craven and Draven
They're a little...dissociative
They don't care for eachother much
Don't worry, They're harmless...I think
Moving on... Let me introduce This One... Call him Legion if you prefer
He is...interesting...
Whatever you do don't let him see you cry
Shall we continue?
Why are you shaking?
They can't hurt you as long as I'm here...
Shall we?Don't worry, tours almost over...
One last roomie
Careful...don't touch the door
It hates people to touch Its door
This thing we all call The Pet...
Please...keep your hands and fingers back
Sorry, precautions must be taken with It...
Last person who got touchy didn't like it much
If I remember correctly there was blood involved
Not his blood either...
This "Pet" is by far the least social of us all
Personally I think he's psychotic...shh... Gotta be quite around It
Well...Thats us in a nutshell, lol...
Nutshell, Crazy house...get it?
No? Ok...bad joke...sorry
Thats the end of it...let me walk you out
Sorry again about the lights...
Wait...no, not so close to It's door... Wai...What...Oh God!
Not another one...what a mess...
Now what the hell did I do with that mop...?
Where are you tonight?
Gone away to some better place
You were called away from us
We weren't ready for you to go, goodbye
We will remember the love shared
Together we laughed, smiled, and cried
Forever in our hearts you are
Immortalized in our memory
You will never be forgotten
We smile when we hear your name
Gazing at old photos, we remember the past
We will all be together again in time
You give us strength to continue
It's not easy to be without you
We will keep you with us always
Inside, your memory warms our souls
"To Be Remembered Is To Live Forever"
They say time heals all
I know this is all a lie
So many ways to placate the afflicted
Pour your poisoned honey into our ears
The truest delusion is self delusion
We all blind ourselves to the ugly in this world
We tie our own hands
Open your eyes and see the real world
There is no bright and shining sun
The flowers are all dead
Trust is simply a way to bare your throat to wolves
I see clearly now in my cancerous view
Hold no one close lest they stab you deep
A helping hand will only pull you down
Commiserate in misery
I've wasted every chance and hurt you all
Somehow sorry just isn't enough
The best thing you can all do is to forget what was and is
I spend so much time in the shadows
Maybe it'll be better if I just go to sleep
Kind words are threats in disguise
A smile bares the teeth that bite
A simple wave draws your victims near
I'm convinced that there is something wrong with me
Consciously conscience deprived
I'm so very weak
Maybe I should sleep
See you all when I wake again...