ShockerJ's blog: "Poetry or some shit"

work in progress tell me what you think Don't act like you care how I'm feeling We both know it's just a lie Draining the life from my heart you're stealing Every emotion in my eyes But you go your own way anyway Disregard the truth that you know you feel Walk away from everything but still hang on by a thread Just so you can avoid the responsibility Was it a lie from the start? Or did all your intentions go astray I guess it's something I'll never know I guess it doesn't matter anyway I'm broken in pieces all over the floor I crawl reaching up for the knob on the door But you keep me locked in I don't know quite what for I'm broken in pieces all over the floor

You're heading down the road to disaster All I can do is watch You give up your life like it has no meaning All my attempts are Botched You have a loyalty to fantasy That overrides your loyalty to me I guess it should what do I know It's just the way it has to be Just the way it has to be Just the way it has to be Just the way it has to be It's tearing me up inside Letting you live through all of the lies I want to unveil the cloak and dagger disguise So maybe finally you'll open your fucking eyes But You never do You're so FUCKING BLIND

How do I get through this When the light in your eyes Is my sun that shines Through a rainy day And when they close I am left in darkness With the scary monster Of my Fears Stalking me in the night Like the prey of the wild That threatens to tear apart My blackened heart Then I wake up screaming Hoping this is all a dream But realizing the reality Of your being And I smile Knowing that having you as my pain Is a lifetime better than not Knowing you at all Or am I so sure????

I'm sad and lonely and feel that you're not here When in reality you are right beside me But the distance between us would take days Just to get to the place that you are So how do I deal with the struggle in my head When all I want to do is disappear for awhile But your constant presence makes it difficult Even though we are just existing I love you so much I hate this pain I would give up my life for you But you co-exist as if nothings wrong Why won't you speak to me? I 'm living day to day I'll trudge along I completely refuse to break this bond Even in my happiness I feel empty In my eyes all I see is you

Condemned 4 Life (Song Lyrics) Replacement Causes Pain But time takes it away And I'll go on Knowing I once knew you When it was a better time You're judgement wasn't blind I looked forward in those days But you let them slip away I know I contributed to The decisions you refuse to make I silently wonder Were you just a mistake I think you're wrong I know I'm right You keep it going I started the fight You won't let it go You won't let it go And because of this I'll Be condemned for life You were the stupid chance I fell for your naive glance Why would it be different this time I should have read the signs Every one was there And I just didn't care I just walked on through Believing everything in you But you turned out to be a lie and you've moved on to that guy You think I don't see?? You can't hide the mastering I think you're wrong I know I'm right You keep it going I started the fight You won't let it go You won't let it go And because of this I'll be condemned for life Replacement Causes pain But time takes it away I think I'll walk away To see another day