Just L00's blog: "Poetry"

Another day come, Another night gone. So lost without you, I hide away. I wince at the light, And cry in the dark. Thinking only of you, And what went wrong. I place the blame, upoun fear itself. Knowing what it really is, Wondering why it came. How can love become, Fasle evidence appearing real? Where shall I turn, When my words have lost meaning. How do I show you, While being so far away? Holding myself tight, I wish it were you. Lost in a distance memory. I began to weep again. No shame in my pain, No regret in my love. A love so strong, No pain can extingish it. One day you will see, How much I really love you.

Darkness seeps in, As I cling to our memory. My days have become dark, And happiness is no more. Without your love, I have began to wither away. Slowly becoming, The dirt I once was. The tears keep finding a way, To flow down my cheeks. As everything, Remind me of you. I have lost, What meant most to me. rather it was from fear, Or something else. What am I to do, Without you in my life. No more pride, No more shame. Feeling totally alone, And utterly confused.

You point you finger, And accuse me lying. I stand my ground, Telling you I don't. In the back of my mind, A question is formed. Is my accuser, The one with the guilt. Only seeing my side, I can't understand. If only I could, Step into your mind. Knowing only what i'm told, My heart shatters. As I soon realise, My fear has come true. No longer an us, I try not to cry. Who would of thought, It could of ended like this. Something so pure, And perfect to touch. How does good become bad, And evil take over. Still standing tall, I have a new hope. For I know the blame, Doesn't fall upon me.

A few simple words, string together, To become an end. A few tears, Slowly falling, down a lonely cheeck. A once happy heart, Shattering at once, To a million pieces. A pain so deep, Instant death, From the inside out. Question soar, while answers hide, What should be done. Do you let go, Of all you have, Only to be worse off? Do you hold on, keeping hope, for that one day? Minds so flooded, With questions, Inculding the "what if's" Praying very hard, Seeking questions, With right answers. Hopeing this montains, Proves to be false, And is only a mole hill. Fear tries to sneak in, Pushing it aside, And holding onto whats real. Clinging on to their love, Holding tight, Not ever letting go.

NO! NO! NO! She sliently cries, As the darkness sweeps in. NOT THIS TIME! I'M NOT GOING BACK! NOT NOW, NOT EVER! She clings tightly, To whatever hope is left. Bracing herself, for yet another battle. Good versus evil. Light versus Dark AS LONG AS I LIVE, THERE WILL AWALYS BE HOPE! She began to pray, To her father above. LORD GRANT ME THE STRENGHT, TO WIN THIS BATTLE. She closes her eyes, And seeks the light. Bit by bit, It begans to seep back in. Praying louder, She calls to her father, LORD BRING ME HOME, SO MY HEART MAY HAVE PEACE!

Lost in a world, That doesn't understand. Held captive in a body, With endless bondage. Prisoner of a mind, That can never rest. Tossing and turing, Finding no peace. Longing to belong, To feel as a whole. Slowly fading away, Without leaving a mark. With every breath taken, Death closes on in. Dreading the next thought, In fear of the end. Going deeper within, Losing contact with the realm. Deeper and darker, Seeking a home. Light as a feather, No longer around. Free of the prison, No longer a captive. Mind finally stops, And reality ceases. drifting alone, forever gone.

To care is a sign of weakness. That underneath it all, One is really human, And can feel. Showing weakness is not tolerated. Along with weakness comes pain. A pain so deep, Ones only wish is to die. Not to care is the final straw. No longer is one human. But along with goes, Goes all the pain. No longer is there weakness, Because ones self is gone. As well as the unwanted feelings But is this ones death? Is the trade off worth it? Can one give up all the pain, And keep themselves too? If being human is to weakness, Then what is strength to? Would it be the courage to contuine on, In the face of pain and weakness? Where is the map when you need it?

Count your blessing, And count them all. Just what do you have, To be thankful for? Is it a loving family, Thats always there for you? Maybe its a bill, That's finally paid off. It may even be, That you lived to see another day. Whatever they are, They are your blessing. One by one, Make them all count. Let your loved ones know, That you love them. Rip up that bill stub, And reward yourself. Take a deep breath, And enjoy each moment. These are the moments, That count the most. But most of all, Thank you maker.

She tosses and turns, All threw the night. lonliness creeps in, And over rules her mind. Holding her pillow tight, She makes a wish. Wishing that one day, It won't be a pillow that she holds. Thoughts racing threw her head, She tries her best, To push them aside. The more she tries to sleep, The more restless she gets. Hours have passed, And still no sleep. She looks at her phone, Who should she call? Thats just it, Not just anyone will do. She tries not to cry, As she buries her face, Deep into another pillow. Atleast they're always here, Ready to cuddle, She thought atlast, As sleep closed in.

A void deep within, Nothing she tries, Ever fills the hollowness. Seeking her father, She prays to him. Asking him, To fill this void. To help make her complete. Asking him if only, He can take away her loneliness. Thanking him, For all he has done. Wondering if its wrong, To still want more, To feel complete. She has dreamed of it, her whole life. And yet, Day after day, Year after year, All she feels is emptiness. As if a part of her, Is missing in action. Gone forever, Never to be found.