Sir Lawrence's blog: "Reflections"

I'd like to offer this little story, to remind others to keep the faith.

Not so long ago, I had heart failure that led to serious trouble with my legs, ( I had to use a walker) I also have Gout, and did not know I was suffering from hyper-tension, along with a thyroid gland issue, rheumatoid arthritis,nerve damage in left foot, torn left shoulder issue, and a back injury that left me with a half dollar size bruise that has not healed for over 9 months. Sometimes when I wake up, I can barely touch my feet to the ground, because they hurt, and also I can barely walk, because of my back. Now, not many people know all this, but some, do know, I've been sick, just not knowing how sick. With that said, I have turned to many friends for help, the past couple years, especially after my father passed away on my birthday, leaving me to be a homeless person, because my own family would not offer me a place to stay. So I have my '50 Chevrolet, I've needed much help with, just have my car again, as part of my independence..Well like I said, I have turned to many friends for help, and never got a call back, or an e-mail back, I don't know why. At least, I reached out for help.
Things have spun me so far downward, I haven't been able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, of all this mess I've found myself in.

Just when I thought things were at their worse, and there was no hope, for me getting some help with my car, a caring soul reached out to me, and told me, be prepared, I'm gonna visit you, and help you get that '50 Chevy running, while he was on vacation for a few weeks. I am surely in no position to argue, right ?
This was truly a Blessing !
Sure enough, my friend came out to Las Vegas, stayed at a local hotel, and then called me every morning, to make sure I was alive, & ready to get down to business in the garage.
Life has a funny way of surprising you, I found out.
To my surprise, my friend told me, he IS my " Garage Squad " all rolled into one, and he proved it, and even went beyond the call of duty to help me, get ' BAD OL 50 " up & running once again ! I can't tell you all, how many tears have fell from my eyes, or how deep, this man touched my heart, by his friendship, and actions to help me.
Yes, my friends, prayers do get answered, as I tell you about my friend's gift of love & friendship to me, these past 2 weeks. My heart has been overwhelmed by his hard work, and team work, he & I have put into swapping in the 350 Crate motor in, so I can get my independence back, and begin to enjoy some things in life again.
I can never say thank you enough, or show my deepest gratitude to this angel of a friend sent my way, for he has truly been quite a blessing to me.
So my friends, when things are looking dark, hang in there, prayers do get answered, and angels are always watching over us, and angels do show up out of the blue, and offer help, trust me on that ;)
Thank you to all my friends, for their inspiration, and kind words, from my heart to yours, you are all awesome, I can't imagine life, without such good people, in it :)
Love you friends & keep the Faith

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Thank God, I love God, and love Jesus, and know, in my heart, that Christmas is about so much more ! You can ruin my Christmas, break my heart, make me cry all night, and not even help me get a ride to Church on either Christmas Eve, or Christmas Day, but in my heart, it's to the Lord I praise & say ' Hallelujah ' The King of Kings was Born ! No one can keep me down, not even the Grinch !

Do miracles still exist ?

Last night as I sat down on the front porch to take a break, I caught in my veiw, 4 falling stars !

The 1st was huge, and slow enough to see, as it got close enough to land on someone's roof ! I was in awe !

The 2nd was a fast sky skipper, but as it trailed out of sight, sure enough, another appeared and it seemed as fast, as the other, and it was right on the tail of the 2nd, now, all I could say was ' WOW ! '

just as I was ready to go in, bingo, a 4th appeared in the sky,I thought, this is too amazing, I've never in my life seen 4 shoting stars in approx. 5 minutes !

What could it mean ?

I wondered, is this the sign, that things are going to get better for me ?

I let it be, and  took myself to bed. The day was long, and I was in too much pain, to stay awake any longer.

The very next day, I received my very 1st Christmas card ( here at my new address & 1st Christmas without my Father alive ), from a very dear friend, it made me get all choked up, so I saved for later to read.

A few hours later, though I had given up, on a neighbor, that said he was gonna help me move a couch into the backyard, from the front, there he was, he had rang the front door bell, and had his brother with him, to make it happen, and he assured me, he didn't forget about me.

When they finished, I gave them a nice bottle of White Wine, and started rolling out a few  $20s, they wouldn't take my money, and said, the wine was more than enough, though I am a strong man, all I could do, was hold my hand over my face, as I started to cry, and tried to give them the money again, they still refused.

The sense of the Holiday season was right there, in that moment, as we greeted eachother a  Merry Christmas.

At that point, as they walked  away, I sat down ,and cried, and gave thanx to the Lord above.

The spirit of Christmas is all around us. if we just take a moment to open our hearts, and look around.

Miracles do still happen, prayers do still get answered, Amen !

Dec. 13, 2017

I was out tonight, star gazing, and sure enough, a nice bright flash skips across the sky !

Did I make a wish ? Hmmm, you'll never know.

Then I smiled to myself, and remembered how, this is the way I choose to relax at night, since my Poppa passed away, and left me homeless.

I've a lot to reflect on now, since arriving in this new place, and being adopted by an old friend.

Every time I see a shooting star, I wonder, if the gal, whom I'm head over heels over, will ever open her heart, and let me in.

I guess, I'll have to keep my eyes on the sky & keep wishing on those pretty falling stars.  :(

Yeah my friends, it's that time of year, it's supposed to be all about family & loved ones & friends we dear, but I'm tellin' you all now, a few just have to go ! That's right !
I'm talking about the bullshit friends that said they'd help me, when my father died, and they never did, or the ones that call themselves friends, yet never sent me or my family a card when my father died, but how nice it was, of my father & I, to show up at their misc. family's funerals, brings cards, and just plain show up, to show respect, and offer condolences in person.
These same ' so called ' friends, probably have no idea,where my father was put to rest. These ;people wanna call themselves 'family' ?
Not one of them, even bothered to say a thing, when a legit fund raiser posting / web link, was created at GoFundme.com to help with my pop's funeral expenses, was sent to them.
I say, it's good riddens to them, fuck them & their excuses, and onward into 2018 with out the fuck faced people that left me to die, and be homeless immediately after my father died, this year.

2017 can twist in the wind, with the fuck faced people, as I stroll into 2018,with my cane in 1 hand, and a glass of champagne in the other, and toast to " auld lang syne " ! ! !

Star light, star bright,. First star I see tonight .......

I was star gazing tonight, and saw an incredible falling star, and thought of you

I wondered if you were sitting on your back porch, and maybe saw the same falling star, and if you made a wish upon it ?

As I'm gazing into the Heavens, I find myself praying, praying for you, to listen to your heart, and pray, youll find your way to me.

You once came to me, like an Angel, I never understood how someone so special,would look my way, and yet, there you were.

Despite what I think, or how I feel for you, I pushed you away.

I pray you'll find a way to forgive me, and find your way back to me, my Angel !

Is it wrong, to want to be in your arms, for in your arms, lies a sense of  heaven I've never known before, and can only Imagine,

my faith tells me so,it tells me you are what I've always wanted.

It's not enough, to only dream of you, I really want to wrap my arms around you, and never let you go.

Star light, star bright,. First star I see tonight, wish I may, wish I might, please Heaven above

Please let the one I love, know it's her that I'm thinking of .....

Since Oct 2, 2017,when a crazed gunman opened fire on Las Vegas citizens & visitors, the need for prayers, and ongoing support has not ended.
We still need your prayers, and support.

I may not have a bullet wound from this incident, but, you cannot see the pain,and the scars left from this disaster.

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It was a cafe we met at.

We struck up a conversation, that seemed like time never ending as we gazed into eachother's eyes.

Her beauty was beyond compare, her full blonde hair. her deep dark eyes captivated me like no other.

We dated on & off for several weeks.

As time went by, she asked me, if I was happy. I replied ' Yes,on this day, I am very happy' ' In fact, I was happy long ago, with you, I was just afraid to admit it to myself, and to you.' I sensed she knew how much I loved her.

So we embraced, kissed, and agreed to go shopping,and have some fun.

We went through a mall, shopped a little, then stopped at a nice cafe for bite.

We finished our snacks, and got ready to leave.

There seemed to be such  a large afternoon crowd there, I let her lead the way, out of the cafe.

Somehow, in the shuffle of the crowd, we became separated, her hand slipped out of mine, it was like, she was being swept away.

I followed her up some escalator, to the opening of an outside open/air area, until she disappeared from veiw.

Now the panic set in, I was running from one end of the outside level of this mall, to the streetside where you could  exit down to the sidewalk, and back, searching, and looking for my love.

She was gone.

No where to be found, or seen, not a trace, not even a sound, except for the pounding of my heart.

How could I have lost the only woman that's ever made my completely happy, and so deeply in love with her ?

Within no time at all, I woke up.

Tears had soaked my pillow.  Pain in my Heart.

 I sat up, placed my hands  over my faced and cried so deeply, yet hoped my hands muffled my crying, so the neighbors would not be alarmed.

How screwed up can a  person be, to find themselves, so screwed up while they sleep, from being alone, and my dam heart won't even let me rest,while I sleep.

The dream was so real, I was convinced, that if I got up, and started searching for her, that I would find her.

Then the tears fell even harder, I felt so lost at that moment, all I could do, was catch my breath, and tell myself, it was only a dream, only a dream.