N33D FaNs Ch0s3n S0lDI3r's blog: "RESOLVE"

This is something I figured I would share with everyone else.

"It’ll take work, mentally and physically. Your willpower must be harder than diamonds, and as immovable as Mount Everest. Be able to live without food or sleep, and be able to walk a thousand miles with nothing under your feet. Journey across the deserts and the wastelands of this world. Your feet will bleed, and you will feel the agony of your body burning itself away to keep you alive. It will heal. It will become callous. You will end your odyssey as strong as any man who walked this earth. But it doesn’t stop there. Improve yourself, gain the strength to move the earth under your feet. Work until your bones crack and your mind shuts down. Work until every cell from your tips of your toes to the hair on your head is shrieking in pain, and an inhuman cry from your own lungs is echoing all around you. Then keep working. You CAN overcome pain. It is all in the mind.

Now, you may begin. Do the things you never thought possible. Other men need to look at you and think “There’s no way he will succeed.” This is good. You will learn that some of the greatest pleasures life can bring are in hard work, pushing to the limits of human ingenuity and imagination, and then walking up to those who claim it’s not possible to say, without a shadow of a doubt, that it is. You will keep pushing. Nothing- NOTHING- is enough. You will invade, you will conquer. Soon you’ll have as many enemies as friends and there will be no question, no hesitation. Anyone who stands between you and your goals will either be moved with due respect, or trampled on while their blood soaks into the sand.

It will never stop. You will create monuments that men will see thousands of years in the future. Your achievements will outlast mankind itself. Those on other planets will look upon this speck of rock and know that you lived. And when you have conquered the world, you will know. When your words spark fires like lightning strikes, and your voice can stir the dead from their graves, you will know. When the crowds gather around you, their fists in the air and an animalistic chant begins to fill the night sky, it will be clear: You are a God."

THE HUMAN CAPACITY IS INCREDIBLE; WE CAN ADAPT TO ANYTHING IF WE MAKE THE RIGHT DEMANDS UPON OURSELVES INCREMENTLY

I read this once a long time ago and after reading it I sat there and thought for hours of what its true meaning to me was. But truthfully I knew the answer even before I even read this. This is something that I have been doing most of my life. I have given myself a GOAL that was very hard to attain but I also set small milestones along the way so I could check my progress getting there. Sometimes I have faltered from the GOAL that I set but I always kept trying to reach them. I have wavered many a times on the PATHS/GOALS that I have set but I have always clawed my way back up onto the paths. The path that I have CHOSEN now is a path that many have tried and failed but only a few have completed it all. I have tried and failed as well but with each failure I have LEARNED something and I will use that knowledge to help me. As of now I have a few issues to take care of but hopefully I will be able to continue on this path. For if I can't I will feel as though I have failed MYSELF before I could attempt at it. That will be the most crushing defeat to me. I am looking at it all optimisticly and hopefully I will be told that I can continue to walk this path that most refuse to. Slowly in this life of mine I have continued to push myself to MY PHYSICAL, EMOTIONAL, MENTAL and SPIRITUAL limits. But with everytime that I have pushed myself further than I have ever been before I have slowly attained something stronger and better than anything in this world. That one thing I have attained is a BURNING FIRE that can never be extinguished. This FIRE has pushed me through many times I have felt I may not be able to go any further be it life, training, relationships or anything. I will always continue to do everything I can to better myself. Sometimes I think that I am an A TYPE personality but I don't think that it is completely right. I am not one to sit here and boast about who I am or everything I have done but I am one that wants to be the best at whatever it is. 

I am curious though what does the quote mean to you? comment on this entry and say whats on your mind

This is something that I wrote about three and a half years ago and I found it so I figured I would post for others enjoyment. 

TIME is always a FACTOR in life. What YOU do with that TIME is the question. There are so many things that we want to accomplish, so many things we wish we could do/done better and so many things that we wish we didn't do. You can't sit back IDLY and let TIME pass you by YOU must LIVE in the PRESENT and and makeYOUR DREAMS YOUR REALITY. There is no reason to say the words I CANT! Try replacing those words with I CAN or This MAY BE HARD BUT I CAN DO THIS. Don't use the words I wont give up because in your mind you will shorten it and say I give up. In life if you want something bad enough then go get it and MAKE IT HAPPEN. There is only one person that you look in the eye everyday. So answer this question "Is this where I want to be right now in my life?" TICK TOCK TICK TOCK TIME will not stop for anyone.

This is a quote that I wanted to share and explain a bit of what it means to myself.

"HISTORY TEACHES THAT WHEN YOU WILL BECOME INDIFFERENT AND LOSE THE WILL TO FIGHT SOMEONE WHO HAS THE WILL TO FIGHT WILL TAKE OVER."

COLONEL ARTHUR D. "BULL" SIMMONS

SON TAY RAIDER NOV 21,1970

To me what this means that when you lose the will to fight someone with more determination will come and take over what you can't handle anymore. There has been a few times in my life when i gave up on everything even life itself but the one thing that always remained is that I have an UNWAVERING BURNING desire to be something more than myself. If you dont understand what I mean here is another explanation. I feel there is something more that I should be a part of so I can't rest until I find out what that is. I have pushed myself way beyond my physical and mental limits throughout my life so far that I have had to get surgery from some of my injuries. I never could allow myself to forget what I am really trying to do in my life. Being a soldier i have been able to expierence alot of things but it still isn't enough. I guess I am a type A personality and i need something to be an even bigger challenge of what I have done before. I punish myself alot harder than most when I am unable to accomplish something or if i fail at something. It takes me a while to recover from mental anguish but when i do I become even more resilient towards whatever it was. The fact of the matter is I WILL NEVER GIVE UP IN EVERYTHING I DO!!!

looking for a battlefield to lay my head to rest, i have seen and done more than enough in this life of mine, my body, mind and soul are tired after so many years being at war but for some reason i am still here and i will find the reason why regardless of where it takes me. This was my status today.

I know alot of people truly don't know who i am so i figured I would go a little deeper into this. I have deployed to many different countries to fight than i have been in the army, I have trained and hurt myself countless of times but for some reason I have never gave up. I have seen many bad things in my life endured things I would never wish on anyone. But i have always bounced back. I have a fire or a thirst so to say that has not been quenched, I dont go out looking for a fight but I wil handle it when I need to. I seek out challenges in my life and I won't give up until I am able to complete  it and if I don't watch out im on a one track mind until i make it there. It's wierd only this one time I can't turn the switch on to push myself in the direction I must go. I have done deep soul searching and I still can't find the answer that I seak. I am a way to kind hearted person that has been broken way to many times to count but yet I still try and do everything I can for everyone else. I never worry about myself. I have a hard outer shell that hides a soft inside. I have gotten many tattoos to remind me always of who I am but I can't even see who I am in those anymore. I guess the easiest way to say it is that my mind is clouded with so many things.

I walk a path that many dare not to walk for it is a dangerous and deadly path. Most will choose the easier and wider path to walk but not me. For some reason I can't allow myself to take the easier path. I have to put myself in danger so you dont have to and most wont understand that. I dont serve my country for the thanks or anything like that I serve for the simple fact to protect this country so we never have to see another catastrophe like before. I fight to protect the many generations that will follow after me. Granted I may not ever have offspring myself because I truly can't devote myself to anyone besides my country. I have given up so much to be here where I am today, lost countless friends, been away for so many birthdays and holidays but none of that matters to me as long as everyone else is safe I will gladly give my life in the defense of country. When i pass away into the next world I dont ever want to see anyone shed a tear for me. I want to look down from heaven and here everyone rejoice in everything that I have done not what could have been. I am an extremely proud soldier and that will never change.

I do apoilogize for jumping around this was more meant for me to read from time to time not everyone else so I dont ever forget what I am doing all this for. 

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