Saspanda's blog: "Saspanda's Message Board to ALL FRIENDS"

I have an Inner Circle, where many are not allowed to tread. I now invite you, to join me there, as we spin a common thread of truth. With that common thread we will weave around a willow branch of bending faith and then adorn it with bright beautiful feathers of a true friendship that will be amazing to behold. It will be a constant reminder to us of a friendship of strength we will forever hold. (GegiCluck20072501)

The beauty of the sea draws me in like a midsummers dream. The rhythm of her waves comforts me like the warmth of blanket on the chilly morning right before dawn. I am soothed by sounds and smell as the breeze blows across my skin as I close my eyes to dream of things that might yet be. words by Gegi Cluck January 11, 2007

Wednesday, May 24, 2006 Butterfly tears As Beautiful as a butterfly As Delicate as a broken heart. As fragile as a thin crystal As innocent and true as a child I often wonder why it is we fall in love with who we do? Is it destiny that is choosen for us or do we have a say? Is there a lesson we are to learn from a broken heart? by Gegi Cluck

Thursday, November 23, 2006 Things to be Thankful for 2006 Current mood: loved Category: Life Thanksgiving Day is a day we reflect on all our blessing we have in our life. Here are just a few things I am forever thankful for. I am thankful that God has blessed with Two beautiful daughters that have brighten my life so much. They have both made me so very proud to be their Mom. Rachel my youngest who graduated this year and is beginning to search for her place in the world. She is a loving person with a good and kind heart. I wish for her that she finds what makes her happy and explores all the good things we have in this world. Jae my oldest and the mother of my two wonderful grandchildren Abi and Owen. She is a wonderful mother, I am so very proud how she is raising her kids to honor and respect others and to be the best they can be. Abi, my beautiful granddaughter who has such a wonderful loving and giving spirit. Who is wise beyond her years. Who loves music and laughing and learning all she can. I am blessed with the many conversations and adventures her and I have experienced. We spend time in the kitchen as she is learning to bake and we talk about life. I have learn alot about loving and caring from this little soul. Owen our newest arrival, who is 4 months old and loves to sing with grandma ( although BOTH of us sing off key, lol, it is a treasured memory I will never forget) His smile could melt any heart. I look forward to watching him become a young man ,that we all will be proud of. Mike, the father of my children, who has always been there for them. Even when he really didn't want to do something, he put them first. Our children are blessed to have this man as their father. I just hope they remember this as he gets cranky in his OLD AGE (heheheh) Sheryl who has been my best friend since high school. Who is more like a sister. I am very blessed by her friendship. My life has been blessed by many who have touched my life. Each encounter, no matter how good or bad, has brought me to the person I am today. I pray for all that have touched my life and wish you many blessings in your life. May you always know the love of family and friends. May you each have a safe and wonderful holiday.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006 Heartbreak Current mood: disappointed Category: Romance and Relationships Heart break can come in many forms but for those that are looking for someone honest to be friends with or maybe even to share life with, sometimes it comes from out of nowhere when you least expect it. What is a heart break: Heart break is when you build a friendship with someone and ask for honesty and trust, and they promise to be truthful and you find out the foundation you built with that person is built on lies and myths. Heart Break is when you believe your giving your heart to an honest person, only to find out they are just a big player in game of things. Heart Break is when you know they are lying and you go to them and give them the opportunity to come clean, only to realize your just a pawn and they are still playing the game. Heart Break is knowing he is saying the exact same thing to her that he says to you and you realize your aren't as special to him as you thought you were. Heart break is when he promises to love you forever and you realize , forever to him means only till he says it to the next person that comes along. Heart break is the reality knowing it will never be the same. That some things can not be undone. I hope your eyes will be open to the myths that go on here, protect your heart and believe you are worth more then just being a pawn in someones game. Take warning and remember what mom use to say, if it seems to good to be true..............it probably is.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006 life changes directions Current mood: hopeful Category: Life My life path is changing direction. I am not sure where it will take me. I hope my choices are wise and I will do well. We cant be sure how our life will end up , only hope we have made the right decission. In my youth I use to be so confident in my choice, rarely second guessing them. Now in the autumn of my life when I should be sure of where i am going ,I find myself confused on what is right for me. I always thought i would be happly married with a house full of kids and grandkids. Here I sit alone with occassional visit from the kids and grand kids. I do enjoy it when they come though. Especially the grand daughter who is the light in my dark days. I hope that i will find the compass that will get my life back on track. I am working to improve who i am so that the journey will be a good one. May god guide you along your journey and give you strength to find your happiness. Peace love and Strength to you and yours Gegi

Thursday, May 11, 2006 A fragile heart Current mood: creative Category: Friends A fragile heart cracked and bruised once was whole is now in pieces. In its youth it was so trusting, once was whole is now in pieces. Trust a precious gift given once was whole is now in pieces. no glue or needle n thread can mend what once was whole is now in pieces. Time may heal the heart that was once was whole and now in pieces. Trust returned will take some time cause once was whole is now in pieces. by Gegi Cluck

A tear slides down my face as my heart breaks the love once given is now taken away, no more will I feel him by my side nor have the pain from the lies. The tenderness of his kiss will never be upon my lips, The warm of his embrace now replaced by the coldness of the night. Even though I know its for the best my heart still weeps of promises broken. All I have is memories and the symbol that I wear, of a happier time. I will never forget his smile or his touch or the way he made me laugh nor the way he made me cry. written by Gegi Cluck

I will greet this Day with Love in my Heart For this the Greatest secret of success in all Ventures. I will Greet this Day with Love in my heart. I will Look on all things with love and I will be born again. I will Love the sun for it warms my bones; yet I will Love the rain for it cleanses my spirit. I will Love the Light for it show me the way ; yet I will Love the darkness for it shows me the Stars. I will welcome happiness for it enlarges my heart; yet I will endure sadness for it opens my soul. I will acknowledge rewards for they are my due; yet I Will welcome obstacles for they are my challenge. I will greet this day with Love in my Heart.

I hope that we spend our time wisely while we are online and really get to know one another. I have found that no matter where we come from in this world, that we really are not so different. The majority of us have in our hearts, love for our family and friends and wish for peace. With sincere friendship Gegi