Darkness NZ's blog: "thoughts of the moment"

I looked forward to sleep.
Sometimes I dream, and you are there.
And then
I realize,
Here's the reality of my life I've come to hate.
Careless whispers heated the coldness of my smile.
Once upon a time,
Long sexy strokes of confidence coloured my skin,
Because then,
You were there.
I don't know if I'll ever forget
How you made everything to me
Seem complete.
You were the passion underneath the harshness of those tidal waves.
They used to sink me and drown me.
And then,
You gave your breath to me,
And then
I tasted the sweet flavor of life.
Now, I need to break the intricate web,
You have woven around me.
Safety cradles me like a soft lullaby.
But then,
That was the only song I wanted to hear.
And then, you threw it away.
Bittersweet sensations,
Lingered like an unwanted scar.
You hid me far away from the painful truth,
And then
You tossed your heart high into the nighttime sky.
Far enough,
I cried because I couldn't see it.
Now, I look forward to sleep.
I can dream,
When you were there.
But like love insatiable,
You remain where memories call like haunting winds.

Have you ever cried at night,
Thinking it was bad,
Have you ever lost a love,
The only thing you ever had,
Have you ever screamed out loud,
From pain that you have felt,
Have you ever stopped and looked,
At pain that you have dealt,
Have you ever questioned someone,
Of love and if its true,
Have you ever really wondered,
If they truly feel for you,
Have you ever felt abused,
Or worried while you wait,
Have you ever made a big huge deal,
Over someone being late,
Have you ever had them leave,
And watched them walk away,
Have you ever thought of leaving,
But could only sit and stay,
Have you ever hurt someone,
And looked at what you’ve done,
Have you ever been the one that’s hurt,
And thought that you were the only one,
Have you ever loved another,
And never told them so,
Have you ever tried to tell them,
But didn’t know how it would go,
Have you ever been alone,
Where no one else could see,
So you sat at home remaining unknown,
having nowhere else to be.
I’ve felt this way before,
I’ve felt and dealt it all,
I’ve even lied,
I’ve even cried,
I’ve even felt the fall.
But nothing makes it better,
The Guilt or the Pain I feel,
I wish it all would go away,
I wish it wasn’t real,
But that is not the case,
And it could never be,
It took me too long to open up,
And took me way too long to see, I must;
Own up to mistakes I’ve made,
Get past the pains I’ve felt,
Wipe away the tears that are in my eyes,
And reflect on the tears I’ve dealt,
And Tell someone when I love them,
Before they go away,
And maybe if I word it right,
They just might want to stay.