DELET ME's blog: "whats inside the wix's mind?"

my mood swings have increased tonight... my friend and his g/f that have been datting eachother well over 4 years? the pass few months they have been getting into abusive fights (not physically but emotionally) every fucking time they get into a fight over the most dumbest shit cause of the dumb fucking things they do (not thinking before hand or asuming before hand) they allways run to me and hide behind my back from one another they cant go to anyone else out of arron, brice, mick, tripmen, rox, mandy,... so typical my mood swing kicks in during the riot between them so i said a few things i really did not mean to say and shit i feel bad but it sure hell made them both shut the fuck up and calm the fuck out.... so later going to perrys uncles house to have a lil bit of fun perry decides to point a loaded gun at me... so i had to get the fuck out of there... thanks to my wednesday boo calling gaved me an excuse to leave but after awhile i mad her get mad at me (which i am an asshole for not realising it)

just one day out of nowhere brice comes home and just says "hey lets pack are shit, get a u-haul truck, give up the leaste to the apartment... and just get the fuck out of here" i just wish sometimes i had the modivation to leave everything behind even brice and my dad and just take off with out no notice... but with my luck i would only get so far then i would get found by somebody iv notice that when i was a lil kid i would run away from home and go so far and be by myself for a lil while (even though they says it was hours on in)and some allways found me... i would allways go somewhere that no one would have exspected everyime i get into the mood when i am in my car i just wanna punch the gas and not stop intill my car dies then just leave it where it dies and just walk the rest of the way of where ever i might be going and see where it leads me to.... i am the type that roams out of the area i am used... one time in my life i seriously punched the gas and did not stop intill i hit salt lake city utah and stayed there for 2 days in my car roaming the area and not knowing where to go so after i just got done eatting at a resturant called "jacks coffee" a fucking police officer stop me and was like oh you are reported as a run away.... how in the fuck can i be a runna away when i was 18 years old... then found out i was reported as a missing person and see some one is allways finding me.... i cant use my car with out being reported of me being a missing person and i cant use my two own feet and sleep out in the gutter... so i am allways fucked and every one allways finds me one day i am going to take off.. instead of heading towards the north east i think i am going to head south east heh on febuary 14th is the day i saved brices life and the day he saved mine (inside story)... so i think that day i am going to give up the life i have now and start a new one with or with out anyone (this is me having a mood swing)

something i wrote after the day i cam back from florida (work still in progress)

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inside this wicked mind i feel to much, i say to little ,i hide behind the black invisible, like a ghost, i shine on thoughs who reflect back with the hint of despise. i feel to much i say to little i am the invisible being scard is not even near showing fear it could be anywhere but not even close or is it just me? or is it just what i may bleive that this isnt even reality cause of this fucked up world that turned me to hate the society the way i was then is over now iv become the invisible ghost of him created by all of them hatred isnt a sin its just called revenge... getting back at thoughs that made it difficult to handle i can just barley stand the moment knowing i was once the man i am not anymore invisible ghost i am

1.yes i do own a stanton leavey satanic bible 2.yes i do read a page or two a day 3.yes i feel its disrepectful to preach 4.no i dont give one shit or a blief in other SO-CALLED satanic bibles... they are rip offs, full of bullshit, and the person who wrote it just did it for money and fam 5. sacrificing animals is WRONG why i decided to fallow throught by converting with satanism... the truth is i was getting sick and tired of all these fakes saying they were satanist... so i researched started fallowing through with it and the bliefs i have were just totally have the same incommon

some of you have question my bliefs well heres a big hint

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1. Satan represents indulgence instead of abstinence! 2. Satan represents vital existence instead of spiritual pipe dreams! 3. Satan represents undefiled wisdom instead of hypocritical self-deceit! 4. Satan represents kindness to those who deserve it instead of love wasted on ingrates! 5. Satan represents vengeance instead of turning the other cheek! 6. Satan represents responsibility to the responsible instead of concern for psychic vampires! 7. Satan represents man as just another animal, sometimes better, more often worse than those that walk on all-fours, who, because of his “divine spiritual and intellectual development,” has become the most vicious animal of all! 8. Satan represents all of the so-called sins, as they all lead to physical, mental, or emotional gratification! 9. Satan has been the best friend the Church has ever had, as He has kept it in business all these years

just talking to my rootmate about the pass and fuck! i miss the good olds day of hanging out with more then 5 friends at a time just bashing on eachother talking shit about the people we hated and who we would fuck then making plans about going and just hanging out in downtown for no reason and just for the hell of it fuck now that i am on my own non of it happens anymorefuck i wish the lads were here

i am done with relationships and with girls i am tired of trying to be the perfect guy that everyone allways ask for i am tired of doing everything/anything that no other would do.... i thought about my pass life and the reason why i stay with people and thought about all of my relationships..... i should have stoped datting after my ex whitney... i just should of i am not going to make thoughs mistakes again i am so not i have givin up... theres only one girl i want but i am sad cause she is so far away

so theres this girl i know and she claims she is the most honest and open minded person so i made this fucked up survey and she did it... here it goes enjoy

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SURVEY 1. patty have you ever cumed all over yourself?Pickles 2. do you masturbate?Yes 3. whens the last time you finger yourself? a long time ago 4. stop lying and tell the truth? poo colored thing 5. have you ever wanted to have sex with an animal?no 6. do you get off on watching black porn? so so 7. have you ever wanted to eat your own cunt? no 8. have you ever dreamed about haveing sex with your famaily memebers? no but I did once have a dream that my dad raped me 9. have you ever wanted to fuck jack shortridge? no 10. have you seen claytons butthole? yes 11. have you ever tryed anal sex? once--Mike 12. did you like it? so so 13. have you ever fingered clayton anally? No 14. have you ever let clayton finger you anally? Once 15.who would you fuck shannon or your dad? Dad Shannon is to gay lol 16. have you ever taken a picture of your vaginia? NO!! 17. now i know your lying above this question? Fuck you 18. have you ever seen annies vaginia? Yes did I want to no. 19. wanna have sex with a black male? I saw single and liked a some one who is black the sure 20. how many finger can you fit into your vaginia? I dont know 21. who your favorite singer? Mariha carey 22. are you a lesbian? No 23.my balls are very itchy? oo al al lol 24. would have ever take a dump on claytons chest? no 25. you ever have clayton take a dump on your chest? no 26. during sex do you think about others? one time 27. i know your lying above this question? no 28. have you ever stepped on your own titty? no 29. nice shoes wanna fuck? sure lol 30. woudl you like to stick a dildo up claytons butthole? no 31. ever dreamed about having sex with shannon? no 32. ever dreamed about having sex with jarrett? no 33.have you ever wanted to be fisted vaginaly? no 34.have you ever wanted to get fisted anally? no 35. go fuck your self for doing this survey

sorry for what ever i may have done

so i have come across several girls accounts atleast 7? and i have read their accounts and the post up on there saying how they dont want perverted comments and peverted guys talking to them now in my opinion dont dress like a fucking slut, dont talk like a fucking slut, take down your private pictures, and you wont get abunch of guys saying perverted shit.... also with my opinion you slutty cunts deserve it if your going to talk,act,dress, like that so shut the fuck up or stop acting like it and you wont get perverted guys