DJ Gemini's blog: "where else you can find me...."

Confessions Of The Soul Category: Life Confessions Of The Soul: Once again things aren't always as they appear.....Family, Friends, Acquaintances.....All wanting to know themselves and what they want in their lives. While going through the motions of everyday life. Some living a somewhat double life, some happy and content, others confused and lost. All searching for what they desire and need. One must first know themselves and what they want before they can give someone else a piece of themselves, and give them what they want. With that it is a two way street. Always give and take. No one should give and never receive back. That is so unfair. Things should not be left unsaid or taken for granted, thinking that one knows what the other feels or doesn't feel and hasn't said. Things left unresolved only eat away at one's soul and one's heart. Whether good nor bad it is better to know than to waste time wondering and drawing your own conclusions. Friendships can be broken, damaged and destroyed by what is not said or discussed. I myself would rather know then not know at all. When I was younger I experienced this and it took me 25 years to resolve it and move on. To completely get over what I never got to say and what was never talked about. But it worked out and we are still friends to this day. Most people have a hard time opening up, talking about their feelings and even admitting them. Some don't want to hurt the other involved so they leave it alone and don't say anything. It boils down to the fear of being hurt and hurting someone else. Just like some people spend their life looking for their "Soulmate" when they usually are right in front of them and they don't realize it. A friend told me that a year or so ago and I wasn't sure if it was some sort of nonchalant way to say how they felt or just a saying they were repeating. Such is life I guess. In the end we are all lost souls at one point or another all searching for something or someone.

I fell for you , thought you loved me.... till I said something stupid just teasing not realizing that it hurt you.... Because that was the way you dealt with expressing your feelings to someone you care about and love. If I could take it all back you know that I would..Because I love you with all my heart and all I am. Even though we haven't known each other for very long.... You stole my heart and just left it to shatter into pieces. So now we are both hurt, except you don't care anymore and can shut off your feelings and say you don't love me and won't even talk to me anymore. I guess I was just too foolish to think that any of it was possible . While I sit crying listening to songs that fit what happened and how I feel. Wanting to take back what I said and all the hurt and pain I caused. Wanting you to talk to me and love me.

All I Need..... Current mood: flirty December 14th, 2006 You're all I need..... Just to see your smile, brightens my day. I love just to watch you. I could do that for hours on end. Without even speaking, just to watch. For some reason when I'm around you, I don't need conversation. Just to be near is enough. We need to share our fears, because though we share a mutual attraction, we are both scared, but neither is willing to admit it. I wonder if that's why we haven't succomb to our desires. Because of how emotionally overwhelming it might be. The longer we wait, the more the tension builds. we will be like human dynamite by that point. Oh so volatile, and full of fire and desire raging beyond our wildest dreams. You are all I want, all I need....

Left With a Vision...... Current mood: flirty Category: Romance and Relationships You left me with a vision, a mental picture that my mind cannot erase. One that is embedded in my memory, only to taunt me of what I cannot have as of yet. One day, I shall have, what it is I seek to embrace. No longer, just a vision, but reality. To touch, to feel, to have with everything that I am. I long for that time, when I can actually get that close to you. To feel your heartbeating, to run my hands across your chest, to lay my head against you, as you hold me ever so close. To feel your lips against mine, to feel your hands on my body. I can only hope that the reality happens, ever so soon. As I am not sure how much longer I can wait, with all the anticipation of that incredible moment when we share it all... Thou I will wait as long as I must, just to be with you, in your arms. Our unclothed bodies close to one another. Skin touching, skin. Body heat ever so building along with all the anticipation, till we can't wait any longer and succomb to our desires. I know deep inside, that once we share this moment, it will not end. It will be a recurring experience, as I know that it will only make us want each other that much more. We won't be able to resist the temptation, because we are so good at seducing the other. Forever building, the passion goes on, raging, for our seduction is as subtle as a lite summers breeze.

That Bittersweet Moment~ Current mood: flirty I long to feel your touch, as you gently brush your hand against my face. Your tender lips on mine. Feasting on what each has to offer. We do our usual dance, enticing one another, only so far till the one day, when we follow thru on our desires for each other. Both wanting so much, but holding back until that certain moment in time. Both seducing the other with temptation, only to go our separate ways. Once again, until that bittersweet moment when we give into each other to be as one......

"?LOVE starts with a SMILE, grows with a KISS, and ends with a TEAR. DON'T cry over anyone who won't cry over you. Good FRIENDS are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push. ACTIONS speak louder than words. The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. DON'T let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff. LIFE'S SHORT. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it. A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover, HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE. Some people make the world SPECIAL just by being in it. BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it HURTS to look back, and you're SCARED to look ahead, you can look beside you and your BEST FRIEND will be there. TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS. Friends are FOREVER. Good friends are like STARS You don't always see them, but you know they are ALWAYS THERE. DON'T frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end. Most people walk in and out of your life, but only FRIENDS leave footprints in your heart. ?

Loving Him (Not Written By Me) Category: Romance and Relationships Loving Him You know that feeling that you get when someone you love comes near. The kind that when they touch you, all your feelings shift a gear. And when they speak all you can do is listen, grin and smile. The pain of knowing you and him will never walk the aisle. And when you see his shining face, you wish that it was yours. To hold, to touch, to kiss all night. To cradle in your arms. For him to be the one that will forever be with you. Brings cheer and joy into your life but there's nothing you can do. You can wish and and hope that one day soon he'll find out you're the one. So he can hold you, touch you, kiss you all your days to come. To cherish him with all your heart is all that you can do. Even if it means as friends, but you know it's not true. You'll always have a place for him, inside within your heart. He'll never know the pain you feel the days you are apart. As much as you would like for him to try and understand. You wouldn't want for him to feel the pain that you withstand. So, as for now, the most that you can do is sit and smile. And do not tell him all the feelings that you've had a while. And pray for him that someone just as caring, sweet as you. Will come along and care for him as you would want them to.

The Greatest Irony of Love Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life... And sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again... For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person... in my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else... Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little... As we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right... Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them we are just for passing time, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger... So here's a piece of advice; Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love isn't enough. And move on when things are not like before... It's certain... there is someone out there WHO WILL LOVE YOU EVEN MORE...

FRIENDS WITHOUT FACES (and some that do) We sit and we type, and we stare at our screens We all have to wonder, what this possibly means. With our mouse we roam, through the web in a maze Looking for something or someone, as we sit in a daze. We chat with each other, we type all our woes Small groups we do form, and gang up on our foes. We wait for somebody, to type out our name We want recognition, but it is always the same. We give kisses and hugs, and sometimes flirt In IMs we chat deeply, and reveal why we hurt. We do form friendships - but - why we don't know But some of these friendships, will flourish and grow. Why is it on screen, we can be so bold Telling our secrets, that have never been told. Why is it we share, the thoughts in our mind With those we can't see, as though we were blind. The answer is simple, it is as clear as a bell. We all have our problems, and need someone to tell. We can't tell real people, but tell someone we must So we turn to the 'puter, and to those we can trust. Even though it is crazy, the truth still remains They are Friends Without Faces, and odd little names.