what the fuck is up with people that use you until you cant take it any more ,its sucks and I am so sick of it I have done my best and for some fucked up reason I still get burnt by the people I love the most ,I am so stessed I cant keep this shit up for too much longer I think one of these days I am just going to break and pack me and my kids up and move out of this fucking state .I am so pissed off right now but what the fuck ever so if I disappear for a while you all know that I had enough