I was an angry and bitter woman at one point in my life, I pushed everyone and anyone that gave a shit about me away. My attitude was Fuck The World .... to a point I am still that way. I had a beautiful little girl and because of my life style my ex decided to take her away. It's been 8 months since I've seen her. He refuse to let me see her. He has my daughter calling his new whore mommy. Still pissed about that one. But anyways, there came a point in my miserable life when, I choose to take control of my destiny. I watched my ex, laugh and enjoying life while I was the one miserable and full of hate. Which, didnt hurt anyone but me. Thats hard to see when you're filled with hate. Fortunetly I had Kyla in my life and she never gave up on me. No matter what I did to her, or said to her. She never waivered and never left me. I'm not a religious person so I thank whomever, for her staying with me through all this shit. I was a real bitch to her a times and she would tell me she understands and sit back, listen and watch. Not once did she ever say "fuck this shit, I'm done" ... though I did several times. To this day I dont understand why she stayed but I'm glad she did or I would've missed out on a wonderful lover, friend and soul mate. Pushing people away doesnt hurt the one that hurt you they're still smiling, laughing and moving on. It hurts self, the best revenge for someone who's wronged you besides kicking there ass - is to show them that no matter what they do, or did they don't control you, your emotions.Don't look for the one that says "I'll back up and give you time", look for the one thats says "no matter what I am not leaving you".I've learned that people are not all the same, to judge is to misjudge. To love with conditions is not love, forgive but never forget, cherish not the ones you live with, but the one you can't live without. Damn I sound like a fourtune cookie but, thourgh all things I know this. If it werent for Kyla's love, patience and understanding, I wouldnt be here today. So always, look beyond the pain because your angel will always be there waiting for you.