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I'M SORRY FOR BEING ME!!!!
I'M SORRY FOR ALL THE THING I'M NOT!!!!
I'M SORRY FOR NOONE BEING HAPPY WITH ME!!!
blend with the shadows of the night,
the living world keep in thy sight,
breath silence and move like the dust
born from a tombstone of the past...
...no mercy in thy icy heart
for the lost prey you stalk and hunt,
only the lust to take his life
and make his Death thy lovely wife.
let patience freeze your tired blood
and wait,... for in the name of God,
you're not alive, and he'll soon die --
an answer to your hungry cry.
I'M SORRY FOR BEING HERE!!!
I'M SORRY FOR NOT GIVE HOPE TO LIFE!!!!
I'M SORRY FOR LIFE NOT LOVING ME!!!
I'M SORRY FOR I LOST THE FIGTH IN LIFE!!
I'M SORRY FOR EVER WIN SOMETHING I CAN'T BEAT!!
I'M SORRY FOR ALL OF YOU THAT KNOW ME!!!
I'M SORRY FOR NOT BEING BEAUTFULL!!!!
I'M SORRY FOR NOT BEING DEAD!!!
I'M SORRY THERE NO END TO THIS!!!
I'M SORRY FOR BEING SO FUCKUP NOONE WANT!!
I'M SORRY FOR NOONE TRUE LOVING ME!!!
I'M SORRY FOR LIVE ONE MORE DAY IN THIS PANT!!!
< Understand death has no use for time.
No time is any better, any worse.
Cancel twenty years or eighty-nine,
Love's a loss one cannot reimburse.
Each of us lives for an eternity,
Dying only after our forever.
Early or late, we vanish equally,
All unconscious of the ties we sever,
No longer either separate or together.
Pain, it the obstacle to which we can never defend,
No one can help us be they family or friend,
Pain is the tormentor that pulled us towards that ledge,
It’s all their fault they pushed us over the edge,
It was too late when we fell down,
Through the sky onto the black charred ground,
Can you feel how much we hate and despise,
Let us tear, pull and rip out our eyes,
You see this is humanities ideal,
To tell each other how much hurt we feel,
This is how it should be for all time,
When we are chasing sanity from our minds,
How we would cut our skin and let flow our black blood,
Knowing that we would be washing the agony away for good,
To be gone from the world that teases us so inside of a coffin of silk and gold,
To be remembered fondly even when our bodies are cold,
They caused us to cry tears of utter nothingness,
They forgot to be our guide when we wandered the wilderness,
Can you see how we’re drowning in our sin?
Let us scratch and peel away our skin,
They pushed us into an early grave; they pulled us into the earth by our hair,
But the thing you have to ask is, do we really care?
I think the answer is no because despite their persistence,
We remain even in death empty, indifferent,
Humanity helped us to live, but encouraged us to die,
It taught to disobey, to steal, kill and lie,
Outcasts we lived our futures now,
Drinking deep from the blood that dripped from God’s brow,
We don’t give a damn even now about our fears,
Let us claw and scream to rid us of the whining in our ears,
But we don’t need them; we are free now, in death in hell,
We are free from our confines, free from our shell,
Come, let’s free our anger, let’s lose our distress,
And together we shall surrender to eternal darkness
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my world is dark and i hate
the light im blind in the
morning but can see at night
my heart doesn't beat it
doesn't move if u stare into
my eyes you will see nothing
my soul is gone my body
is just a empty shell my
spirit is gone it went to hell
just a mindless creature
walking the earth soon to
collapse 1000 years after
birth i roamed the land
for all those years looking
for someone just to be near
the sun burns my skin
i feel like im in hell
the screaming of people
children running
women crying men cussing
telling me to go back were
i came from i try to speak
but i can't say a word
im a walking shell
who has been through hell
but if you look into my eyes
all you can tell is that
the heart has stopped so
im going to hell
Idols
If only it were so simple,
to cruise through life smelling roses;
but the obstacles blacken the countryside,
and we unwittingly crush them beneath our boots.
Dreams sustain us through the madness;
goals give a finish line to our race.
Yet they change with every turn, around every wall,
and remain elusive throughout the quest.
Mistakes are made, and regrets are our luggage;
we will drag them with us to slow us down.
The victories are flashes of light, sudden and unlasting, which allow us
to glimpse the road ahead before darkness descends.
Love is bitter, yet it is the bread that keeps us.
Over and over it fills us up, only to starve us.
The people whom we love shape our destinies and our strengths,
yet leave us cold and alone in the darkness.
There are others trying to race to the end;
occasionally, we bump into one or two.
The bonds we form help us down the path less lonely
but eventually, we lose each other in the darkness.
Alone is not a bad way to be;
it clears your head and focuses you on the journey.
Cherish the short intervals during the quest you have with others,
but be prepared to walk alone in the darkness.
FOREVER!!!!
If only the world could see what I feel
then, would the world, know who I am
I've loved, lost and feared the world
for it is sometimes too much to bare
Control, power, is what I fear
for I am weak inside and full of pain
I shout and cry, but knowing
there is nobody there to hear me
I swallow the shame and anger
that lies beneath me
I am lost to reality and living in time
Though I am struggling through life
and all that it offers, I am only human
and that is what makes me . . . Me.
Still, I wish for the happiness and pleasure
that I have earned, but realize that, I have
not yet overcome the world's greatest challenge
Love! and how to accept it -
I am ready to face my fears
BUT STELL I'M ALWAY ALONE LOST THE WELL TO CARE
NEVER WELL THEE LOVE LIVE IN MY TRUE DARKNESS ALL
ALONE!!!
Wandering in darkness grope,
Finding not a glimpse of hope.
Fingers touch to find my way,
Each foot fall, my heart betrays
The fear which drives me through the day.
Suddenly the ground is lost,
Flailing arms as body's tossed.
Splashing down in crimson pool,
The warm embrace is much too cruel,
I curse this lowly, wretched fool.
Floundering in this self made hell,
Warmth increasing as I dwell,
Within the confines I create,
Screaming as myself berate,
Giving in to this, my fate.
Watch as this tear falls into empty space
See it fall into life's nameless place
Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light
That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight
As it falls watch it, its color has changed
From blue to bright red, it has a wide range
There it goes all alone, it continues to fall
With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all
Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free
Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be
Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye
A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry
A shudder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul
The darkness of the night has taken its toll
We are the nameless ones.
No shout can hold us down,
No whisper call us forth.
We have no identity,
And cannot be bound.
We are the seekers.
Ours are the dreams of magic,
Ours the search for reason.
We are more real than reality
And know our selves as no others can.
We exist beyond the blood.
Our bodies are more than flesh
And feel more than flesh can feel.
We exist beyond the mirrors.
Our minds are not reflections
Of others' shallow wishes.
Our clothes have never fit us.
The nameless spend forever
Searching time for titles.
Though we have never found them,
Something inside us always looks.
We are the mad.
We live from birth to death
Catching glimpses of heaven and hell -
Confused between the race we're born to
And the one we feel inside.
The gentle winds blow across the steam
Sending visions to us as in a dream
A beautiful land beyond our sight
But to our minds give such delight
A place so wondrous above it all
Where we soar high but cannot fall
For we are coached like a new born child
And treated oh so tender and mild
In this land there is no pain
It is taken and peace does remain
Over our hearts and in our soul
And only then will we be whole
But for now this place stays a vision
And with our lives we'll have to reason
The pain and sorrow that fill our heart
And to our world can tear apart
Now don't be sad for we shall return
It is ours but something to earn
And when we do a vision it won't be
But an eternal life to set us free
Striving for greatness, but destined to fail.
Reaching for heaven, while living in hell.
Anxious to take, but reluctant to give.
Fearful of dying, and hasn't yet lived.
Wants to bask in the sun, but a creature of night.
Keeps doing wrong, but wants to do right.
Trying to stay young, but feeling so old.
A warm person at heart, but comes across cold.
Has it together, but falling apart.
Ready to finish, and has yet to start.
Living a life doing nothing, but dying.
Keeping a smile, at the same time crying.
Wanting it all, but has just a bit.
Desperate to stop, but can't seem to quit.
Happy here, but wants to be there.
Running in place and getting nowhere.
Craving that poison, but trying to refrain.
Feeling just great, when really in pain.
Staring in awe, but trying to ignore.
Wanting just a little, but swearing, "NO MORE!"
Keeping a promise, but feeling so torn.
Proud of one's self, and too, feeling scorn.
Thinking no one cares, but sensing concern.
Don't worry, it's cool, but the flames still burn.
Feeling so lonely, but afraid of devotion.
Wants to love openly, but can't show emotion.
Want's to take it easy, yet looks for storms to weather.
Hate loves &Love hates:
My heart is torn and cannot be mended
My thoughts that roam my mind are no longer splendid
To love is to hate and to hate is to love
To that special four letter word I will push and shove
My breathing is weak and I cannot see
Your face is there when I drop to my knee
Let God have me now...
..Blood drips from my brow
Taste the hate and feel how it is warm
It welcomes well in its form
My heart is torn and cold inside
It rips open and lets forth a dark blooded tide
It is "love" that has caused all this trouble
And it is"love" that has made hate in my heart double
If this word causes so much pain
For this word why do others seek and try to gain?
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We are the nameless ones.
No shout can hold us down,
No whisper call us forth.
We have no identity,
And cannot be bound.
We are the seekers.
Ours are the dreams of magic,
Ours the search for reason.
We are more real than reality
And know our selves as no others can.
We exist beyond the blood.
Our bodies are more than flesh
And feel more than flesh can feel.
We exist beyond the mirrors.
Our minds are not reflections
Of others' shallow wishes.
Our clothes have never fit us.
The nameless spend forever
Searching time for titles.
Though we have never found them,
Something inside us always looks.
We are the mad.
We live from birth to death
Catching glimpses of heaven and hell -
Confused between the race we're born to
And the one we feel inside.
Look at her,
her face drips blood,
pouring tears of acid rain.
Heartache all among the ruins,
lost in a world of confusion,
minds all crazed and broken parted,
faces grey and rotting corpses.
Sitting lost among the living,
watching, waiting, needing something.
Fire from hell itself,
never ending to be out.
Fear gripped faces of the future,
longing to feel the warmth,
look around the world of living,
wonder why there's nothing there.
People round the world are calling,
walking into danger's core.
Laughter gone and submersed,
screams anger from inside,
seize the darkness,
come down under.
Watch the moments grow stronger,
looking down i see your pain,
anger deep in core of man,
it wishes to be free to wander,
longing for something to hold.
Watch the clock as it ticks by,
death is coming in with every breath,
wait a minute, stop the yelling,
voices start to fade and wander,
calling out as they go by.
People wishing, people dreaming,
saying prayers no one hears.
looking up they see the light,
going down the pain grows stronger.
For one moment it seems right,
for one second they can't wait.
Screaming as they go down under,
pain is coming, they can feel.
Watching, waiting and wondering,
looking for something to grasp.
Asking when will it be over,
getting nothing in return.
MY DARKEST THOUGHTS, I FOLLOWED THEM
TO EVERY CHASM OF THE MIND
WHERE OFTEN VISIONS ARE NOT KIND
SOME ARE ANGRY, SOME ARE HATE
SOME ARE TEMPTING, FORNICATE
ICY RIVERS FILLED WITH LUST
RUN THROUGH VALLEY OF MISTRUST
A PRIVATE GRAVEYARD FOR THE DEAD
THEIR VISIONS FLOATING IN MY HEAD
A LAND OF DARK, AND DESOLATION
TIME OVERWHELMED WITH DESIMATION
THESE BLACKENED VISIONS FILL MY THOUGHTS
MY SPINE, AND STOMACH TIED IN KNOTS
THE FEAR OF LOSING ALL IS CLOSE
IT'S CARRIED BY GRANDFATHERS GHOST
I BEG YOU HELP ME QUELL THIS PAIN
FROM SLOWLY ROTTING OUT MY BRAIN
RENDER ME PENANCE SO I MAY
HAVE ABSOLUTION AT LEAST TODAY
SO I CAN FIND A WAY TO COPE
AND NOT DIE SWINGING FROM MY ROPE
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