REFLECTIONS
As she gazes into the lake her eyes look at the reflections of a troubled young woman. Eyes so full of pain and anger that stems from somewhere beyond her. So lost deep within the hurt she can't seem to see her way out. Loneliness drives her mad, companionship is lost. Always feeling like she is so alone and unloved. Never being able to find someone that can see through her masks. Searching for something she may never find. Always feeling unworthy of something as great as happiness. She sinks deeper and deeper into a depression that is killing her. Praying at night that she will not see the light of another day but deep down knowing her prayers will go unanswered again. Crying out for help but there is no one there that understands how she is feeling. In fear that she will become another depression satistic. How horrible could death be? Couldn't be worse than life. Unsure of what she is feeling. Being saddened by the thoughts of regrets and self loathing. Not sure where to turn. Becoming overwhelmed by a darkness that she knows will consume her completely this time. Welcoming it, wanting it, and hoping it takes her quickly.
AN ERRATIC MIND
An erratic mind that knows no bounds, a constant torment of thoughts. An ongoing process that never slows down. Days without sleep, moments of rage, long periods of introverted anger. Never knowing where to turn when the thoughts overwhelm me. Hoping and wishing one day things will slow before snapping and causing great pain. Torturous and impervious anguish that nothing takes away. Feeling imprisoned within my own mind. Surrounded by a pain no one understands. Always searching for an answer but never finding one. Spending days feeling like I am trapped by something that will never be overcame. Feeling like I am being punished for being me. Never feeling peace, not knowing what tomorrow will bring, holding out for something that may never be there.
