Guess I should write a little bit about me for those of you who want to know. And also for those of you who don't want to know as well - tough titties, i'm doing it anyway lol
OK, born and raised in Hampshire in the UK. Typical kid I reckon - got into lots of trouble, built dens in the woods that surrounded the estate I lived on, never came back home on time and was constantly being grounded by my parents (now I come to think about it, I was grounded indefinately about 3 times..... how does that one work out? lol)
My parents split up when I was 9 and, as every kid does, I blamed myself for the divorce. The usual stuff - if only I'd of come back on time, if only I hadn't spent all my pocket money on sweets, that kinda thing. Went off the rails a bit at school after that but was still a generally good kid (I'd like to think anyway lol)
Me and my older sis were living with my mum and saw my dad at the weekend. Usually down the pub. That lasted for about 4 years. Then the shittiest thing happened.
I was 13 and just came back from rounders practice after school (if you don't know what rounders is then just think baseball but in diet form). It was a summers day and I came bounding in the front door. The thing I found wierd was that there was most of my family in the lounge. Most of my family and 3 letters on the table. My mum had upped and left us. She was there in the morning and when I came back from school, she was gone. She didn't tell anyone where she went, she didn't tell anyone why. To add insult to injury, even the combined efforts of the police, Missing Persons and my family, no-one could figure out where she went. Guess who found her?
Yup, muggins over here.
I managed to track her down to Torquay all on my own. Not bad for a 13yo kid. The police there said she didn't want to be in contact with anyone and we should let her approach us if she wanted to. A couple of years later she got in touch and part explained what happened. Basically, she had a drink problem and suffered a nervous breakdown. She couldn't handle looking after me and my sis so she packed her bags and left. The wierd thing is I never blamed her. I was never angry, never mad. Very confused but I never held it against her.
So, my dad moved in to take care of me and my sis and that just didn't work out from the start. It was the classic case of me living in the house for all my life and having another male butt in and take over. We fought like cat and dog and it was this way for about 6 yrs until I moved out properly (he chucked me out a couple of times) for the first time.
I was living in this house with a few other people for a couple of years when the phone went. My mum had died. As mentioned previously, she had a drink problem and was supposed to of been off the booze but she was found in her flat in Torquay with a few empty bottles of vodka. She basically drank herself to death - died of multiple organ failure.
A couple of years later, my dad did the exact same thing. He was taken to hospital but they couldn't do anything for him and he died when I was 24.
So thats both parents dead from multiple organ failure due to alcoholism. I was in the middle of my smoking weed phase then and just got lower and lower. I'd be smoking about 15 kingsize joints a day just to knock myself out for the evening. I wasn't seeing my friends, I wasn't going out, I was spending a small fortune on weed and it was definately taking its toll on me.
But, I gave it up about a year and a half ago and haven't touched it since. Oh, theres been times when I've been so desperate to ring someone up and ask if they have anything but I know I'll just go back into that place where I do nothing but smoke and its a bad place.
Which pretty much brings me up to the here and now. Theres been a million other things that have happened, that have helped shape me into the person I am today but you've got better things to do with your time than read about them.
We've covered alcoholism, drug addiction, death and rounders today - tomorrow, how to blow £70,000 in a year!
I didn't type all of this to get people to say, awww, you've had a bad life, you deserve a break. I'm totally aware that there are millions of people in the world who have had it worse than me and will continue to lead lives that basically suck.
I just wanted to write some shit down about me.
