Chrissy in CT's blog: "A new week...."

OK HERE'S HOW THIS WORK I WILL TELL YOU TEN THING'S ABOUT ME THEN I WILL PICK TEN PEOPLE TO DO THE SAME THING THIS IS A GOOD WAY FOR US ALL TO GET TO KNOW THE PEOPLE WE CHAT WITH AND CALL OUR FRIENDS I THINK IF YOUR MY FRIEND YOU'D LIKE TO KNOW ALL YOU CAN AS I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU SO IF I PICK YOU YA GOTTA PLAY DAMMIT LOL 1. Yes, I am really 44 and no i do not always look this way and no i do not masturbate 24/7....lol! 2. I love all kinds of music but i have a special love for George Strait! 3. My favorite color is Red. 4. I have done the same job, cardiac telemetry tech , for the last 20 years. 5. I have lived in 5 US states but was not originally born in TX i am from Baltimore! 6. I only have one dream left in life....if you brave enough ask me what it is...lol 7. I will eat anything but brussel sprouts, okra and sushi....ick! 8. My favorite pastime outside of taking pictures is haunting thrift shops, antique stores and flea markets for found treasures! 9. My favorite town in the whole world to go is FORT WORTH TEXAS! 10. My life has been very difficult and the thing that gets me through it all is my sense of humor, my faith in god, my son, and my many friends. Im gonna tag: Readheaded Cherry Fornicates Daddy Roush Metalization Jeff Deadwater WheelsofSteel Marlizbra Casanova Cherry Jonel and......Timmy...lol Have fun ya'll

I wonder at times what in the hell i was placed on this earth for other than incessant problem solving. Im in a blue funk today yet again, trying to problem solve my existence and prepare for yet another issue or crisis to rear its ugly head. Christmas is the least of my concerns right now survival is. Struggling to make it all work...20 years ago i had great energy for such things. But i find as time goes on...its harder and harder to put things right. Im just so tired of doing everything alone. These medical issues have tapped my reserves emotionally, spiritually and financially. Ever been at your wits end, yet try to put on a brave face?!?! for your child, for your friends, family and the world in general? Exhausting isnt it? Just a little bit of a break is what i need, something good to happen in my life instead of the endless barrage of crap im dished up daily. I guess to understand it all i should tell you a lil about what happened today. After these 2 surgeries am out of sick time. I have begged to be fired so i can draw unemployment but no they wont do that. So what to do? Do i quit since i have no gas to get there even if the doc does release me soon? Take a penalty from the unemployment office. Well no, i cant even file unemployment till the docs release me i was told today. No paychecks...no money...no help from anywhere in the government arena. (and George Bush lives here what a fucking joke!!!!) WHAT ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO DO?!?!? I've exhausted every church, 211, Salvation Army the list is endless. I did manage to get some temporary help from social services...but as you can see im up against the wall with all these folks. I cant even get the stupid school to pick up my son on a damn bus for school cuz here in texas if your 2 miles out from the school it is your responsibility to get them there....WHAT PART OF I DONT HAVE GAS MONEY DO THEY NOT UNDERSTAND?!?!!? So i guess all i can do is take it day by day and pray....ALOT! I do want to say one thing. The support and love i get here from the people who care about me is what keeps me from going insane. You make me laugh, you make me smile, you sure an hell make me blush from time to time...lol. You are the best folks in the world my cherries. Now that im done rambling on for the day and spewing my frustration will close out just by saying...I love all of you and would be lost without each and everyone of you. God Bless each and everyone of you, Chrissy

Thank the Lord...lol Anyone who has been following my ongoing saga of life knows I have had a roller coaster week both emotionally and physically. The stress of an illness requiring not one but two surgeries in the past 6 mos couple with running out of sick time and the incessant problem solving caused me to have a major meltdown the other day which i shared here. The end of the week came out much better with some issues resolved and a little breathing space. I just want everyone to know how much your well wishes, prayers and just general concern mean to me. I wanted to say something special in part to the rest of the single parents. We are up at 2 am pacing the floor, problem solving and worrying. Trying to make ends meet with not enough to do it. Dealing with anxiety from overwork, not enough pay and a government that has forgotten this minority that is a majority growing steadily everyday. There is little or no help for the working single parent. Unless you throw in the towel and head for the welfare line, your plight is to be up at 2 am trying to juggle bills, fend of the collectors and on top of it now ....Christmas. What is it that keeps us going....our kids! The tears are for 2 am cuz in the morning we gotta get up and smile and show them the strong brave person that we are inside. For every smile, every laugh, every good grade, every lesson learned we are duly rewarded daily by our children for our hard work. Sometimes we dont think they understand. But believe me they do. They also see you hurt and worry no matter how hard or good you are at trying to hide it. They are our life and worth every minute of our worrying and tears. God gave me my son and what a precious gift he is. Its all worth it...just to see him smile. Things are hard most of the time..lol. But it will get better sooner or later...only to have another crisis to over come. Im always here to talk to anyone who needs me. I just wanted you to know that you all mean so much to me and I love you very much....