it is so hard when you know something has to come to an end
when the tears flow because of pain caused
selfishness being thrown forward
making one feel meaningless
words spoken without regard to consequences
and a numbing wave rolling over those hurt
i'm sorry came too late
too busy to communicate
with those supposedly loved
causing distance too great to be overcome
just because you want it too
ignorance may be bliss
but the pain it causes still ripples through
it is all too late
one thing after another
fearing to call, because you rarely do
such a change from not too long ago
tired of being so depressed
tired of feeling unloved
tired of excuses
tired of all of this pain...
tired of feeling numb
like i was a few years ago
powerless and in tears
because someone i loved changed so drastically
you need to look into yourself
and take the time to heal from your past
i am not a bandaid
for you or anyone
i will not do this again
i can not do this again
my son means too much to me
to have him see me like this
he deserves to see mommy happy
and someone with the same values as me
to help me turn him into a man i can be proud of
why did it all change
words unspoken are meaningless now
you devastated me with one comment
offense was taken
and i deserve better than this
and perhaps it may have found me
