Miss Gr33n 3y3s's blog: "April fools day wish was a joke"

Will this April Fool's day wake me up and everything be back to normal or will I open my eyes in the morning and I will be fooled and my best friend  still won't appear…

         I was driving to work on Tuesday and I heard those sirens in the close vicinity, with  the sudden  urge of ambulance chasing crossing my mind, I looked at the time but  just couldn’t this time or else I would be late for work. I still have my father's voicemail that day with his shaky almost ready to break down voice to please call him as soon as I can. I have never heard him sound like this , not even when his parents passed away so I knew as my eyes swelled with tears that the news was going to be devastating. I hung up my phone  in this mostly all men factory after talking to him,  I knew I should have chased that ambulance now because my sister had been killed in still an unknown reasoning " accident."  God it felt like an eternity walking through that plant insanely crying and ready to just break down trying to find the supervisor. What a big mistake that was because with him the HR lady was, finding myself being held  down not letting me go with me just wanting to flail my arms around in a punching motion because I needed to get home to comfort my mother, I didn't care  on how out of my head I was because hell  2 years earlier I found my little boy lying face down in his own vomit paralyzed from the seizure he had for  who knows how long before I found him yet I still found my levelness to get him myself to the hospital, I knew I could drive the long 7 minutes to be there for my mother…………….

Sorry, I just can't finish. Not that I can't but just that I don't think you want to hear on how I went to the scene after leaving my parents and left with still the same unanswered questions as I had before I got there. Her on a 55 mph road going left of center and getting hit on her passenger side ( I went to where her totaled car went and took all kinds of pics of it) with no trace of skid marks like the female driver of the other car never even tried to stop and hit her full force…. Ok, enough on this…..

I guess what I am getting at is that  Easter is coming, I think more of a family holiday than Christmas can ever be because it is in the spring where rebirth and regrowth happens.  I don't care what some people say on the subject of Fubar family and that they really aren't real and really don't care about you but they care more about the game and what you can do for them I totally 100% disagree with that statement. Most of you in my family were there for me during this difficult time on April 15th of last year and actually talked to me right after and I am here to thank you and you know the anniversary of her death is up and coming and I know you will understand if some days I am distant or depressed that I am in need of a hug.  That being said don't say anything when I run quite a few famps as a thank you virtual hug since I can't visit each and every one of you  all over the United States from me or bling you with no warning…..

I appreciate you all and please remember to appreciate the ones you love because you never know when you are going to lose them……