A little backgroun here first.....
My husband worked at an alfalfa mill driving a chopper(big tracter) not a/c'd and it was an extremely hot summer the summer I had my youngest son. I had told Tiger(hubby) before that if he wanted to quit to quit because he shouldn't stay in a job he doesn't like. So one day I get a call from him.. and he says he quit. Well it was really bad timing but hell I'd toldh im to right?
So then he gets this other job that he LOVES through a temp agency.. but for the place to hire him regular .. he had to take a drug test.. he failed.. so of course he got let go.
At this time we decided it would be better for him to stay home with the new baby rather than have to find & trust a babysitter.
NOW .. he did EVERYTHING at home. He was a fantastic stay at home dad. The year Colton started preschool Tiger got a summer job @ the pallet place(where he works still)
Around October last year we got info that GM was hiring temp help & got the number for him to call to get on the list. He quit getting high right then. Well when it came time for the drug screen they were doing hair follicle and not just urine.
Found out he flunked THAT test. I did't say a lot but of course I was disappointed.
Ok.. most of you know I've got FIbromyalgia.. causes me to be tired and worn out real easy. When I get home from work .. I'm usually exhausted.
Tiger has complained about how he's the only one that ever does the dishes.. I've said I'd be thrilled to hire a maid. He says no thats dumb.
So yesterday he comes home from work and makes a comment about the cupboard and then tells me to NOT put the knife on top of the butter bowl, that he'd rather me throw it in the sink and get a new one that do that. I said thats silly. He gives me this look and says well HE is the one that does the dishes. Well I SNAPPED! I told him maybe if he stopped getting high he'd be able to get a good paying job and we could get someone to do the dishes. He got TOTALLY pissed. Stormed out of the house. Later he sorta acted like nothing happened. Then later that nite we were talking about something to our son.. and we said yeah sometimes people say things in anger they don't mean.. And Tiger looks at me and says right?.. I said Im sorry about HOW I said it but not for WHAT I said.. well he wasn't thrilled about that either. I asked if he'd rather I'd lied .. he said yeah probably, WTF?
I told him how did he think it made ME feel when he always acts like he does EVERYTHING. I said do you think I enjoy having to take care of all the bills and make the calls and all that.
Anyways thats why I'm all freakin stressed yesterday and today.. and on top of that I've felt so drained and exhausted :/
Sorry this is so long.. and if you read it all.. thanks!
*hugz & kisses*
~Funky~
