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checking out Hastings with my 13 year old daughter, and 9 year old son. Saw somw little things from cartoons from my child hood. and my 13 year old looks at me and say "wow mom, i didnt know they had cartoons back then"

i pointed to some things from even before my time and she was like wow was there actually tv before you were born.. lol i wanted to slap her.. lol i mean come on im not even 32 yet.. lol

i just wanted to let everyone know in advanced that im not much in the mood today to be talking about my pictures, or hearing how much you like them or want to see more.... a friend from yahoo hung herself this weekend and left behind her beautiful children... she did this to get out of a very abusive situation... her husband was a police officer and was allowed to get away with it..

ok so i posted this blog sept. of last year... but the same thigns are going on again... sooo i thought i would post it on here.... I've never been as hurt or felt as rejected as i did today.... why is it that my husband can claim to love me so dearly but yet he seem to not find me desirable.... the only time he holds me or kisses me even slightly passionately is when i have bitched and complained about it.... is it so wrong to want more then to just be "told" you are loved.. to want to be held,,, to have a warm loving arm wrapped over me in the night... i want to be called beautifully by some one other then some stranger on the Internet... i want to be told I'm special by the man who promised to love me forever... will there never again be romance in my life... soft music playing, the warm glow of candle light, a genital touch on my cheek, the caress of a lovers lips against mine.... i truly cant remember when i last had a kiss that made me go weak in the knees... i no not to dare ask to be treated like a queen,, but i want to be wanted..... why don't i deserve to have some one put me on a pedestal???? even dressed in a very sexy lace teddy his only reactions was " yeah, its nice."

I am I am nobody with loveing or care, i am the sign which states strangers beware, i am the house with the big iron gate, i am the life of lonlyness and hate, i am hatered, i am death, just as life in mac beth, some say that they care, i think that they might, but for now i am bidding you a black goodnight

OK so i guess i was wrong i thought we were all adults on here....lol i was bored so i was rating and i didnt give this chick a 10 so she gets all pissy and writes me this shit.... she says "just cause i look better ou don't have to downrate me" then she goes on to tell me she blocked me...lol ... i dont give women 10's because i have a woman, lol and i dont want her thinking im out looking around...lol http://fubar.com/user/528570 this is the person who got her panties in a bunch because someone didnt rate her a 10....... grow up....

My Heart Aches by Arielle My heart aches when I talk to you My heart aches when I don’t hear from you My heart aches when I long for you I don’t know why You’ve taken over my thoughts I can’t explain You’re still a stranger Far away I want you close by I miss your embrace Holding you close My heart aches I miss you!

The first time we met, I knew I had a friend. The thing I did not know is that I would want to love you until the very end. Your precious love has turned my life completely around, I feel like I'm walking, but my feet don't seem to touch the ground. Sometimes you seem to be my shinning light guiding me through the long, dark night. As I lie alone in bed thinking of you and I I wonder if you think of me too as one more night slowly drags by. I wish I were there with you, kissing your sweet lips under the pale moon light, and holding you, so very tight. You really are the man of my dreams and I can't wait to be with you, for the rest of my life. I know our time away seems like an eternity, but I'll wait forever to be in your life. I love you, I need you, I want you, and I will for all my life.

By Brittney K. Cook Remember when we were so in LOVE? I do, because you were the one I could trust. Remember when you would hold me tight? I do, I didn't want you to let go I wanted it to last all night. Remember when we use to argue about the stupidest things? I do, because when you got mad it was the cutest thing! Remember when our love was so strong? I do, because i thought nothing could go wrong. Remember when you said you loved me? I do, I had a great feeling come to me. Remember when you said you wouldn't lie? I do, because when i found out all i did was cry. Remember when you broke my heart? I do, because you tore my world apart Remember when you said if we break-up we can still be friends? I tried but you thought i wanted you back so we had to end. I took you for granted, I thought I had you, But I didn't instead I ended up loosing you. You treated me wrong after we broke-up, How could you?, all i ever wanted to do was make up. This is the last time you'll hear from me, Well, unless you be a man and apologize so we can agree. Life's too short we live what we can, Just remember call me if you need a hand.

By Meghan E. Leith I wonder if he remembers me Or if I'm just a memory I wonder if he thinks of us Or if he finds it useless I wonder how things would be If he had never left me I wonder how he is And if I'm still a love of his I think about him everyday And wonder if he's okay I think about how happy we were And the memories make the tears stir I think about the plans we made While we were laying in the shade I think about all we said And the lives we lead To not know Where to go To not know where to find A place where he may hide To not be able to see his face Puts my heart so out of place To not know when he's near Is my greatest fear There's so much in my head That I wish I'd said There's so many missed kisses For my unanswered wishes There's only so many ways For me to make it through the days There's so little light In my heart tonight What would I say If given a day What would happen If I could have him What joy it would bring To hear him sing What would I feel If he were here for real I miss him each day That he is away I miss him looking out for me The way it used to be I miss his love That protected me like a glove I miss him So much it's made my heart dim I wonder if he still cares That's a question that tears I wonder what he's like If he'd tell me to take a hike I wonder if he fears That I don't hold him dear But most of all I wonder if he still loves me Or if I'm just a memory Of what used to be