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/vent I don't want to sound like an asshole, but I just feel I've gotta. So, I just wanted to take a minute to bitch about a specific type of Fubar user. The fat horridly ugly women (which there seem to be an abundance of on here, honestly) who think they're so unearthly beautiful (you're really not, blame God for bestowing you with a horrid mug and figure if you'd like) that they can downrate ANYONE they feel doesn't meet their standards. Honestly, I understand that there are guys out there much better looking than I am, but for the love of christ, if your scale passes the 200 mark while you stand on it, your thighs look like the curdled milk of a goats teet and your face appears to have had an incidental run in with a cheese grater, you probably don't deserve to dawn rate a guy like myself. If YOU somehow think that I'M ugly. Please, pass me by, all you have to do is not click the little cherries under my picture. Seriously, it's LESS work to just click away, then to down rate me. If there are any of you out there that actually read this, maybe you should consider GETTING OFF YOUR FAT FUCKING ASS INSTEAD OF SITTING IN FRONT OF YOUR COMPUTER ALL GODDAMNED DAY. Thank you, that is all.

I think I figured out why I hate this season so much. I see and hear about all my friends and the likes having a great, wonderful time with their families. It makes me think about the family that I have, and how screwed up it is. Before she moved the NE, my mom could barely afford rent because of her meth addiction... They came to visit the weekend after Thanksgiving, and we were supposed to have a belated Thanksgiving/my Birthday dinner, and what happens, my mom and step-dad get thrown in jail. I guess, what I'm feeling, is that, I see Christmas as a family holiday, but, I don't really have a family, or at least not one that acts like it, and it makes me angry and depressed. I really just needed somewhere to vent.