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Does the pain of being alone every get better?!

Here's to alcohol - this is a fun survey!!!! 1. When was the last time you drank? Saturday Night 2. Who did you drink with? Tina and Greg, but Mona and Brad showed up later. 3. What is your fav. drink? Im getting use to Bud light... Jack and coke.... Fuck Me Right 4. Are you an alcoholic? No 5. How many drinks does it take you to get drunk? Im such a lightweight. 6. What is the last drink you had? Bud Light 7. Have you ever gone to work drunk? nope. 8. Do you get hangovers? Yes... oh god yes. 9. When did you start drinking? ummm... off and on since I was 16. 10. Have you ever thrown up on someone cause you were so drunk?.. I think I have. 11. What's the craziest thing you've ever done when drunk? dont think I do crazy things while drunk. 12. Have you ever hooked up while you were drunk? Yes. 13. do you wish you were drinking right now? no 14. Have you ever been so drunk that you don't remember what you did? Yes. 15. What is the worst drink? theres a lot. 16. Do you drink during the week? not really. 17. Has someone asked you to stop drinking? no. 18. Have you ever been kicked out of a bar? no 19. When was the last time that you were drunk? this weekend... but it didnt' last long. 21. Does your family drink? nope. 22. What is your favorite drinking game? Beer Pong 23. If you could only drink one drink (alcoholic) what would it be? Dont know. 24. Have you ever had a drink named after you? no 25. What is your favorite day of the year for drinking? New Years and fourth of July. 27. What is the longest stretch of time that you've drank without stopping? just a night. 29. Ever have to go to the hospital because of something alcohol related? nope. 30. Have a dui/dwi/minor? nope. 31. Have you ever had an interaction with police while under the influence? yes 32. What are your parent's drinks of choice? They don't drink. 33. Have you ever done a keg stand? yup. 35. What is your favorite alcohol related commercial? idk 37. Do you have a favorite bar? kodiaks in Fairbanks. 38. Have you ever woken up in a strange place after a night of drinking? nope 39. What types of alcohol has a bad effect on you? dont know.

2007's SEVEN Can / Did / Do / Does / Haves / How / Last / What / Who The cans: 1.Can you dance?: - Sure can... took dance clas, and now I teach one. 2.Can you blow a bubble?: - yes 3.Can you do a cart wheel?: - yup. 4.Can you tie a cherry stem with your tongue? - yes i can. 5.Can you whistle?: - not very well. 6.Can you wiggle your ears?: - nope. 7.Can you wiggle your nose?: - nope. The dids: 1.Did you ever want to be a doctor?: - nope 2.Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?: - nope. 3.Did you ever want to be an actor/actress?: - nope. 4.Did you ever want to be in a famous band or a singer?: - yes. 5.Did you ever want to travel into space?: -nope. 6.Did you ever want to live in a mansion?: - yes. 7.Did you ever want to be an artist?: - nope. The do's: 1.Do you know how to swim?: - yup. 2.Do you like roller coasters?: - never been on one. 3.Do you own a bike?: - nope. 4.Do you ride your bike?: - n.a 5.Do you know random information on historical events?: - nope. 6.Do you enjoy going to museums?: - yes. 7.Do you sympathize with others?: - sometimes. The does: 1.Does cancer run in your family at all?: -not that I know of. 2.Does what? - ... huh? 3.Does your family have family picnics?: - nope. 4.Does your siblings fight? - oh god yes. 5.Does pure darkness scare you?: - im terrified of the dark. 6.Does scary movies scare you?: - nope 7.Does people annoy you easily?: depends. The have's: 1.Have you ever been on a plane: - tons 2.Have you ever been asked out by someone?: - tons 3.Have you ever been to the ocean?: - yes. 4.Have you ever gone fishing?: - all the time. 5.Have you ever been in love?: - yes. 6.Have you ever been hurt?: - yes 7.Have you ever dumped someone?: - oh yeah. The hows 1.How many people have you talked to today? - 1 2.How did you meet the person you are dating?: - i met my x husband threw my best friend... The lasts: 1.Last person you hung out with?: - tina 2.Last thing you said out loud?: - are you coming over. 3.Last thing someone said to you?: be there in a little bit. 4.Last person you saw?: - tina 5.Last person you called?: - Jay 6.Last item you bought?: - sushi 7.Last beverage you drank?: - havent drinking anything yet. The whats: 1.What are you listening to?: - nothing. 2.What is the temperature outside?: - cold. 3.What radio station do you listen to? - 104.5 only when im driving though 4.What was the last restaurant you ate at?: - Pf Changs. 5.What was the last thing you had to eat?: - havent eated yet 6.What are your current thoughts?: - will i have be happy. 7.What makes you smile?: - alot of things. The whos: 1.Who did you talk to on the phone with last?: - tina 3.Who do you think is going to do this survey?: -i dont know. 4.Who was the last person you took pictures with?: - tina at the bar. 5.Who was the last person you kissed?: - Justin... boy was that all wrong. 6.Who is your best friend?: - Miranda. 7.Who do you miss and would love to see again? - my family.

good men out there!?! and if there are, why can't I seem to find one?

1. How old will you be in five years? 27 2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today? Tina. 3. How tall are you? 5'4" 4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks? I wish there was something to look forward too. 5. What's the last movie you saw? Texas Chainsaw ... the beginning. 6. Who is the last person you called? my mommy. 7. Who was the last person to call you? Rob 8. What was the last text message you received? Don't know. 9. Do you prefer to call or text? Call. 10. Do you have any pets? Two doggies. 11. What were you doing at 12am last night? trying to sleep. 12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? married. 13. When is the last time you saw your mom? umm.., a year ago... i miss her. 14. What color are your eyes? brown 15. What time did you wake up today? 9 16. What's your favorite Christmas song? silent night. 17. Where is your favorite place to be? not in el paso, thats for sure. 18. Where is your least favorite place to be? here. 19. Where would you go if you could go anywhere? home. 20. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? hopefully re-married... with kids... and my own house. 21. Do you tan or burn? tan. 22. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? the boogie man. 23. What was the last thing that made You laugh? im sure i did something stupid. 24. How many TVs do you have in your house? 3 25. What do you like about fall? the leaves. 26. What do you like about winter? snowboarding... hockey... snow. 27. What do you like about the summer? 4th of july 28. What do you like about spring? easter 29. What states (and countries) have you lived in? alaska, and texas. 30. What cities/towns have you lived in? el paso, and fairbanks. 31. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet? depends. 32. Are you a social person? yes 33. What was the last thing you ate? taco bell. 34. What is your favorite restaurant? My aunts restaurant back home... i love korean food.!! oh how i miss it. 35. Do you like coffee? depends. 36. What do you drink in the morning? h20 37. Do you like to cuddle? i love it. 38. Do you have an addictive personality? lol 39. Do you eat out or at home more often? at home. 40. Do you want kids? yes... i want four. 41. Do you speak any other languages? a little korean. 42. Have you ever gotten stitches? lol... yes... 43. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? nope. 44. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool? ocean 45. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats? Aisle 47. What is your favorite thing to spend money on? other people. 48. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7? yes 49. What is your favorite TV show? dont have one . 50. Who is the funniest person you know? Scottlin or Jimmy. 51. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? nope 52. Do you still have clothes from when you were little? nope. 53. What red object is closest to you right now? my phone. 54. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? yes. 55. Can you change the oil on a car? nope. 56. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? once... I cried. 57. Have you ever run out of gas? nope. 58. What is your usual bedtime? when i fall asleep. 59. What was the last book you read? my friend leonard. 60. Do you read the newspaper? nope. 61. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? nope. 62. Do you watch soap operas? nope. 63. Do you dance in the car? hell yes. 64. What radio station did you last listen to? umm...104.5 65. Who is in the picture frame closest to you? my soon to be ex. 66. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper? my signature... filing taxes. 67. What is your favorite candle scent? carmel is a new fav. 68. What is your favorite board game? dont have one. 69. Where do you attend church? I don't anymore. 70. When was the last time you attended church? way too long ago... I think the last time was when I went with my mom to her Korean church. 71. Who was your favorite teacher in high school? Mr. Cox. or dennick... man dennick was super HOT! 72. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent? two weeks. 73. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you? Brandon sent me flowers.

1. The phone rings; who do you want it to be? anyone interesting.... Im so fucking homesick. 2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? depends. 3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener? depends... i can be the listener and the talker. 4. Do you take compliments well? yeah... i dont hear them often anymore. 5. Do you play Sudoku? nope. 6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive? Yes I would... I love the outdoors. 7. Do you like to ride horses? yup. 8. Did you ever go to camps as a kid? dance camp... lol 9. What was your favorite game as a kid? bugging my sisters. 10. If an attractive person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married would you still go for it? nope. 11. Are you judgmental? depends. 12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you? yes. 13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued? pursued 14. Use three words to describe yourself: engergenic, scared, in between. 15. If you had to choose, would you rather be deaf or blind? deaf 16. Are you continuing your education? eventually 17. Do you know how to shoot a gun? nope... im sure i could learn. 18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grab? my doggies. 19. How often do you read books? every six months. 20. Do you think more about the past, present or future? The future... Im getting a divorce... no point to dwell on what use to be. 21. What is your favorite children's book? don't know 22. What color are your eyes? brown... im half asian. 23. How tall are you? 5'4" 24. Where is your dream house located? not sure yet. 25. Boxers, Briefs, Thongs, Or Grannies? boyshorts. 26. Last person you talked to? tina 28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden? about two months ago. 29. What are your keys on your key chain for? my car and my house. 30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today? i went on a mile run. 31. Where is your current pain located? my heart. 32. Do you like mustard? nope. 33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat? sleep. 34. Do you look like your mom or dad? i think i look a little bit like both of them. 35. How long does it take you in the shower? 15-30 mins. 36. Can you do splits? yes. 37. What movie do you want to see right now? none. 38. Do you put lotion on your dog or cats? nope. 39. What did you do for New Year's? not a damn thing. 40. Do you think The Grudge was scary? it scared the shit out of me. 42. Do you own a camera phone? nope. got rid of the cell phones, cause the husband was cheating on me. 43. What are you drinking? dr pepper. 44. Was your mom a cheerleader? nope. 45. What's the last letter of your middle name? e. 46. Who did you vote for on American Idol? didnt. 47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night? depends. 49. What do you buy at the movies? tickets... 50. Do you know how to play poker? kinda 51. Do you wear your seatbelt? yes, always. 52. What do you wear to sleep? boyshorts and a tanktop. 53. Anything big ever happen in your hometown? nope... im from alaska. 54. How many meals do you eat a day? one 55. Is your tongue pierced? no, but i want to get it pierced. 56. Do you always read MySpace bulletins? nope. 57. What is your favorite kind of cheese? dont have one. 58. Do you like funny or serious people better? in the middle. 59. Ever been to L.A.? nope. 60. Did you eat a cookie today? nope. 61. Do you use cuss words in other languages? nope. 62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads? neither. 63. Do you hate chocolate? not my fav. 64. What do your parents fight about the most? everything. 65. Is your cell usually on vibrate or ring? once again.. had to get rid of them cause of the hubby. 66. Are you a gullible person? yes. very much so. 67. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy? lol 68. If you could have any job (assuming you have the skills) what would it be? dont' know 69. Are you easy to get along with? I think so. 70. What is your favorite time of day? whenever im working out. or dancing ...

1. Who was your first love? Greg. 2. Who was your first kiss and when? First real kiss was Greg... and that was my freshmen year of Highschool. 3. Who was your first prom date? Matt Cole 4. Who was your first room mate? my husband. (well soon to be ex) 5. What was your first job? Working at my aunts resturant. 6. What was your first car? 1998 Ford Ranger. 7. When did you go to your first funeral? I think I was 16... and that was my friend Paul's. 8. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown? Turned 21 during the drive. 9. Who was your first grade teacher? Mrs. Albert. 10. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? Korea 11. Where did you go for your first date and who was it with? I don't remember that one. 12. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? I never had to sneak out. 13. Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with her/him now? Miranda... and yes. 14. Who was the first person to send you flowers? Greg. 15. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parents house? military housing with the husband. 16. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? ummm.... miranda, tina, my mom... brandon. 17. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen? never been... but I was in my own wedding. 18. What is the first thing you do in the morning? go pee. 19. What was your first career choice? marine biologists. 20. What was your first sport? cheerleading... Does that count?

50 girly questions 1. What is your name? Kathrine 2. What color is your bra? Black and Pink 3. Do you straighten your hair everyday? For the most part yes. 4. Do you worry about the size of your boobs? no... i love my boobs. 5. Are you the typical girl who's addicted to gossip? nope. 6. What's your favorite girly magazine? Don't really read magazines. 8. Would you kill for chocolate? nope. 10. Jeans or skirt? both 11. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable? nope... I like to be comfy. 12. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy? nope. 13. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie? Yup. 14. Would you leave the house without makeup? Yes. I hardly wear makeup. 15. What's the biggest turn on about guys? personality and eyes. 16. What about the biggest turn off? being full of themselves... I hate a guy that thinks hes god gift to women. 17. Do you consider making out "unladylike"? Nope... not at all. 18. On a scale of 1-10, how fun is shopping? I love to shop. Id say 9 1/2 19. Are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle? middle. 20. Do you think lip gloss is the best? duh! 21. Do you HAVE to have a boyfriend at all times? Nope 22. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show? nope... don't watch much tv. 23. Do you obsess over your looks? nope 24. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? depends if i take a shower or not. 25. Do you wear sweatpants/pajama pants to school because it's comfortable? yup. 26. Accessories make the outfit; true or false? sometimes 27. Are you a sucker for skater guys? no 28. What kind of guys do you like? I dated a lot of preppy/hockey players in school. I like a guy that takes care of himself. 29. Is pink truly the best color in the entire universe? nope. 30. Lip gloss a must? Yes 31. What's your status? seperated. 32. Do you have a crush? yes. 33. Bikini, one-piece, tankini or three-piece? bikini.. 34. Do you take the opportunity on Halloween to dress like a whore? nope. 35. Ever dressed like a whore to impress a guy? not sure. 36. Do you often wish there was something you could change? ya 37. Has a guy ever given you something on Valentines? Yes 38. Gold or silver? white gold 39. The guy/girl that you like/love/whatever, what does his/her name start with? B 40. Tight pants on guys? not my thing 41. Do you dress up too much for holidays? depends. 42. Do you like wearing dresses? YES 43. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems? nope. 44. Do you consider yourself to be fashionable? yes. 45. On a scale of 1-10, how much do guys confuse you? 5 46. How many guys have you kissed this year? 3 47. Do you worry/fuss about your weight? yes. only now cause im trying to get down to my old size. 48. Do you eat junk food? not really. im kinda a health freak. 49. Do you work out? I run every morning... do yoga... go to the gym... and teach a hip hop class.. you tell me.? 50. What makeup product could you NOT live without? I could actually live without makeup.

So, he just told me that he hasn't loved me for an entire year... and thats why he wants the divorce... how the hell do i react to that ???

So, my husband finally told me that he wanted a divorce... he wont tell me why either. He said he doesn't want to tell me .... like the fucker could hurt me anymore. I thought that I finally come to terms that this marriage was over, but why does it hurt so fucking bad?