I had a best friend for 4 years one time and after being as close as brother and sister for a very long time we ended up dating.
I fel head over heels in love with her and she with me. We were together for about 9 months when we finally had sex for the first time. It was her first (:O Big deal for her) I there not long after left for the military.
Things were good while I was in boot camp. When we finally saw eachother again we fel in love all over again. I moved on after that to my Advanced training to become an air traffic controller. We began planniung out a life for us.
After she left for college things got a little weird. She came and saw me in Florida one time and it was awesome we had allot of fun and made allot of passionate love.
Not long after that I got wrapped up in my studies and never had time to myself that I could call her and we just have us time. This really made things difficult. She cheated on me a few times, but for some reason I could not leave her. I could not give up on what I thought we had.
We decided to try and make it work anyway becayse we both were very much so in love.
Then, I recived my orders to go to Europe... accross the Atlantic Ocean for 2 years. That was hard news to bear, but we decided to try it...
After I got here we started talking more and more and I thought things were getting better. When one day she just told me that she could not do it anymore. Having a bf on the other side of the world. She finally told me that she just did not love me anymore and needed someone to hold her when she was crying and go out with her and shit like that. She said that we were getting too serious and could not see herself getting married anytime soon and felt that is where we were headed...
Her folks would not allow her to get married till she was out of college. (She was a freshman...) Not to mention I was overseas and was not marrying her while I was here... We had been together almost 2 years when this went down...
Now she calls me every once in a while wanting to talk and be best friends again... I can't do it though... everytime I talk to her I want to either choke her or tell her how much I still love her. I teader on the thin line between love and hate with her... Right now I am kind of ignoring it and hoping that time will take care of it, but I do not know if that is going to happen.
Should I leave it alone till I get into a better posistion? (the states) or what... Tell me what y'all think... If you think you need more info or w/e just comment it and I will clarify.
