I can't sleep. There are so many things running through my head. Thinking about the person I am, the person I have become through the years. Things have changed so much, made me hard. Makes me wish for the days before the heartache, before the struggles, before the betrayals. I used to be so carefree, fun loving. How do you get those days back? How do you meet new people without wondering what their hidden agenda is? How do you trust when that trust you used to give freely and openly has been betrayed over and over? Friends come and gone, lovers come and gone. How do you know when a true friend comes along? One who will be there through thick and thin, not just for the fun times. I am tired of the bullshit. There is no room for it in my life.