I beening thinking alot about my life my past my future but mostly about my past ,by past i mean my younger days when i was starting to become an adult when you start to feel childish things slip away no matter how hard u want to hold on to them.I thought about my frist kiss and my frist girl friend who i liked very much but moved away before things ever got serouis. in away it was a perfect realtionship we enjoyed being around each other. there was no tesion and even though i was a teenager i wasnt concerened with try to sleep with her. It was very innconet which isnt something most people get to experencie most people get to have anymore. I thinking back on old freinds who i havent seen in years and i wonder whatever happened to them. I think of the times before u realize someday your parents will die and so will You. I just miss the wonderment of growing up ill be 30 in less then 2 years 30 use to seem so far away. I loved being a kid and i held on to as long as i could haveing a son know and watching all his frist seening that wonderment in his eyes thats so incredible because you just want him to know to enjoy it because someday sooner then u think it will be gone and u be sitting at a keybroad wishing for it to come back. My son is my one remaing thing that gives me that feeling of the world is new and all things are possible.
