I really hate it... Most days are pretty good, will have a lil glimpse at my depression but thats it...then days like today that it becomes like a blanket and wraps me up and doesn't let me go... Days like today that I look into the mirror and see nothing at all...No reflection... I'm not even there. I can feel me, and I know its me, but its the depression and sadness talking and I'm screaming and banging to get out...Times like this that I feel like I'm suffocating , choking on the little air left in my lungs, everything getting darker and fading away. I know how to deal with this monster...I've fought it tooooo many times before... But its hard to find the strength to do it again and again and again... Been fighting it since I was 13... and it almost won when i was 14... But I'm still here. Lol I sound so emo at the moment. But I'll make it...just needed to vent... I really hope that this curse doesn't pass to Chloe'...
