Sometimes I wish it would just go away
The thoughts, the feelings, just the whole day
Sometimes I feel as if I'm not me
I just want to be free
What causes this feeling
What am I concealing
Am I alone in my thinking
Or do others too feel like they are sinking
To make it through a day and a night
Sometimes that alone, is out of my sight
Does it have to do with my past
How long is this going to last
Will I make it through
What is your point of view
Do you ever think like this
Do you ever reminisce
Thinking about how things were before
It was like God was holding open the door
Now it's like I'm locked in a place
With no way out and no one to embrace
Locked up inside my head
Holding on just by a thread
I think the string is about to break
I wish I could awake
To open my eyes and see I am blessed
Just can't happen because I am too stressed
Too many depressing things
Where are my guardian angel's wings
How do I continue
All I do is sit here and stew
Life is about trial and errors
But my dreams are now consumed with terrors
So many thoughts I just suppress
Too many negative qualities I possess
Why did things turn out this way
Why can't I enjoy life everyday
So, for real
What has to go on
To stop me from being so withdrawn
To live day after day
With out a map to show me the way
Rumbles in my head
Maybe I should just get some lead
Then it would all be gone
No more chess with out me being the pawn
The pawn in the game that every one likes to play
Why does everyone have to front and betray
People now a days make me sick
Everyone seems to be playing some kind of trick
Why can't some people be real
Don't they realize its spirits, souls and hearts they steal
I don't know what to do
So many options it seems, yet really so few
Sleep may be an aide
Too bad my mind is always trying to invade
My mind is always racing
My steps are always pacing
My brain is never sleeping
Myself, always weeping
I wish this would all just go away
The thoughts, the feelings, just the whole day
Sometimes I feel as if I'm not me
I just want to be free