here we go again.....
my aunt was rushed to a hospital in Sioux City yesterday with extreme back pain and pain in the arms.... apparently she had a heart attack. This morning they went up thru the main artery to check out her heart and it turns out that she has severe blockage, and not the kind that can be fixed with the stints that my uncle Denny had put in last year. They say she needs a quad- bypass surgery .... for those of you who remember, my uncle Jim has a 5-bypass just a few years back... and he is now passed on- which was devastating to me. This... is .... well she is my second mom. I'm praying to ask God to hold her and give her strength thru all this.... those open heart surgeries are ....ugh. very painful and very invassive. Not to mention your entire lifestyle has to change after. My aunt, like much of my family, is a smoker. One thing she is going to have to give up now, no matter how much she enjoys it. This is the third surgery in a year for her..... she had galbladder surgery just months ago, and the opened up her entire foot to fix it about 6 months ago.............. how much can one person take?
i am a firm believer that every prayer helps, so i am asking my friends to please put a prayer up for my aunt and my entire family. Thank you in advance for any good thoughts and prayers you can put up for us all.
also, i'm sure we all could see this coming, but i'll be quitting smoking again soon. I keep trying.... and keep going right back to them. But I guess all i can do is keep trying.... even 1 month i dont smoke is profitable.... so i suppose even the repeatedly attempts and failures aren't really failures. we are really good about our eating around here.... or at least when i have to boys... i've had us on a low-fat diet for years.... out of concern that my boys have heart disease on both sides of their families.... but i'm going to get more strick on it like i was in the begining.... its much easier to grow up eating right.... and just have that as daily life then to change everything about urself when its been years of habit to eat poorly. my aunt owned a restraunt for 30 years, serving fried foods and broasted chicken..... 30 years of eeating that crap everyday..... and look. :(
ya know, i was ok with hitting 30 last year, havent felt old or like my life is ending.... but i have come to realize that getting older for me, also means all the ppl i love are getting older too. sadly, it meant i had to let go of my uncle Jim, watch my uncle Denny have stints put in his arteries so his heart could work, and now my aunt have bypass so hers will continue to. its hitting a lil too close to home for my liking.
oh yeah, speaking of getting older..... Joey turns 14 tomorrow.... *sigh* I guess its just time for me to accept.... that i'm old now.
