TheRealBxTruth's blog: "My life"

For the first time in my life, I can say it, i can breathe it.....I can believe it. Its a feeling that is so strong, so powerful and so deep that its become the essence of my life and existence. Its so much more than a mere thought, its so much more than a mere dream, its become my reason to live, and my inspiration to reach for bigger goals in life. Once you’re in love with someone, it’s hard to remember how you lived without him or her. Of course, you were alive before you met this person, but you really didn’t start “living” until the two of you met. Falling in love is one of the most exciting, rewarding and scariest things you could ever do. Everyone experiences love differently, and at different times. Even the meaning of love is extremely subjective, but I say for certain that anyone who’s experienced it knows it’s the best feeling ever, and for the first time in my life......I know its a reality that is as real as the touch of the keyboard against my fingertips as I write this blog. No matter how great your day might be going, your special person will make it better. Ive proven that to myself everyday, because if I dont speak or hear of her, my day becomes gloomy, and my heart feels grim. When you just "like" someone, he or she might make your day better..........but let's face it......."probably" doesn't cut it. Love is selfless. Not to say the I have an ego, or that I am self-ish, but all mankind was born with survival instinct.....and when we are single, we put ourselves before anyone else. There was a time in my life that even I thought I was the most important person in MY world........until, of course, I met my girlfriend. from the instance that I found her,all my focus was redirected to her, and her desires became much more important than my own. This is just how love is. Your needs always seem to become trivial in comparison to your significant other’s needs. When you’re in love with someone, you do whatever you can to make that person happy. When you like someone, you may feel like there is a lot you would do for the person, but you certainly have your limits. True love knows no limits. When you’re truly in love, you want everyone to know. You are not bashful about your feelings by any means. When you like someone, there is a lot of holding back on how you feel. When you’re in love with someone, it’s hard to imagine a future without the person in it. For this reason, you will think long-term about how you can build a life with this person. You won’t give in to short-term temptations that might mess up your long-term goals. When you just like someone, thinking long-term can be pretty scary. No one is perfect (except for my girlfriend because she in my eyes she is truly flawless)............we all have room for improvement. But, being in love will force you to work on these things. You want to become the best version of yourself for the person you love. I am a better person now than I was before I met my girlfriend. For instance, im a healthier person now, more than ever since ive met my girlfriend, because up to this day its been 7 months and 6 days since Ive last smoked a disgusting ass cigarette. When you love someone unconditionally, it means that your love knows no conditions and is absolute. I don’t actually like the term “unconditional love” because I think it’s redundant. I believe all true love is unconditional. When you like someone, your feelings change depending on the condition. From the moment I first interacted with her, she became more and more my best friend.  I believe this to be true for most people who fall in love. I believe that your significant other becomes your partner in crime. You feel like, together, you can take on the world. For this and so many more reasons that I will not share, I believe that for the first time in my life, I truly am in love. I walk around the earth with thoughts of her, and hearts flying around in my eyes at the mere sight or thought of her. Its not a mere obsession, although technically obsession means an idea or thought that continually preoccupies or intrudes on a person's mind........it's more like a devotion, which is better described as: Loyalty, faithfulness, fidelity, commitment, admiration, love, affection and caring (yes, i grew up as a bookworm too). Its definitely not an infatuation either, because infatuation's are more of a short term agreement.......an intense but short-lived passion or admiration for someone or something......this feeling I have is more for the long term.........it's more for the future, and as I've told her time and time again.....I'm willing to do anything to make it work, so that I can live old and gray and happy for the rest of my life with her and only her by my side. Although she is not ready to feel the same way for me now......hopefully time will change that, and I have to stay optimistic that she sees the true worth of my feelings. Until then, I will remain on my knees waiting forever to bow down to her glorious grace. As for me, I know im in love. Elvira, my love......if one day you were ever to read this, I want you to know these are my real thoughts to be proof evident, that you are my one and only, and that I will love you forever. This is written proof as a testimony that will live on even after I die, that my heart, mind, body and soul are yours forever, and if there is anything beyond foreveer, i will love you beyond forever some more.