it funny how life throws you a curve ball now n then,,,but its not so funny when no matter how hard u try to start to strike out,... the last few years i have had to go to doc alot for alot of diff reasons,..1st ppl said well after 50 patch patch patch,,,,so i guess i shoulda expected it. But in my mind i am still young and strong,,,i still do the same things i always did till a few yrs ago. So now doc says im done for at least the next 4-6 months..i cant do anything ,lift anything or shit shit shit,,,,and all i am is depressed over this crap now. To top it all off my wife hasnt really wanted me sexually for yrs and my best friend is slipping away from me im afraid. I love my Bf with all my heart,,,shes all I really have in the whole world,,,i try to act like im all that for her but im not anymore. Since shes so much younger than me well im sure she will just let me go too. I know i may be taking this too hard,,,but it may be just cuz i got the news,..good thing is i guess im not dying yet,..lol so it could be lots worse. ppl say be thankfull for your health and the ppl who love you,...? I feel ive lost both