misfit's blog: "Fu- famous (part deux)"

I figured I would do this to maybe (ha) dispel some rumours about me...or maybe some people don’t know my fu-history as they weren’t here from the time I joined.

I was invited to this site by a friend on another site (previous attempts to get me on yahoo 360 didn’t work...yahoo doesn’t have the best reputation and it wasn’t like I was looking to join a “social networking” site.  That’s right...I have never had a myspace page, never had a desire to.  Anyways, back on subject!  I signed up to fubar (then cherrytap) and remember being assaulted with sounds of monks chanting and applause.  At the time a porn star was the “face” of fubar, so I was extremely leery and really wasn’t interested in what the site had to offer.  Oh boy...I can rate people!! Oh boy...I can join contests....NOT!  My friend kept telling me to give it another shot (on the other site), so I did...I signed back in a few days after joining and hit a link for the mumms.....and that was it.  The forum, the people in the forum had me in tears laughing (mostly).

Even though I found most of the people in the mumms to be funny, even if at times cruel...there were quite a number of (then) regulars who made me sick.  Now mind you, I had had a rough few years emotionally and at this time...took much of my anger out on those I didn’t like in the mumms.   I will still say to this day I got my first 1000 fans from taking on some of the “IMPS” and some of the other big bad ass mumm controllers.   I remember standing up to one and getting drink gifts after drink gifts and shouts (yes, back then I had everything open) and many many fans.  A lot of the old mummers have probably had at least one argument with me....like I said, I was very angry.

I caught the eye of a VERY generous lady and she bought me my first VIPs, blasts and eventually happy hours.  I won’t name names as I know many people would go beg/bother her for gifts.  I tried to discourage her gift giving (to me).   I wanted her to know I was her friend without the gifts...she just didn’t take “no” for an answer.  All this exposure gave me lots of rates, lots of fans and of course got me to be ranked here and there.

Let’s get one thing straight...I have NEVER added a lot of people (as one moron thinks I add and delete thousands).  I remember April/07 having around 170 on my friend list and have been going nuts with “why are some of these people on my list?”  First thing I did...honest to gawd, was deleting my man candy :( lol.  It was hard....yes I know it seems to be all about the boobs with everyone, but then I had a few partners in crime and we LIKED looking at good looking men that had nice bodies.  That took me down probably 20 friends.  Then I started deleting mummers who I really had nothing in common with...except commenting in mumms.  I have also found that most of those friendships....were the ones where they would throw you under the bus, stab your back and spit on your mother.  This deleting was all before select/checkmark friends and deletes more than one at a time.  It took me a full weekend to delete about 100 people....one at a time (“you want to delete so and so?  [yes] “deleted” “sending you back to friend list”).

I can’t say I have never deleted a friend out of anger...someone who was a true friend and I enjoyed.  I do have a number fetish thing and unless it is dollars...I like small numbers.  There are some people I won’t ever add because I wouldn’t be their friend in real life...so WHY would I do it on here?  Maybe I don’t get the whole social networking thing...online thing.  I have worked in people oriented industries for close to a decade (nightclubs and fitness clubs) and didn’t hang out with just anyone there (even though while getting paid I was nice and friendly).

You don’t understand why I don’t want to add people?  Maybe I don’t understand why my list is of any concern to you.

Some of the reasons why I keep a small list and may not add you:  I dislike you.  I imagine you hogging up my bartab.  You have acted like an extreme hypocrite moron in mumms.   I have seen you beg for things in one way or another.   I just don’t know you and don’t add people I don’t know (so many people have so many racists on their lists...and if you know anything about me...know this: I hate racists and find it funny that level/points can make people forget their values).  I have added people for wrong reasons before and don’t want to make the same mistake.  I have readded people out of guilt and felt the knot in my stomach the moment I readded them.  You don’t care about getting to know me and you prove this to me by whining (in mumms, in status’s) about why I won’t add you...instead of just trying to talk to me.  Those are just some of the reasons....and I am sure people will pick apart everything and turn it all negative....it’s what some do best!

I am a hard person to get close to, a hard person to get to know (in real life as well as on here).  Many people on here form ideas based on very little information.  People judge based on looks and lists...quite often (in my experience).  I have rarely been cruel in mumms...yet I have some sort of reputation for that.

I have never once said I hate attention....there IS a point where it feels like too much and I will withdraw inward.  Never have I said I hated points, just because I am an “old school mummer” doesn’t mean I agreed with 99% of their dumb rules...but people like to bunch everyone into one tightly formed package.  Do I care about levelling? No, and I haven’t agreed to the new levelling terms because it isn’t that big of a deal (plus I don’t think there are as many benefits as there are negatives – for me).  I will always help friends and people I like...as best as I can.  I try to treat everyone with a certain amount of RESPECT.

I often wonder what rank I would be at if I did play the fubar game “right”.  I only wonder this when I get attacked for not playing it right (by right I mean “adding/rating/fanning/crushing/begging/etc).  I haven’t worked or played the game...I enjoyed the mumms, I enjoy teasing and talking to many fubar members....I can be quite geeky and nerdy and spastic with my comments (as some of you may know). 

If I have you blocked, you are there for a reason!  I don’t like you and I don’t want you checking out my page.  You can cry about it all you want...because apparently crying/whining about it is hardass! ;)

I still enjoy the mumms to an extent.  My time in them lately has been very little...my time on fubar hasn’t been as much as it used to be (I check things out and go watch TV, or yap in yahoo or currently have gotten into facebook – no I probably don’t want to be your friend on there either).

I did not name myself “misfit” after the punk band, I am not even a fan.

This blog may be edited if I think of any more “fubar misfit” stuff I want you to know, or have found people not understanding about me.  I did this blog mainly because I have noticed a LOT of “about me” postings on here are quite angry fubar related (what they won’t do, what they will do).  Just because some people have made it seem like for having a profile on fubar entitles strangers to tell you what to do on here.  I want my about me...to now be....about me! OMG! Lol

Misfit fubar stuff:

I won’t add/fan/crush/bling/pimp/etc just because it’s what is expected.  PLEASE don’t do any of this to me if you expect it back. 

I don’t pay for rates, nor do I bling for rates....yes I may run autos and I may have happy hours from time to time, that doesn’t mean I owe you anything more. 

If you don’t like me? Get the fuck off my page.  Thanks!

Racists? Get the fuck off my page!

Now for the comments....