I was on my way in to odessa to see my friend. She's in the hospital because she was having chest pains. Well I didnt make it. My dad called me to come be with my grandpa so he could go back to work because he wouldnt let my dad leave. I said ok. Well My dad said never mind he wants to go to the hospital so he called 911. I think my grandpa is dying. Hes been sick since grandma died. I think its finally getting to him. I dont want him to go because ive been crying today but why am i being so selfish. He will be with my grandma and thats where he wants to be. Im just not ready to let him go because i want him to give my son candy like he does all the little kids. My grandpa couldnt hear me at all when i went and seen him earlier today. I have to be strong for my son but i should also been ready for this but I never really am. Its not fair. I want my grandpa with me. Well Im upset i have to go ill write more later. lil red