This morning I got a nasty message from some fat chick saying I was disgusting because of the pics I've posted on MySpace (same as the SFW ones I've posted here). Here's my response to her, after I shot back an initial "Fuck off bitch!", checked out her profile, blogs and pics, and gave it some thought:
I spent some time checking out your profile and blog. Girl, you're a mess.
My initial reaction to your hateful behavior wasn't because I actually care what you think. I don't. But being confronted with an attack, particularly a passive-aggressive one where the subject line implies a friendly greeting, then inside is a hateful, vitriolic rant, triggers stuff that has nothing to do with the current situation. That's a normal response to being attacked by unwarranted negative criticism.
I like to try and figure people out, though, and it didn't take long to get your number.
You say I'm disgusting and it's not because I'm fat. So have you sent similar hate mail to thin women who are showing their bodies on MySpace?
I doubt it. Because it's precisely about being fat. Not about me being fat though. It's about you hating yourself for being fat. And it's so painfully obvious that you do.
In your pics you're trying your damnedest to be "sexy" and alluring, while you have clothes buttoned up to the neck. You desperately want attention and approval for being "sexy", yet you're totally ashamed of your body.
Honey, it just screams CONFUSED. Would you like some clues about why you attract "weirdos"?
I've met many men I first connected with on the internet, and there's been nary a "weirdo" among them. I've made lots of great guy friends, even friends with benefits, even had a boyfriend or two when we really clicked and it felt right.
I show off my body on the net, yet I'm savvy and smart enough to not choose the "weirdos". Hmmmmm...what's up with that?
The thing is, I've never been desperate for love and you so obviously are. I've never tried to parlay sex on a first meeting into a love relationship and you so obviously do.
You behave like a slut because you think it will get you love, and you hate yourself for it. So you think you have to justify it to the world to get approval for your choices and be absolved.
I don't think there's anything wrong with being a slut mind you. There is something wrong with having sex for any reason other than just enjoying sex. (Except planned procreation.)
I only get occasional hate mail from females for what I do on the internet. I get a whole lot more messages from females telling me how much they admire what I do, and my courage for doing it. And they wish they had the guts.
I don't do it for the men. I do it for me. And for Fat Pride. To show the world that fat bodies are beautiful, too.
I understand that you don't believe they are, and that you hate yours. I hope you get over that someday.
In the meantime, why don't you stop projecting your shame onto other people. Unless you have children, there's not one person on the planet who needs your approval, or who needs to deal with your painful feelings that you don't know how to deal with.
Try focusing on pulling your head out of your ass where men and sex are concerned.
And have a nice weekend.
Korry
