Metal Belle's blog: "Heathers BLOGS ..."

my life as of recent has become well whats a good word to use other than fucked.

starting back in january i had a lot of things start to happen, and there are tons of things that have occured since then up until now.

lots of people have an opinion about my life and what they think they know. but i would have to say people shoud live the things i have lived and then i kinda get the feeling you would say im thankful and happy you made it through and that your still here figthing.

there a few people in particular who i have watched word themselves and write somethings to make what they have done to me seem so easy and that i am the bad person in all of this. i beg to differ however.

i know what it is like to be treated in some of the most horrible situations by better half i kinda feel like that makes me able to treat people not that way and better than that, and to be able to admit when i am wrong and learn from my mistakes.

i was with someone for 6 years and had 2 children with them, and this person who is now my ex husband did some things to me that made it un imaginable to believe. and yet i still never strayed from the marriage.

and now i cant quite figure out why it seems to me that the pain is happening again in a twisted way a different way mind you but someone seems hell bent on takin my heart and making it apart of there love game. i love this person and always will.

but i cannot make them understand that it hurts and its my heart not a toy. i wanna be there i do honestly but i cant be.

there are no details needed because unlike them i dont want people to get the wrong idea in maybe how i word myself. but maybe when these individuals read this or maybe when they re read some of things they have typed they will see wut i mean with how they lefft out a lot and a lot of people had a lot of wrong comments and answers

it would be much easier if it were what these misinformed people commented about but its a lot more involved and risky.

i however am done. with all of it. i am a good person who deserves good people and amazing love because once i put my broken pieces back together i will be an amazing woman to be with .

I DEDICATE THIS BLOG TO THE ASSHOLE THAT BROKE ME AND HURT ME! IF HE READS THIS HE KNOWS WHO HE IS! SO ALL I NEED TO SAY IS FUCK YOU!

POP EVIL-BREATHE LYRICS

All these spoken words,
And broken dreams.
This misery.
All that's good is gone in me.
With every breath,
I can't escape the pain, it's caving in.
I am just about to break.

Every time I close my eyes,
I can't escape these lies.
Will I make it through to the other side?

I can't breathe when I am suffocating.
Committed yesterday, now I am over my head.
I can't breathe when it's complicated.
It's falling down on me,
I send it back on you.

Get away. Away, Get away.

All these years I try,
N' nothings changed.
I'm about to break
I sacrificed myself.
With every breath,
I can't escape the pain.
This misery.
[ Pop Evil

are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
What's good is gone in me.

Every time I close my eyes,
I can't escape these lies.
Will I make it through to the other side?

I can't breathe when I am suffocating.
Committed yesterday, now I am over my head.
I can't breathe when it's complicated.
It's falling down on me,
I send it back on you.
I send it back on you.

I can't breathe when I am suffocating.
Committed yesterday, now I am over my head.
I can't breathe when it's complicated.
It's falling down on me,
I send it back on you.

It's complicated.
I'm been over my head still.
I am suffocating.
It's falling down on me.
I send it back on you.

Get away. Away, Get away.

POP EVIL-ANOTHER ROMEO AND JULIET LYRICS

Well ashes to Ashes.
Love to dust.
Sure as the sun will shine,
And I was lost in lust.
Now I am looking in your eyes,
So black and so cold.
Your words don't mean nothing,
This game is so old.
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.

No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
This is just another Romeo and Juliet.

I swallowed my pride.
And way too many times,
I left my heart wide open.
Now I can't take no more.
Now I guess some things
Are just not meant to be - like you and me.
[ Pop Evil

are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.

No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
This is just another Romeo and Juliet.

Everything's spinning. We're falling faster than ever.
We're on a one way track to a tragic disaster.

No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
This is just another Romeo and Juliet.

I WANNA POINT OUT THE LYRICS I RELATE THE MOST WITH FROM THESE 2 :

All these spoken words,
And broken dreams.
This misery.
All that's good is gone in me.
With every breath,
I can't escape the pain, it's caving in.
I am just about to break. FROM BREATHE.

All these years I try,
N' nothings changed.
I'm about to break
I sacrificed myself.
With every breath,
I can't escape the pain. FROM BREATHE

Sure as the sun will shine,
And I was lost in lust.
Now I am looking in your eyes,
So black and so cold.
Your words don't mean nothing,
This game is so old. FROM ROMEO AND JULIET

You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.FROM R & J ALSO

I swallowed my pride.
And way too many times,
I left my heart wide open.
Now I can't take no more.
Now I guess some things
Are just not meant to be - like you and me. FROM R & J ALSO

THIS WILL ALWAYS BE THE SONG I DEDICATE TO ANY ASSHOLE THAT WANTS TO HURT ME. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE "ONE MORE GOODBYE!" TO ME!

I thought you'd always be there,
Always be there waiting.
Everything we sacrificed, you threw away.
Now I'm prepared to walk,
Too tired, too numb to talk.
Every step I take, can't hid the pain.
What we had, it's over.

I don't wanna see - I don't wanna speak,
I don't wanna hear - Your lies.
I don't understand and I don't even care,
Cuz it's over.
I send you.

One more goodbye.
(This is our last goodbye.)
This is the last letter I write.
One more goodbye.
You can forget about it.
You can just forget about
What we had.

As I lay here in this candle lit room,
Reminiscing about those what could have beens
And will never b's now.
I am tattered, torn, and bruised - Alone,
Heart broke, and used.
But you'll never bury me with your shattered
Dreams and your never afters.

I don't wanna see - I don't wanna speak,
I don't wanna hear - Your lies.
I don't understand and I don't even care,
Cuz it's over.
[ Pop Evil

are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
I send you.

One more goodbye.
(This is our last goodbye.)
This is the last letter I write.
One more goodbye.
You can forget about it.
You can just forget about it.

Let me tell you a story about a man
Who's falling down.
And how he fell form glory on his own.
Let me tell you a story about a man who's in between.
In the end, we stand alone.

One more goodbye.
One more goodbye.
(This is our last goodbye.)
This is the last letter I write.
One more goodbye.
You can forget about it.
You can just forget about...

One more goodbye.
(This is our last goodbye.)
One more goodbye.
(This is our last goodbye.)
One more goodbye.
You can forget about it.
You can just forget about what we had.

I LOVE THIS SONG, I KNEW I WAS GONNA GET ONE MORE GOODBYE TATTED ON ME, BUT NOW I THINK I MAY GET THE WHOLE THING..

WUT IS JUST A GAME FOR YOU IS PLAYING WITH MY HEART. AND THAT IS NOT SOMETHING I PLAY WITH. YOU MIGHT BUT I DONT.

I WANNA KNOW WHY GUYS HURT WOMEN SO FREQUENTLY. I WISH ONE CUD EXPLAIN IT TO ME. YA KNOW EVERY MAN THATS EVER BEEN IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE HAS HURT ME INCLUDING FAMILY!

IM BROKE AND FEEL LIKE I CANT BE FIXED! ITS SAD THAT THESE 3 SONGS DOMINATE MY LIFE , ITS LIKE THEY WROTE THEM JUST FOR ME.. IF I AM JADED IF THIS IS WHAT THIS MEANS THEN SO BE IT, MY HEART IS JUST TIRED.. AND I DONT FEEL LIKE LETTIN IT OUT THERE TO BE HURT ANYMORE ! I THINK I AM FINALLY BROKEN OF ANY BELEIF OF LOVE OR HAPPINESS! MY 2 KIDS ARE THE ONLY 2 PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT LOVE ME!

IF YOU HAVE AN OPINION ABOUT THIS! LEAVE A COMMENT! YOU ALSO DONT KNOW EVERYTHING BUT ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND THAT ITS REAL PAIN FOR ME.

I GUESS A GOOD LOOK INTO MY LIFE IS I NEARLY DIED FROM STRESS THAT A MAN PUT ON ME AND IT CAUSED MY IMMUNE SYSTEM TO WEAKEN AND I CAUGHT SOMETHING THAT VERY NEARLY KILLED ME! SOMETIMES I WISH IT HAD! SEEMS LIKE LESS PAIN TO ACTUALLY JUST CUT MY HEART OUT THAN TO KEEP THIS UP!

NOW FEEL FREE TO COMMENT! ANY OPINIONS ARE APPRECIATED!

THANX FOR READING

~Heather

~*SOUTHERN BELLE

yea so where do i begin? it is so funny to me how serious people get about this site. i am 22 and have 2 kids. i am finishing school. those are my priorities. not fubar BS. some people use this site as a dating site. think about wut this site IS. its a ONLINE BAR. not e harmony or match.com. in my opinion its unlikely you will meet the love of your life here. but if you do dont let them go and give this shit up. it will only bring more problems. so far i have kept myself out of the drama. but it seems like every1 wants to involve you in something. i have my IN REAL LIFE problems. i am NOT gonna have fubar problems. though let me set the record str8 here some people have some things wrong. not once have i tried to start fubar drama. like i said IN REAL LIFE NOT FUBAR. and i never start anything people in real life people know how much shit i have been through and they come to me. im like oprah for my friends. hahahahahahaha. and i need to set the record str8 here too. DONT FLATTER yourself sweety your not that important. it would require me actually doin it for your words to hold any truth. i thought i had made friends and i thought i cud be honest guess not cuz u go and say shit like that. i GIVE UP bein nice to people. you live,love and learn. for those of u that live for the FU and live for the drama see yourselves away from me. it will end at me. i will not participate. i have my kids,family,friends and school i dont need fubar BS too. i love having new friends if you ARE FOR REAL. otherwise take your shit and go somewhere else. i am REAL NOT FAKE. i have real feelings.