HotKisses4u's blog: "Hello Cherries"

Wow, it's so hard to believe this much time has gone by, since my ex gf left me. My first weekend off since I started my new job was a blast. I suppose a little positive affirmation was just what the doctor ordered because I found out that, yes, other people still find me attractive, and, yes, I can sill dance my ass off. That means a lot to me since my ex never wanted to go out with me, other than dinning, and tried to tell me I was too manly because I never wore make up, or dressed all girly girl. Well what the hell would I dress up for just to stay home? Why wear make up and never set foot outside the house except to grocery shop? Work? Too hot to wear makeup. So, it's all good. She is missing out, now, because I will be going out more, now, and being all girly girl, and having a blast without her dragging me down. There is Life After Love is over.

Damn! I hate this post brake-up crap. I'm having a lot of mixed feelings about it, and it's making me nuts. I know that I deserve far better than I ever got from my ex, yet, part of me wants her back. Part of me wants to try again, with her giving me the honest to God chance she never gave me, then if it doesn't work out, split. I guess I want things to be back the way they were because she left me for someone else reinforcing the feelings I had that no matter what I did or didn't do, that I'd never be good enough for her. It seems that my ex was always on the prowl for someone else. If not her ex, then the woman she finally left me for after having an online affair for months. The ex claims to really love me, but wasn't in love with me. I say if she really loved me then she would have moved out at least the first year of our 2 1/2 year realationship in stead of dragging things out like this and hurting me even more. Common sense tells me I was just being used, but my heart still hurts like hell because I was in love with her. I dunno, I just needed to really unload some of this crap.

Just feeling the need to thank my family for the amazing amount of support they are showing me right now. Although my family has never agreed with same sex relationships, the amount of concern for me since the recent break-up with my cheating gf is phenominal. To think I'd spent most of my life not telling anyone that I liked women, as much as men, is a shame. I'd always thought that my family wouldn't love me if they knew, but I was wrong. They neither judge me, nor condem me for the lifestyle I have. More than anything, the outpouring of love and support while I'm going thru all these feelings, is what is keeping me sane. So, THANK YOU, to my wonderful family. I love All of you.

My significant other has cheated on me with some she met online a year ago. She claims she did it because she was home sick, and after catching her showing herself on cam naked, and several other indescretions I wouldn't trust her. Well, it is her fault, the mistrust, and now she's done it again by cheating on me with the person she met online while we were still together and on vacation. She acts like I am wrong for wanting to throw the rest of her things out of my house, not fixing her car so she can come get it, and a bunch of other stupid stuff. Like she is mad now because I changed my profile on my websites to single. She's also blasting me because someone I've only spoken to online has a big crush on me, and thinks I am going to do what she has done and fool around with this other person. The way I see it, she no longer has any rights to me at all. She forfeited those rights when she cheated on me and told me she is in love with the person she cheated with. I guess it just slips her mind that I've not done the same to her, and have asked her to quit playing games with my heart and come home and let's try to fix this. What do yall think?

Hi, fellow Tappers! I've spent the past 2 days updating my stash with some really cool music videos. I've got a couple of funny cat videos in there as well. Please stop by and rate them all. Thanks.....Cherries!

What would you do if your live-in gf stayed in close contact with her ex gf, and would not break all contact even at the risk of losing you? This would not even be a problem if the live-in didn't habitually lie about the contacts, and hadn't done some really bad unmentionalbe things on cam for the ex. I should also mention that the ex has BIG hopes of a reconciliation, and stops at nothing to cause shyt between my girl and I. This has been going on almost 2 1/2 years, now.